I think i might have found sumthing to be addicted to. To release myself.
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How do u deal with depression and negativity? How do u let it out? How do u smile again? Some ppl choose to release it through sports(punching, running) to get their mind off it; some choose to drink in sorrow; some choose to cut themselves; some choose to express it through art and music; some choose to write it down; some choose to do the exact same thing that made them depressed, inflicting the pain on themselves; and some choose to simply run away.
Whatever it is, there is a way of dealing with it.
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Lately, i found myself going thru some things i never thought will happen in my life. It is really wrecking me up. Worse is i dunno what to do about it. I have all these pent-up feelings inside me. Like a war was going on...
Good thing is, i found a way to relieve those frustrations...and that is, to sing K!!
When i sing, i really threw my emotions into it. Let everything be washed away by the loud music and my own terrible singing. Laugh my way out of my saddest thoughts. Enjoying other people's company. Even if it means i'll be screaming my head off, it doesnt matter. Even if it'll make my voice sound hoarse, i'll scream my lungs out till i forget everything.
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I told a friend before that i never paid attention to lyrics when it comes to songs. I usually pay more attention to the beats, the rhythm, the tone. I think its time for me to start paying attention to lyrics, so i can know what is the song for the current chapter or paragraph of my life. Or i wouldnt have to go 'omg...so the lyrics are like this?'.
I wanna be released. And i'm already halfway through it. I can make it.
Sunday, November 22, 2009
Lala...update~
Long time didn't update my blog, it seems.
It has been one crazy month. Days of rushing assignment, sleepless nights and unhealthy food is what i went through. Even though it sucked the life out of me i actually love it....
At least its better than working life anyway.
As of now, i had handed up 2 of my major assignments, 1 more to completely finish, and another due next week. I really can't wait for Tuesday to come and pass. Sighs....ok eunff abt assignments. Talk abt it also sian. Haha. Just know that the end is near...wuahahahah~~
These month also hung out outside alot ohh...among the many things i did is watch more movies in MBO and sing K in KBox, the newly opened karaoke center in Spring. And also celebrated friend's birthdays. Ah Lam and recently Kim's...
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For Ah Lam's we went to movies, after he himself chose to watch movie...originally planned to watch 2012 but since it was opening night the place is full....so in the end we watched 'Fourth Kind' instead...i thought it was a well shot movie despite its plot. Went home the night with scenes from the movie replaying in my head...haha....not bad..one of the better suspense movies i've seen in quite awhile. Oh and not to forget....before the movie we went to this western food place called Richmond...i had blackpepper lambchop (as usual, ^^)..their sauce is reallly nice....cooked quite well, but i still prefer Alfredo's or my cousin's one back in Miri =)) Too bad Alfredo closed...sighss..
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For Kim's we planned a surprise bday party at Pizza Junction...originally planned for Pizza Hut but it was full =.="" So everyone went and waited for the arrival of the bday gal...heheh it was abit awkward at start, but everything went well, everyone was full and everyone had a good time. Got a HUGE bear (really, its bigger than me i think xP) as a gift for her, and is really glad she liked it. A surprise from that night is...how popular the bear actually was with almost everyone!! xD Everyone was like playing with it...even the guys =PP
Another movie we caught is 'Christmas Carol'...caught it in 3D, as Christine wanted to catch a 3D movie...kinda an added plus cos i wanted to watch this too, as i liked the book when i read it waaay back then. The movie started slowly and stuff, but what i liked most abt it is the many different angles u can see happened in the movie. Alot of interesting angles and scenes. However, this movie i think might be a bit slow for the general moviegoer, and the fact that it is in 3D actually made this film better. I dont think it'll be really that interesting if it is in 2D....
That's it about movies and birthdays...now i'm speaking about something i find myself slowly addicted to. Sing K!! LOL. First ever K session in my life was in Absolute last time..this time we went to the newly opened KBox, which is just above MBO.
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First time went there was just a pure random thing...partly due to another one of Sharon's 'random fridays'...after dinner at Secret Garden, a new place i never knew before(the ham cheese-baked rice was AMAZING. According to Jacky, the Vanilla Shake was to DIE FOR. Judging from Sharon's Choc Shake, i can pretty much agree to it....xD) we didnt feel like going back yet...so we randomly went Peter there picked him up, and we all agreed on singing K.
Went O.O when we went in. There were so many rooms! And best thing is one box has 3 microphones...wuahhaha...and we got ourselves a pretty good food package, so the food and drinks are awesome =) the box is also very cold so i recommend everyone be 'wholly' clothed and do bring jacket xD
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Second time we went there is after my MOI and Msian studies assignments...after i got these two over, felt so easy to breath again. They celebrated by watching 'Planet 51' while i went to the Karaoke session after their movie finished. This time they were 5 of us in total; we couldnt get the better food packages(it was only keropok compared to hotdog and fries last time) as we are in an odd number. We decided next time we went for K there we should go in even numbers...wakakaka~~
Besides that, i have many other things to worry about. First is moving out...i havent found a new place to stay!! Anyone any recommendation? xD Second is job...i need job...i pokai liao...hahahahha!
And sum unwanted distractions i wish it never happened. I'm now working on throwing these distractions. Its a one-man war. I'll handle it myself....i want to win this.
It has been one crazy month. Days of rushing assignment, sleepless nights and unhealthy food is what i went through. Even though it sucked the life out of me i actually love it....
At least its better than working life anyway.
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As of now, i had handed up 2 of my major assignments, 1 more to completely finish, and another due next week. I really can't wait for Tuesday to come and pass. Sighs....ok eunff abt assignments. Talk abt it also sian. Haha. Just know that the end is near...wuahahahah~~
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These month also hung out outside alot ohh...among the many things i did is watch more movies in MBO and sing K in KBox, the newly opened karaoke center in Spring. And also celebrated friend's birthdays. Ah Lam and recently Kim's...
##
For Ah Lam's we went to movies, after he himself chose to watch movie...originally planned to watch 2012 but since it was opening night the place is full....so in the end we watched 'Fourth Kind' instead...i thought it was a well shot movie despite its plot. Went home the night with scenes from the movie replaying in my head...haha....not bad..one of the better suspense movies i've seen in quite awhile. Oh and not to forget....before the movie we went to this western food place called Richmond...i had blackpepper lambchop (as usual, ^^)..their sauce is reallly nice....cooked quite well, but i still prefer Alfredo's or my cousin's one back in Miri =)) Too bad Alfredo closed...sighss..
##
For Kim's we planned a surprise bday party at Pizza Junction...originally planned for Pizza Hut but it was full =.="" So everyone went and waited for the arrival of the bday gal...heheh it was abit awkward at start, but everything went well, everyone was full and everyone had a good time. Got a HUGE bear (really, its bigger than me i think xP) as a gift for her, and is really glad she liked it. A surprise from that night is...how popular the bear actually was with almost everyone!! xD Everyone was like playing with it...even the guys =PP
Another movie we caught is 'Christmas Carol'...caught it in 3D, as Christine wanted to catch a 3D movie...kinda an added plus cos i wanted to watch this too, as i liked the book when i read it waaay back then. The movie started slowly and stuff, but what i liked most abt it is the many different angles u can see happened in the movie. Alot of interesting angles and scenes. However, this movie i think might be a bit slow for the general moviegoer, and the fact that it is in 3D actually made this film better. I dont think it'll be really that interesting if it is in 2D....
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That's it about movies and birthdays...now i'm speaking about something i find myself slowly addicted to. Sing K!! LOL. First ever K session in my life was in Absolute last time..this time we went to the newly opened KBox, which is just above MBO.
##
First time went there was just a pure random thing...partly due to another one of Sharon's 'random fridays'...after dinner at Secret Garden, a new place i never knew before(the ham cheese-baked rice was AMAZING. According to Jacky, the Vanilla Shake was to DIE FOR. Judging from Sharon's Choc Shake, i can pretty much agree to it....xD) we didnt feel like going back yet...so we randomly went Peter there picked him up, and we all agreed on singing K.
Went O.O when we went in. There were so many rooms! And best thing is one box has 3 microphones...wuahhaha...and we got ourselves a pretty good food package, so the food and drinks are awesome =) the box is also very cold so i recommend everyone be 'wholly' clothed and do bring jacket xD
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Second time we went there is after my MOI and Msian studies assignments...after i got these two over, felt so easy to breath again. They celebrated by watching 'Planet 51' while i went to the Karaoke session after their movie finished. This time they were 5 of us in total; we couldnt get the better food packages(it was only keropok compared to hotdog and fries last time) as we are in an odd number. We decided next time we went for K there we should go in even numbers...wakakaka~~
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And sum unwanted distractions i wish it never happened. I'm now working on throwing these distractions. Its a one-man war. I'll handle it myself....i want to win this.
Thursday, November 5, 2009
THIS IS IT.
Went and watched MJ's "This Is It" yesterday. I couldn't wait any longer!! I just HAD TO see him!!
The movie didn't disappoint. In the beginning when i saw him...i dunno what i was feeling. Sadness? Wonder? Dread? I dunno. But i knew i went really quiet at the beginnning...but as the movie rolls on and the familiar songs came on, i slowly drowned myself in the movie.
Boy, if he had lived and performed these concerts, it'll be the BEST concert ever. Musically and stage-wise.
The effort and hard work put into the concerts by everyone, especially Michael himself, is highly regarded. I admired the professionalism everyone showed. What's most important is i got to see how a genius works. The way Michael involved himself in everything, i really have respect for his work ethic. His perfectionist nature(a Virgo!! =D ) is partly why everything in the concert looks so amazing.
Another bright new star is of course one Ms. Orianthi Panagasis, who is an AMAZING female guitarist. I swear she won my heart already just by holding the guitar. O.o Hell man i wanna play like that!
I remember asking Dad if 'that blonde girl in "This Is It"' is the same guitarist as the one in MJ's concerts years ago(he had a blonde guitarist too, and her hair i shall never forget xD Her name is Jennifer if i'm not mistaken) My dad said yes...but after i found out that she actually isn't, i began to read on why MJ hired Orianthi to be his guitarist. One must be quite good if able to pass Michael's test...
And she IS good. xD
Another thing i came to understand from the movie is the 'hand-shake' movement MJ seems to always do in his concerts(yes i do watch his concerts lmao)...i always wondered why he did that. I knew there must be a reason(everything he does, from dancing to singing, is his way of expressing SOMETHING. When he sings or dances he feels it and expresses it out. Watch the movie and u'll understand.) why he did that...but i couldnt guess until i saw the movie. The moment i realised it i felt like smacking my head!
For a 50year old guy who has health problems(weak lungs among others) he sure can dance and keep up to his dancers half his age. AMAZING. Another thing is, when he sang, he sounded JUST LIKE how he sounds on official releases of his songs. For a guy whose voice is distinctly different to how it sounded 20 years ago, he really is amazing for managing to 'nail it'. This just shows what a gifted vocalist he is.
New clips to accompany his songs on stage are absolutely *stunning*. "Thriller" and "Earth Song" are top-notch. Wonderful. Marvellous. Its really such a shame it all didn't and won't happen! =(
All the while i was thinking, "he looked SO THIN...." I wonder if the last ever rehearsal was in the movie, i mean just the last one before he died..sighs. Whatever it is, MJ is the world's BEST EVER PERFORMER & ENTERTAINER. Ever. No one can beat him nor replace him.
"This Is It" is also the first ever movie that i sat till the credits rolled out fully. Not that i never wanted to stay behind, but usually the credits either got cut out really early by the workers or my friends wanted to leave or everyone left and the workers are staring at me silently asking me to leave =.="" But this is the first time i stayed till it fully ended, praises to MBO. Nice.
I'm DEFINITELY buying the DVD when it's released next year. Even if it'll cost me an arm and a leg. It's WORTH it. "This Is It" is simply AMAZING.
Trivia : MJ is the one who first invented the 'robot' dance. Cool eh? Genius.
The movie didn't disappoint. In the beginning when i saw him...i dunno what i was feeling. Sadness? Wonder? Dread? I dunno. But i knew i went really quiet at the beginnning...but as the movie rolls on and the familiar songs came on, i slowly drowned myself in the movie.
Boy, if he had lived and performed these concerts, it'll be the BEST concert ever. Musically and stage-wise.
The effort and hard work put into the concerts by everyone, especially Michael himself, is highly regarded. I admired the professionalism everyone showed. What's most important is i got to see how a genius works. The way Michael involved himself in everything, i really have respect for his work ethic. His perfectionist nature(a Virgo!! =D ) is partly why everything in the concert looks so amazing.
Another bright new star is of course one Ms. Orianthi Panagasis, who is an AMAZING female guitarist. I swear she won my heart already just by holding the guitar. O.o Hell man i wanna play like that!
I remember asking Dad if 'that blonde girl in "This Is It"' is the same guitarist as the one in MJ's concerts years ago(he had a blonde guitarist too, and her hair i shall never forget xD Her name is Jennifer if i'm not mistaken) My dad said yes...but after i found out that she actually isn't, i began to read on why MJ hired Orianthi to be his guitarist. One must be quite good if able to pass Michael's test...
And she IS good. xD
Another thing i came to understand from the movie is the 'hand-shake' movement MJ seems to always do in his concerts(yes i do watch his concerts lmao)...i always wondered why he did that. I knew there must be a reason(everything he does, from dancing to singing, is his way of expressing SOMETHING. When he sings or dances he feels it and expresses it out. Watch the movie and u'll understand.) why he did that...but i couldnt guess until i saw the movie. The moment i realised it i felt like smacking my head!
For a 50year old guy who has health problems(weak lungs among others) he sure can dance and keep up to his dancers half his age. AMAZING. Another thing is, when he sang, he sounded JUST LIKE how he sounds on official releases of his songs. For a guy whose voice is distinctly different to how it sounded 20 years ago, he really is amazing for managing to 'nail it'. This just shows what a gifted vocalist he is.
New clips to accompany his songs on stage are absolutely *stunning*. "Thriller" and "Earth Song" are top-notch. Wonderful. Marvellous. Its really such a shame it all didn't and won't happen! =(
All the while i was thinking, "he looked SO THIN...." I wonder if the last ever rehearsal was in the movie, i mean just the last one before he died..sighs. Whatever it is, MJ is the world's BEST EVER PERFORMER & ENTERTAINER. Ever. No one can beat him nor replace him.
"This Is It" is also the first ever movie that i sat till the credits rolled out fully. Not that i never wanted to stay behind, but usually the credits either got cut out really early by the workers or my friends wanted to leave or everyone left and the workers are staring at me silently asking me to leave =.="" But this is the first time i stayed till it fully ended, praises to MBO. Nice.
I'm DEFINITELY buying the DVD when it's released next year. Even if it'll cost me an arm and a leg. It's WORTH it. "This Is It" is simply AMAZING.
Trivia : MJ is the one who first invented the 'robot' dance. Cool eh? Genius.
Wednesday, November 4, 2009
And November came...
Yeah and another month to the end of 2009. WHOA!! Time flies.... xD
Semester gonna end soon...but i have a test on early December...sighs...can't really holiday early. But i can't wait for this sem to be over seriously!!
I wanna look for new place to stay. I am going to be evicted xP Does anyone know where got room to rent? I have a few suggestions already...but still, keeping my eyes out for more. If u know sumwhere just suggest to me ya! Anywhere the area near campus is fine. Easier that way...THANKS IN ADVANCE. xD
Hmm assignments still alot..but soon gonna be finished. Rushed my 2D for 3 days now left with the sound department. LOL. ZOmbie mode these days. Supa unhealthy...sighs.
Ohh ya the typography exhibition is up!! I helped out a bit in the exhibition, nothing much, but it was a GREAT experience....i really enjoyed that.
Hmm..what else ah?? Sighs. I need inspiration and motivation. Gambatte~~
Semester gonna end soon...but i have a test on early December...sighs...can't really holiday early. But i can't wait for this sem to be over seriously!!
I wanna look for new place to stay. I am going to be evicted xP Does anyone know where got room to rent? I have a few suggestions already...but still, keeping my eyes out for more. If u know sumwhere just suggest to me ya! Anywhere the area near campus is fine. Easier that way...THANKS IN ADVANCE. xD
Hmm assignments still alot..but soon gonna be finished. Rushed my 2D for 3 days now left with the sound department. LOL. ZOmbie mode these days. Supa unhealthy...sighs.
Ohh ya the typography exhibition is up!! I helped out a bit in the exhibition, nothing much, but it was a GREAT experience....i really enjoyed that.
Hmm..what else ah?? Sighs. I need inspiration and motivation. Gambatte~~
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