Lately, I have been wondering if it's some sort of jinx....
You see, every time I start to introduce my close friend(s) to mum, as in, tell her their names and what they helped me with, things will happen and my friendship with that person will turn 100x more messier and complicated.
Happened in 2009. Right after I told my mum who those people are, shit happens and the whole group fell out with each other. Well things are slightly better since then but still.
Happened again last month. Or was it July? Can't remember anymore. Mum was like why aren't u telling me the names of ur friends who helped u and got so close to u. And finally I told her. And... weeks later, shit happens. And it's getting messier and I don't know how to fix things anymore.
It's not I don't want to introduce my good friends to mum, I do want to, but... I am more and more afraid of jinxing things up. I know it's really silly and totally unrelated, but why do such "coincidences" keep happening to me?
When my friend told their parents of me, especially being their friend, I feel really warm inside... I want to give some acknowledgement of my friends to my parents too, but... arghhhh... I feel really bad inside too when my parents dunno who are the kind souls who helped their daughter out in the wild.
So is this a jinx? I dunno... I only know I don't like it.
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Monday, September 17, 2012
Monday, June 20, 2011
Travel blog?
Should i do a travel blog?
Lately that has been the question swimming in my head. I've went to a couple of different places, picked up some tips, experienced stuff, ate alot of food, walked alot of places. So should i do a travel blog where i can put down stuffs/tips of travel and share with everyone?
I dont mind sharing tips/information...i'm mre than happy to help other people. Sometimes i can't wait to show my friends what i had ate, which road to take, what sights i've seen. I want ppl to experience the joys i had going thru all that! xD
But another part of me worries that this is gonna be another stale blog...i'm worried after a couple of posts, i'll get tired of it and won't update it as much...i'm just gonna leave it there to be filled with dust. I don't want that! I need a commitment...but i'm unsure right now how much i can give.
Esp with a not-so-stable internet line....i might be put off trying to upload pictures. And there's gonna be alot of pictures if i was to make a travel blog. Come on....a travel blog without pictures is like a blank piece of photograph.
That and hmm.... i wanna tell of my stories to my special someone. LOL i know it's cheesy, but some stories are left for some people, people who will actually go with me on these adventures. Something only we can experience. If i say it all out in the blog...will i have anything else mysterious enough to share? ><
Erghhh...i'm thinking so much >< lol tend to do that. But i haven't reached a decision yet. It's still a baby plan for now....but thoughts please! >< Thank u!
Lately that has been the question swimming in my head. I've went to a couple of different places, picked up some tips, experienced stuff, ate alot of food, walked alot of places. So should i do a travel blog where i can put down stuffs/tips of travel and share with everyone?
I dont mind sharing tips/information...i'm mre than happy to help other people. Sometimes i can't wait to show my friends what i had ate, which road to take, what sights i've seen. I want ppl to experience the joys i had going thru all that! xD
But another part of me worries that this is gonna be another stale blog...i'm worried after a couple of posts, i'll get tired of it and won't update it as much...i'm just gonna leave it there to be filled with dust. I don't want that! I need a commitment...but i'm unsure right now how much i can give.
Esp with a not-so-stable internet line....i might be put off trying to upload pictures. And there's gonna be alot of pictures if i was to make a travel blog. Come on....a travel blog without pictures is like a blank piece of photograph.
That and hmm.... i wanna tell of my stories to my special someone. LOL i know it's cheesy, but some stories are left for some people, people who will actually go with me on these adventures. Something only we can experience. If i say it all out in the blog...will i have anything else mysterious enough to share? ><
Erghhh...i'm thinking so much >< lol tend to do that. But i haven't reached a decision yet. It's still a baby plan for now....but thoughts please! >< Thank u!
RIP Ariadne!
Ariadne is the name i give to my phone, a birthday present i gave myself last year. It was a HTC Aria running on the wonderful Android OS. I had it upgraded to version 2.2 when it "left" me.
I never blogged abt it when i first got it, but rest assured i was very excited abt it that time. It also marked the most expensive single purchase i ever made(prior to that was my own PSP, also a bday present i gave myself). Looks like i really tend to spoil myself...xD
Anyway, this is the second phone i lost on my account. First one is the Nokia 5610 which is passed to me by my dad to use(making it the more guilty ass that i am), which was lost due to pure carelessness(left it in the car). I believe i wrote abt it too back then. ><
So.......................the full story goes like this.
***
I was working on Saturday(11/6) so since i'm already out on the streets i might as well go get some things done: buy tickets to visit my friend in nearby state Ipoh & visit the famous and popular shopping hotspot Midvalley Megamall(cos i never been there before) to kill the rest of the afternoon away.
So after buying the ticket to Ipoh i went to buy ticket to Midvalley (i found out earlier i had to take the KTM train to reach there from KL Sentral), first time using the KTM ticket machine(which is disastrous, it keeps rejecting my notes) which is unlike the LRT ticket machines. ANyway i got my tickets and had some doubts when slipping it into the ticket entry(again faulty-looking old machines ==) but in the end i managed to go to the platform to wait for the train, which is underground.
The platform underground is very stuffy and full of train/metal/charcoal smell. It's not too strong but u can still smell it. And only the platform's lighted, the tracks are not lighted so its slightly dark but overall well-luminated in the important places. As its my first time there, like always i whipped out my phone and started taking pictures of the place, of the tracks and hopefully a video of the train approaching the platform....
There was a bunch of Indians who kept looking at my direction....and as soon as i realise the train isn't going to come as fast & frequent like the LRT, i went and stood on the other side of the platform, away from the Indians and queuing up to board the train.
Finally after abt 10mins the train came, and before it even stopped fully people already started pushing into the train...i was jumped queue by this two women who literally barged their way thru(and giving me a nasty look while at it!)...that was only the beginning of the horror. I was very shocked at the way people seem to not care about the safety of other people and just kept pushing towards the train doors. I started to become distracted by the hoopla surrounding me. That and all i was thinking was "Don't fall! Don't fall!" and with that i pressed my bag against me and felt it pressing my phone(which i put in my pocket to avoid pulling attention to my bag) which by that i can feel my phone's presence with me in the midst of the chaos.
After awhile i was finally right outside the train door and i can see the complete mess in that spot. People who're pushing to get into the train NEVER lets the people inside come out first. So those inside the train was fighting to get out of the train while ppl on the platform are fighting to get in. It was horrible. I knew it was bad, i just never expected it to be THIS bad.
So at the train door there's this tall foreigner who's struggling to get out. He was right in front of me to my left. He barged his way out(all the while shaking his head at the chaos) which ended up pushing the guy infront of me(who is in front of the foreigner)into my path, causing me to stumble back. and the foreigner's water bottle flew out of his bag too as a result, flying onto my direction. So basically the flying water bottle(a big one still 3/4 full of water) and the man in front are both throwing at me. And at this time the fucker behind me KEEPS pushing me in as well, and because of that, i fell.
I lost my footing and balance and i fell but luckily i stood back up on time beforei can fall to the floor and be stomped to death. All this while "I cannot fall! Don't fall!" was the only thing that is running thru my mind. So i did just that. The whole incident made me lose contact with my bag(it was flying away from me) and as a result it kinda left a huge opening to my pocket right at that precise moment. When i stood back up i was being pushed instantly inside(i was about to shout back at the ppl behind me to STOP PUSHING) & honestly all i was thinking is "get inside, get inside, find a place to stand inside!" so i entered the train through the small & instant gap left behind by the foreigner.
When i stood properly inside i felt for my phone, and it was gone. I went O.O and a dreadful feeling came up within me. My phone! Where is my phone? Ohmigod my phone! I searched my pockets again, even searching my bag, but it wasn't in any of them. I looked back to the train door entrance & look at the people standing there (also at the people outside still pushing in) and thought "one of them has it"....
But i was speechless. I didn't shout out & tell everyone i lost my phone. I didn't even ask if anyone has seen it. Cos i'm pretty much sure someone saw it. I knew right there and then i lost it when i nearly fell earlier. At that precise point either someone took it from my pocket or the phone dropped out of my pocket. If it was stolen, the thief would've been gone. He could already be out of the platform and up to the station above, away from the train. Or he could be inside the train with me but hiding himself among the sea of people crammed in the train.
If it was picked up by someone though, they should've seen it belonged to mine cos it was so obvious. They shud've returned to me. But nooo.....ppl act like nothing happened. My heart was beating so fast and i feel so awful at the realisation i had just been robbed. But i didn't do anything either....i stood rooted to the spot, arms clutching my bag tightly to prevent another lost of belonging. The train door closed and started its way to Midvalley(the first stop), and i was probably in the same confinement with the thief but i did nothing....
My mind at that time was already blank and "blue-screen". Regret, anger, sadness, dread, i feel it all at the same time. As the train stopped and people went out, i was already a mess in my head, zero-logic, blanking out. All i could think abt is i lost my phone. Stupidly at that.
Because my phone was a smartphone, naturally i had apps running on them. If the thief manage to unlock my phone and went online with it, they can have access to my online accounts like Facebook, Twitter etc etc. That is purely a strong invasion of privacy, and i'm not going to let them get that. So i quickly went in search of a cybercafe which would enable me to go online and change my account passwords but there was none to be found.
Face it, how possible is it to have a cybercafe in the middle of a high-class shopping and tourist hotspot? None. I think i spent a good hour roaming the area of Midvalley looking for a place to online. The place is huge and beautiful, plenty of shops, plenty of goods, but i am not enjoying it at all. I couldn't even smile; i was sure my expression that time was grief.
My virgin Midvalley & KTM train experience had been spoilt by this incident. I was in no mood to continue find entertainment anymre. So i decided to go back home to where my spare phone(deactivated the SIM card in my smartphone to prevent abuse of the credit by the thief, had to spend RM10 as it was my second "offence" of losing a SIM card) is, and change my passwords on my own computer. I told my friend and my mum abt it....suffice to say mum is angry and disappointed with me. Sigh.
***
So that was how my phone was taken away from me. I should've seen the warnings...wait i did see it bt not consciously...because you see, before i lost my phone, there were already warning signs given to me....i wasn't parallel with the signs so i couldn't read them at the time...but now that i think abt it, yeah the signs were there...
The day before i lost my phone, i left it at home forgot to bring out for work...as a result i was phone-less the whole day...and because of hardly using it the battery pattern was out of schedule too so i had to charge it at work the next day....and the whole time when i was charging it, i kept fidgeting at it for god knows why(i know why now ==). I keep touching my phone checking its battery, and because that day we had third-party cleaners cleaning the office i was adamant to not leave anything(esp my phone) behind in the office, so that it won't be "freely-given" to the cleaners.
In the end it was "freely taken" away from me anyway. =(
U see...the forgetting to bring the phone out. First sign. A sign that warns me the phone is safer back at home. Second sign is the constant fidgeting. It was a subconscious movement by me to keep a tight grip on my phone...
But ultimately the biggest contribution of all is the thought that attracted this thing to happen. I was subconsciously thinking NOT & NEVER to lose the phone, and this thought manifested itself, causing circumstances to arise which made me lose my phone.
Its a deep process which i can't explain in detail here...but what u think, either consciously or subconsciously, attracts things to happen to approve it. Although i never wanted to lose my phone ever, but the fear of losing it became so great it surpassed the thought that i can actually keep it for a long time, thus suppressing it, and attracted powers to make it happen instead.
So....an important advice to all of you: watch and hear your thoughts. Be careful with what you think. You have the power to attract what you want. But you are able to attract what you don't want either. So be wise!
I don't really blame anyone for this incident....but myself. I blame myself alot. It is my responsibility anyway. No excuses. I should've been more alert. I should've put my phone in my bag instead of my pocket. I shouldn't have attracted attention to my phone by taking pictures. There were so many "should have's"....
I accepted it though....i know and accept this. It's really good making peace with yourself. Yes it still makes me sad at times but i can safely say i got over it already. I accepted it is lost(though there's a tiny hope someone will come back and return it to me) and i understand the circumstances that lead to it. This can only be a lesson to learn in my life. :)
Ariadne, you will be deeply missed. Because u are my own birthday present, and because i own u with my own hard-earned money. I'm sorry i couldn't keep u for even a year and i already lost you.
I never blogged abt it when i first got it, but rest assured i was very excited abt it that time. It also marked the most expensive single purchase i ever made(prior to that was my own PSP, also a bday present i gave myself). Looks like i really tend to spoil myself...xD
Anyway, this is the second phone i lost on my account. First one is the Nokia 5610 which is passed to me by my dad to use(making it the more guilty ass that i am), which was lost due to pure carelessness(left it in the car). I believe i wrote abt it too back then. ><
So.......................the full story goes like this.
***
I was working on Saturday(11/6) so since i'm already out on the streets i might as well go get some things done: buy tickets to visit my friend in nearby state Ipoh & visit the famous and popular shopping hotspot Midvalley Megamall(cos i never been there before) to kill the rest of the afternoon away.
So after buying the ticket to Ipoh i went to buy ticket to Midvalley (i found out earlier i had to take the KTM train to reach there from KL Sentral), first time using the KTM ticket machine(which is disastrous, it keeps rejecting my notes) which is unlike the LRT ticket machines. ANyway i got my tickets and had some doubts when slipping it into the ticket entry(again faulty-looking old machines ==) but in the end i managed to go to the platform to wait for the train, which is underground.
The platform underground is very stuffy and full of train/metal/charcoal smell. It's not too strong but u can still smell it. And only the platform's lighted, the tracks are not lighted so its slightly dark but overall well-luminated in the important places. As its my first time there, like always i whipped out my phone and started taking pictures of the place, of the tracks and hopefully a video of the train approaching the platform....
There was a bunch of Indians who kept looking at my direction....and as soon as i realise the train isn't going to come as fast & frequent like the LRT, i went and stood on the other side of the platform, away from the Indians and queuing up to board the train.
Finally after abt 10mins the train came, and before it even stopped fully people already started pushing into the train...i was jumped queue by this two women who literally barged their way thru(and giving me a nasty look while at it!)...that was only the beginning of the horror. I was very shocked at the way people seem to not care about the safety of other people and just kept pushing towards the train doors. I started to become distracted by the hoopla surrounding me. That and all i was thinking was "Don't fall! Don't fall!" and with that i pressed my bag against me and felt it pressing my phone(which i put in my pocket to avoid pulling attention to my bag) which by that i can feel my phone's presence with me in the midst of the chaos.
After awhile i was finally right outside the train door and i can see the complete mess in that spot. People who're pushing to get into the train NEVER lets the people inside come out first. So those inside the train was fighting to get out of the train while ppl on the platform are fighting to get in. It was horrible. I knew it was bad, i just never expected it to be THIS bad.
So at the train door there's this tall foreigner who's struggling to get out. He was right in front of me to my left. He barged his way out(all the while shaking his head at the chaos) which ended up pushing the guy infront of me(who is in front of the foreigner)into my path, causing me to stumble back. and the foreigner's water bottle flew out of his bag too as a result, flying onto my direction. So basically the flying water bottle(a big one still 3/4 full of water) and the man in front are both throwing at me. And at this time the fucker behind me KEEPS pushing me in as well, and because of that, i fell.
I lost my footing and balance and i fell but luckily i stood back up on time beforei can fall to the floor and be stomped to death. All this while "I cannot fall! Don't fall!" was the only thing that is running thru my mind. So i did just that. The whole incident made me lose contact with my bag(it was flying away from me) and as a result it kinda left a huge opening to my pocket right at that precise moment. When i stood back up i was being pushed instantly inside(i was about to shout back at the ppl behind me to STOP PUSHING) & honestly all i was thinking is "get inside, get inside, find a place to stand inside!" so i entered the train through the small & instant gap left behind by the foreigner.
When i stood properly inside i felt for my phone, and it was gone. I went O.O and a dreadful feeling came up within me. My phone! Where is my phone? Ohmigod my phone! I searched my pockets again, even searching my bag, but it wasn't in any of them. I looked back to the train door entrance & look at the people standing there (also at the people outside still pushing in) and thought "one of them has it"....
But i was speechless. I didn't shout out & tell everyone i lost my phone. I didn't even ask if anyone has seen it. Cos i'm pretty much sure someone saw it. I knew right there and then i lost it when i nearly fell earlier. At that precise point either someone took it from my pocket or the phone dropped out of my pocket. If it was stolen, the thief would've been gone. He could already be out of the platform and up to the station above, away from the train. Or he could be inside the train with me but hiding himself among the sea of people crammed in the train.
If it was picked up by someone though, they should've seen it belonged to mine cos it was so obvious. They shud've returned to me. But nooo.....ppl act like nothing happened. My heart was beating so fast and i feel so awful at the realisation i had just been robbed. But i didn't do anything either....i stood rooted to the spot, arms clutching my bag tightly to prevent another lost of belonging. The train door closed and started its way to Midvalley(the first stop), and i was probably in the same confinement with the thief but i did nothing....
My mind at that time was already blank and "blue-screen". Regret, anger, sadness, dread, i feel it all at the same time. As the train stopped and people went out, i was already a mess in my head, zero-logic, blanking out. All i could think abt is i lost my phone. Stupidly at that.
Because my phone was a smartphone, naturally i had apps running on them. If the thief manage to unlock my phone and went online with it, they can have access to my online accounts like Facebook, Twitter etc etc. That is purely a strong invasion of privacy, and i'm not going to let them get that. So i quickly went in search of a cybercafe which would enable me to go online and change my account passwords but there was none to be found.
Face it, how possible is it to have a cybercafe in the middle of a high-class shopping and tourist hotspot? None. I think i spent a good hour roaming the area of Midvalley looking for a place to online. The place is huge and beautiful, plenty of shops, plenty of goods, but i am not enjoying it at all. I couldn't even smile; i was sure my expression that time was grief.
My virgin Midvalley & KTM train experience had been spoilt by this incident. I was in no mood to continue find entertainment anymre. So i decided to go back home to where my spare phone(deactivated the SIM card in my smartphone to prevent abuse of the credit by the thief, had to spend RM10 as it was my second "offence" of losing a SIM card) is, and change my passwords on my own computer. I told my friend and my mum abt it....suffice to say mum is angry and disappointed with me. Sigh.
***
So that was how my phone was taken away from me. I should've seen the warnings...wait i did see it bt not consciously...because you see, before i lost my phone, there were already warning signs given to me....i wasn't parallel with the signs so i couldn't read them at the time...but now that i think abt it, yeah the signs were there...
The day before i lost my phone, i left it at home forgot to bring out for work...as a result i was phone-less the whole day...and because of hardly using it the battery pattern was out of schedule too so i had to charge it at work the next day....and the whole time when i was charging it, i kept fidgeting at it for god knows why(i know why now ==). I keep touching my phone checking its battery, and because that day we had third-party cleaners cleaning the office i was adamant to not leave anything(esp my phone) behind in the office, so that it won't be "freely-given" to the cleaners.
In the end it was "freely taken" away from me anyway. =(
U see...the forgetting to bring the phone out. First sign. A sign that warns me the phone is safer back at home. Second sign is the constant fidgeting. It was a subconscious movement by me to keep a tight grip on my phone...
But ultimately the biggest contribution of all is the thought that attracted this thing to happen. I was subconsciously thinking NOT & NEVER to lose the phone, and this thought manifested itself, causing circumstances to arise which made me lose my phone.
Its a deep process which i can't explain in detail here...but what u think, either consciously or subconsciously, attracts things to happen to approve it. Although i never wanted to lose my phone ever, but the fear of losing it became so great it surpassed the thought that i can actually keep it for a long time, thus suppressing it, and attracted powers to make it happen instead.
So....an important advice to all of you: watch and hear your thoughts. Be careful with what you think. You have the power to attract what you want. But you are able to attract what you don't want either. So be wise!
I don't really blame anyone for this incident....but myself. I blame myself alot. It is my responsibility anyway. No excuses. I should've been more alert. I should've put my phone in my bag instead of my pocket. I shouldn't have attracted attention to my phone by taking pictures. There were so many "should have's"....
I accepted it though....i know and accept this. It's really good making peace with yourself. Yes it still makes me sad at times but i can safely say i got over it already. I accepted it is lost(though there's a tiny hope someone will come back and return it to me) and i understand the circumstances that lead to it. This can only be a lesson to learn in my life. :)
Ariadne, you will be deeply missed. Because u are my own birthday present, and because i own u with my own hard-earned money. I'm sorry i couldn't keep u for even a year and i already lost you.
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Settling in....
Hey everyone! How's everything going?
I'm now in the capital city of Malaysia already, a huge, bustling and busy city filled with life and the complexities that comes with it. >< I've been here since Wed and only yesterday i managed to find a suitable room to rent for the few upcoming months.
It wasn't easy though, alot of the rooms advertised (i found mine online) are already taken, or too expensive for my budget, too far from the LRT stations, empty rooms with no furniture, or only available in the next mth(July). I was beginning to worry alot that i can't find a suitable room before my work starts, until i saw this current one.
It is quite ok, just that i still need to buy my own fan and mattress. Ok for now i think....since i don't have much choice *shrugs* but yeap, i'll move in tmr, then i can consider myself fully settled. xD
In between checking out rooms and some of the areas i went to alot of places these last few days, basically discovering and seeing for myself how the places looks like in (nearly) each of the LRT stations....of course, that included alot of walking ;) It was good exercise anyway, though tiring! xD
Weather here so far ok, but it can be really hot at times. Of course, the air here is worse >< everyday i can see haze around. Unavoidable, since there's so much traffic here. ><
So i guess that's it. For the current update. Haha. Hope u guys are doing fine :) do take care, i love you all!!! ^^
I'm now in the capital city of Malaysia already, a huge, bustling and busy city filled with life and the complexities that comes with it. >< I've been here since Wed and only yesterday i managed to find a suitable room to rent for the few upcoming months.
It wasn't easy though, alot of the rooms advertised (i found mine online) are already taken, or too expensive for my budget, too far from the LRT stations, empty rooms with no furniture, or only available in the next mth(July). I was beginning to worry alot that i can't find a suitable room before my work starts, until i saw this current one.
It is quite ok, just that i still need to buy my own fan and mattress. Ok for now i think....since i don't have much choice *shrugs* but yeap, i'll move in tmr, then i can consider myself fully settled. xD
In between checking out rooms and some of the areas i went to alot of places these last few days, basically discovering and seeing for myself how the places looks like in (nearly) each of the LRT stations....of course, that included alot of walking ;) It was good exercise anyway, though tiring! xD
Weather here so far ok, but it can be really hot at times. Of course, the air here is worse >< everyday i can see haze around. Unavoidable, since there's so much traffic here. ><
So i guess that's it. For the current update. Haha. Hope u guys are doing fine :) do take care, i love you all!!! ^^
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
Dark Jacket.
I have a jacket i never seem to wear. Not because i don't like it, but because....我不舍得。我就是不舍得拿来穿。。。
Its a black hoodie jacket my previous colleagues got me as a farewell gift when i left abt two years ago. Even when they gave me, it took me around more than 6mths to finally wear it. =.=
I have this sort of....fetish? Attitude? I dunno what is the right word...but yeah. I have this sort of "thinking"....when ppl give me stuff i deemed "precious" to me, i will *not* use it...like my friend once gave me a bottle of perfume...and i dunno, it just seemed such a lavish gift to me, and till now i haven't use it... >.<
I did tell my colleagues abt this...abt not using certain stuff cos it was too "precious" to me...i told them that when they asked me to take a pic of myself wearing it. One of them then said to me "Cannot like that....u must wear it to honour ur present....to honour us, ur gift-givers!"
She has a point though.
But still it took me mre than 6mths before i finally wear it(of course i did wash it before zzz)...started to wear it to classes where i know the classroom will be cold, and started to wear it to cinema....damn cold places especially the campus library =.=
Given the level of preciousness this jacket is to me(among other reasons too, like the fact it's one of the better quality clothing i have in my list, and how warm it is (= ), it is very obvious that i will not share it with anyone else. U know some ppl will borrow jackets and stuff, but i was kinda glad no one asked for mine....cos i'm not sure i would've liked it if i had to share it with someone. It's my personal.....thing.
But i shared it with YOU.
Silly you. Forgot to bring it, knowing full well we're going for a movie for the night. The others had on their hoodies as well, except u. So i gave u mine....i can't bear to see u in cold like that. And this, i gave, without hesitation.....i kinda liked it when u are wearing my jacket tho. I was smiling inside...
U looked funny in my jacket. It was too big. Haha. And i knew....back then, when i passed u the jacket, that u meant more to me than anything i could've ever dare imagined. That i'm in deep shit. Sigh.
U wore it until i had to step down frm the car when we went back home. I remember taking it from u and wearing it and liking the warmth u left behind. And i remember smiling all the way while walking back to my room lol. I know, what an idiot. =P
That, now that i look back, seems like ages ago. Things happened, we fell out. And i went back to never wearing the jacket again. Even when i knew i was gonna freeze to death in whichever places i was gonna be in later. The library, the lab, the cinema. I now prefer to wear my other cheaper jacket which i bought years ago. Material is thin, hoodie is too small for my head, but at least another layer of shirt will keep me slightly warmer.
I was wearing it when i was walking back home just now from the cinema. It was raining and windy, so the night's chilly. And as i looked at my brother's comfy black hoodie jacket, i thought of mine folded nicely in my huge luggage back in my apartment.
I haven't worn it in a year.
And all the while i was walking back, i thought of it and the choice of not wearing it. Wearing it brings back the memories....and although i had accepted everything that happened, i still can't deny the fact that now, after everything that has happened, the jacket is now ultra-precious to me.
I will wear it again, no worries. In fact, i look forward to premiering it again soon. Haha. But one thing is for sure....i will NEVER share it with anyone, anymore.
Because u wore it before. And i want u to be the only person other than me who has worn it. U dun have to know this....i'm sure u dun want to know this. But i'll just keep this to myself. Now that i'm leaving...and i'm leaving u, this will be the last item i can remember u by. And also my ex-colleagues, whom i'd rarely keep in touch now...hmmm...
This is the story of a jacket i own and hardly wear.
P/S Really, dun gimme that "It's ONLY a jacket." thing. That shows how much ppl don't understand.
Its a black hoodie jacket my previous colleagues got me as a farewell gift when i left abt two years ago. Even when they gave me, it took me around more than 6mths to finally wear it. =.=
I have this sort of....fetish? Attitude? I dunno what is the right word...but yeah. I have this sort of "thinking"....when ppl give me stuff i deemed "precious" to me, i will *not* use it...like my friend once gave me a bottle of perfume...and i dunno, it just seemed such a lavish gift to me, and till now i haven't use it... >.<
I did tell my colleagues abt this...abt not using certain stuff cos it was too "precious" to me...i told them that when they asked me to take a pic of myself wearing it. One of them then said to me "Cannot like that....u must wear it to honour ur present....to honour us, ur gift-givers!"
She has a point though.
But still it took me mre than 6mths before i finally wear it(of course i did wash it before zzz)...started to wear it to classes where i know the classroom will be cold, and started to wear it to cinema....damn cold places especially the campus library =.=
Given the level of preciousness this jacket is to me(among other reasons too, like the fact it's one of the better quality clothing i have in my list, and how warm it is (= ), it is very obvious that i will not share it with anyone else. U know some ppl will borrow jackets and stuff, but i was kinda glad no one asked for mine....cos i'm not sure i would've liked it if i had to share it with someone. It's my personal.....thing.
But i shared it with YOU.
Silly you. Forgot to bring it, knowing full well we're going for a movie for the night. The others had on their hoodies as well, except u. So i gave u mine....i can't bear to see u in cold like that. And this, i gave, without hesitation.....i kinda liked it when u are wearing my jacket tho. I was smiling inside...
U looked funny in my jacket. It was too big. Haha. And i knew....back then, when i passed u the jacket, that u meant more to me than anything i could've ever dare imagined. That i'm in deep shit. Sigh.
U wore it until i had to step down frm the car when we went back home. I remember taking it from u and wearing it and liking the warmth u left behind. And i remember smiling all the way while walking back to my room lol. I know, what an idiot. =P
That, now that i look back, seems like ages ago. Things happened, we fell out. And i went back to never wearing the jacket again. Even when i knew i was gonna freeze to death in whichever places i was gonna be in later. The library, the lab, the cinema. I now prefer to wear my other cheaper jacket which i bought years ago. Material is thin, hoodie is too small for my head, but at least another layer of shirt will keep me slightly warmer.
I was wearing it when i was walking back home just now from the cinema. It was raining and windy, so the night's chilly. And as i looked at my brother's comfy black hoodie jacket, i thought of mine folded nicely in my huge luggage back in my apartment.
I haven't worn it in a year.
And all the while i was walking back, i thought of it and the choice of not wearing it. Wearing it brings back the memories....and although i had accepted everything that happened, i still can't deny the fact that now, after everything that has happened, the jacket is now ultra-precious to me.
I will wear it again, no worries. In fact, i look forward to premiering it again soon. Haha. But one thing is for sure....i will NEVER share it with anyone, anymore.
Because u wore it before. And i want u to be the only person other than me who has worn it. U dun have to know this....i'm sure u dun want to know this. But i'll just keep this to myself. Now that i'm leaving...and i'm leaving u, this will be the last item i can remember u by. And also my ex-colleagues, whom i'd rarely keep in touch now...hmmm...
This is the story of a jacket i own and hardly wear.
P/S Really, dun gimme that "It's ONLY a jacket." thing. That shows how much ppl don't understand.
Last day.
Spent the (most of) 10/01/11 with my brother. I'd slept the whole day away, awaking at 2pm, which is a first...hmm.
He's leaving this Saturday back to Miri, back to Brunei, back to our parents. Leaving here for good. And since i'm going off on my own vacation tmr, i could only spend this Monday with him.
As usual we hung out at the Spring(where else? lol). Weather isn't good, it was raining as i walked out of the house. Luckily for me, it was raining lightly. "Whispers" of rain, i call it.
Met up, had dinner in KFC, and walked around. He wanted to buy shoes. I wanted to look for beach shorts(i realise i dun have a proper beach short!). In the end i got myself a pair, but he couldn't find a suitable shoe. I think it's best for him to browse and buy back home. There's still time, anyway.
Then we ran out of things to do. Both of us didn't want to end the night so early though...it is the last day we hang out in this place after all. Gotta make it different. So we went up and checked out what movie was showing. He wanted to see Paranormal Activity 2. In the end we watched "The Tourist", mainly because i dun wanna watch "Paranormal", as i'm not a huge fan of that genre.
Went to the last show of the night(10.30pm) and we came out at midnight with the sky...raining hard. And none of us brought umbrellas(i hardly bring umbrella out these days cos its so inconvenient zzz) so we're basically like, stuck in spring. Sat down in the outdoor chairs in Starbucks warming ourselves up from the cold of the cinema.
Soon the rain fell lighter and seizing the opportunity we began to walk back. Huge puddles everywhere and i'm worried we'll be showered by passing cars. Thankfully it didn't happen and we made it back safely. What's odd is that....soon after we're safely back in our rooms, it began to rain hard again...
It's as if God knows we've to walk back and slowed down the rain for us until we got back home.
No matter that is the case or not(ppl will still argue it's just by chance, that the wind blew the heavy clouds off etc etc....), thank u to the universe. =) The movie was okay, and i hope he enjoyed himself. Cos i did.
He's leaving this Saturday back to Miri, back to Brunei, back to our parents. Leaving here for good. And since i'm going off on my own vacation tmr, i could only spend this Monday with him.
As usual we hung out at the Spring(where else? lol). Weather isn't good, it was raining as i walked out of the house. Luckily for me, it was raining lightly. "Whispers" of rain, i call it.
Met up, had dinner in KFC, and walked around. He wanted to buy shoes. I wanted to look for beach shorts(i realise i dun have a proper beach short!). In the end i got myself a pair, but he couldn't find a suitable shoe. I think it's best for him to browse and buy back home. There's still time, anyway.
Then we ran out of things to do. Both of us didn't want to end the night so early though...it is the last day we hang out in this place after all. Gotta make it different. So we went up and checked out what movie was showing. He wanted to see Paranormal Activity 2. In the end we watched "The Tourist", mainly because i dun wanna watch "Paranormal", as i'm not a huge fan of that genre.
Went to the last show of the night(10.30pm) and we came out at midnight with the sky...raining hard. And none of us brought umbrellas(i hardly bring umbrella out these days cos its so inconvenient zzz) so we're basically like, stuck in spring. Sat down in the outdoor chairs in Starbucks warming ourselves up from the cold of the cinema.
Soon the rain fell lighter and seizing the opportunity we began to walk back. Huge puddles everywhere and i'm worried we'll be showered by passing cars. Thankfully it didn't happen and we made it back safely. What's odd is that....soon after we're safely back in our rooms, it began to rain hard again...
It's as if God knows we've to walk back and slowed down the rain for us until we got back home.
No matter that is the case or not(ppl will still argue it's just by chance, that the wind blew the heavy clouds off etc etc....), thank u to the universe. =) The movie was okay, and i hope he enjoyed himself. Cos i did.
Monday, January 10, 2011
Why?
"Why" is a powerful word. It drives people's curiosity. It motivates people to keep going forward to search for the answer. The answer to everything. Why things exist as they are now. Why do WE exist.
Unfortunately, "why" is also a very annoying question. Exasperating, even.
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Why do i exist in this world? What is my purpose, having put on Earth by God? What am i here to achieve?
To be honest, i wanna know the answer too. But i guess no one really knows. Until at least they made some certain impact, i guess. So i have ideas, a few actually. Of why i'm here.
Here are just train of thoughts. Pardon me, but my mind is on overdrive tonite, and i must write..since i find it hard to explain to people.
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For now, i just see myself as a "drifter". I drift from places to places, people to people, from a certain time to a certain time. Its as if i exist in stages. Stages of other people's life, not my own...
I'd like to think of it as a two-way thing. I've always thought things in this world are mutual, are in a circle. In other words, what goes around comes around. Things always exist in duos, in twos, often stark contrast of each other. Men & women. Black & white. Yin & yang.
So if i exist in someone's life for a reason, then it is the same too. They must've had to exist in my life for a certain reason too.
Perhaps my life is a life of constant learning. And somehow it is my job to preach it to others. Some selective individuals not mine for the choosing. I dunno. I somehow seem to meet sumone who goes thru something mre or less similar to me, and i find myself helping them, and in a way, them helping me too. I'm glad and thankful for it. Because i need to know my mistakes too.
Perhaps this is why i never fit in anywhere, because i go thru "stages". It's like in games...where u go to a new world and its checkpoints and u start a new adventure. And u meet new allies and new enemies...but no matter what, for sure u will gain something out of it....memories, experiences. And for sure, u will lose something too...innocence, fear, among others..
But what is most important is, YOU LEARN.
And when u're done with ur "mission" in one place, it is time to leave...perhaps not all the time on ur own wish, but things will happen that ultimately results in u leaving...because, that's where u're supposed to be heading. A new place. Life continues, ppl move on. New things to discover, new things to learn.
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I guess, in a way, that's probably why i stopped asking "why". Why certain things happened to me. Why is that particular door closed. Why do i have to suffer. Why this, why that. I felt....its really whiny. In time i learnt to lessen the "why's" and start to accept and find out the answer, rather than sitting there and waiting for someone to answer my question. No one knows really, except God.
And God will tell u in His way. So be patient, and be alert. He will push u to see the answer!
Have faith in knowing that, and don't worry so much. Let God do the worrying(sorry!), u just go with the flow....
And if it means my river is flowing continuously and i can only stop at jetties for a short while, then so be it.
P/S
- these are thoughts...stuff i analysed and deduced from my own life experiences....i'm not saying this applies to everyone, perhaps it does, perhaps it doesn't. I'm not sure if there's any rules to that, but this is just how i see it. Agree? Disagree? Always happy for a discussion. Btw, what do u think ur purpose of existence is?
Unfortunately, "why" is also a very annoying question. Exasperating, even.
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Why do i exist in this world? What is my purpose, having put on Earth by God? What am i here to achieve?
To be honest, i wanna know the answer too. But i guess no one really knows. Until at least they made some certain impact, i guess. So i have ideas, a few actually. Of why i'm here.
Here are just train of thoughts. Pardon me, but my mind is on overdrive tonite, and i must write..since i find it hard to explain to people.
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For now, i just see myself as a "drifter". I drift from places to places, people to people, from a certain time to a certain time. Its as if i exist in stages. Stages of other people's life, not my own...
I'd like to think of it as a two-way thing. I've always thought things in this world are mutual, are in a circle. In other words, what goes around comes around. Things always exist in duos, in twos, often stark contrast of each other. Men & women. Black & white. Yin & yang.
So if i exist in someone's life for a reason, then it is the same too. They must've had to exist in my life for a certain reason too.
Perhaps my life is a life of constant learning. And somehow it is my job to preach it to others. Some selective individuals not mine for the choosing. I dunno. I somehow seem to meet sumone who goes thru something mre or less similar to me, and i find myself helping them, and in a way, them helping me too. I'm glad and thankful for it. Because i need to know my mistakes too.
Perhaps this is why i never fit in anywhere, because i go thru "stages". It's like in games...where u go to a new world and its checkpoints and u start a new adventure. And u meet new allies and new enemies...but no matter what, for sure u will gain something out of it....memories, experiences. And for sure, u will lose something too...innocence, fear, among others..
But what is most important is, YOU LEARN.
And when u're done with ur "mission" in one place, it is time to leave...perhaps not all the time on ur own wish, but things will happen that ultimately results in u leaving...because, that's where u're supposed to be heading. A new place. Life continues, ppl move on. New things to discover, new things to learn.
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I guess, in a way, that's probably why i stopped asking "why". Why certain things happened to me. Why is that particular door closed. Why do i have to suffer. Why this, why that. I felt....its really whiny. In time i learnt to lessen the "why's" and start to accept and find out the answer, rather than sitting there and waiting for someone to answer my question. No one knows really, except God.
And God will tell u in His way. So be patient, and be alert. He will push u to see the answer!
Have faith in knowing that, and don't worry so much. Let God do the worrying(sorry!), u just go with the flow....
And if it means my river is flowing continuously and i can only stop at jetties for a short while, then so be it.
P/S
- these are thoughts...stuff i analysed and deduced from my own life experiences....i'm not saying this applies to everyone, perhaps it does, perhaps it doesn't. I'm not sure if there's any rules to that, but this is just how i see it. Agree? Disagree? Always happy for a discussion. Btw, what do u think ur purpose of existence is?
Outcast.
I don't really fit in. Come to think of it, i never fit in anywhere at all.
Ever since young, i've always felt like an outsider. Growing up in a country that is not my own. And everyone has this clique or little "groups" that they belong to. Sure, i have some friends too, that are closer to me than mere acquaintances, but at times i feel like i don't know them well at all, and they don't know me too.
So i left and went to places. Again, i was the outcast. Culture shock....as if they saw me as an alien. They don't understand why i did things certain way. Never tried to understand me, just kept assuming and assuming. Bunch of hypocrites, really, considering all those religious teachings they keep preaching. I am related by blood to them...how can they treat me this way?
When the time came to leave, i was more than glad to do so. I finally escaped them, but i find myself again in a new place. New experiences, new things to learn. I was thrilled and excited. Made new friends and hung out...then all the dramas came and i saw them for who they are. It was abit hard trying to fit into them too, but i tried. Hell, i dun even understand the language they mostly speak, i dun even spend enough time in Sarawak to last me enough conversation time with the locals, but i tried. I never fit in, right from the start.
Then i found solace in my classmates. For almost 2 sems, i felt like i finally belonged.....somewhere. Hung out and stuff. But in the back of my mind i knew, these people, i won't be with them forever...i will have to leave them someday. True, because of the financial shit going on, i left. Physically i'm still here of course, but mentally...everytime i walk back into campus and saw them, words like "I dont belong here anymre" runs thru my mind all the time...
Meanwhile, i get to meet a new bunch of friends...lovely bunch, very funny. But exist dramas too...sigh...when can we ever avoid dramas? But this one still ok..i think, with previous experiences, i learnt how to handle it somewhat. Like what they said is really true. U have to go thru certain shit so u know how to better stand against mre shit in the future. Lol.
They actually saved me....i was spiralling into madness and despair until i met them and they healed me back slowly. They don't know this...i guess they will never know what an impact they had made on my life. U know, sometimes, it's the little things that count the most. So whenever i'm with them...i felt safe. Because they want nothing from me...
Which is partly a downside too. They are a bunch of friends themselves who went thru alot of things together. I'm the "new" kid. No, this time i didn't try to force my way in deliberately...i'm at that stage now where i'm the "if u want me there, i'll be there. if not, it's okay" type. Which is why i hardly ask them to hang out. They have their own programs...and lol, really, i am no one to ask. So i only go when i'm invited.
I'm lucky if i'm even remembered. But no worries, these people mean me no harm, and so far they didn't do anything to me, and yes i can feel it within them, they are good people. Prolly the best grp i hung out with so far, despite everything. As much as i appreciate them, i feel like i'm only loosely attached to them.
But that's alrite. I'm leaving again soon anyway.
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U ever wondered what is ur purpose on this world? Why do u exist? Perhaps i shall write abt this in another post, it's beginning to feel like a looong read. And i know how people gets bored easily with tonnes of words. :)
Ever since young, i've always felt like an outsider. Growing up in a country that is not my own. And everyone has this clique or little "groups" that they belong to. Sure, i have some friends too, that are closer to me than mere acquaintances, but at times i feel like i don't know them well at all, and they don't know me too.
So i left and went to places. Again, i was the outcast. Culture shock....as if they saw me as an alien. They don't understand why i did things certain way. Never tried to understand me, just kept assuming and assuming. Bunch of hypocrites, really, considering all those religious teachings they keep preaching. I am related by blood to them...how can they treat me this way?
When the time came to leave, i was more than glad to do so. I finally escaped them, but i find myself again in a new place. New experiences, new things to learn. I was thrilled and excited. Made new friends and hung out...then all the dramas came and i saw them for who they are. It was abit hard trying to fit into them too, but i tried. Hell, i dun even understand the language they mostly speak, i dun even spend enough time in Sarawak to last me enough conversation time with the locals, but i tried. I never fit in, right from the start.
Then i found solace in my classmates. For almost 2 sems, i felt like i finally belonged.....somewhere. Hung out and stuff. But in the back of my mind i knew, these people, i won't be with them forever...i will have to leave them someday. True, because of the financial shit going on, i left. Physically i'm still here of course, but mentally...everytime i walk back into campus and saw them, words like "I dont belong here anymre" runs thru my mind all the time...
Meanwhile, i get to meet a new bunch of friends...lovely bunch, very funny. But exist dramas too...sigh...when can we ever avoid dramas? But this one still ok..i think, with previous experiences, i learnt how to handle it somewhat. Like what they said is really true. U have to go thru certain shit so u know how to better stand against mre shit in the future. Lol.
They actually saved me....i was spiralling into madness and despair until i met them and they healed me back slowly. They don't know this...i guess they will never know what an impact they had made on my life. U know, sometimes, it's the little things that count the most. So whenever i'm with them...i felt safe. Because they want nothing from me...
Which is partly a downside too. They are a bunch of friends themselves who went thru alot of things together. I'm the "new" kid. No, this time i didn't try to force my way in deliberately...i'm at that stage now where i'm the "if u want me there, i'll be there. if not, it's okay" type. Which is why i hardly ask them to hang out. They have their own programs...and lol, really, i am no one to ask. So i only go when i'm invited.
I'm lucky if i'm even remembered. But no worries, these people mean me no harm, and so far they didn't do anything to me, and yes i can feel it within them, they are good people. Prolly the best grp i hung out with so far, despite everything. As much as i appreciate them, i feel like i'm only loosely attached to them.
But that's alrite. I'm leaving again soon anyway.
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U ever wondered what is ur purpose on this world? Why do u exist? Perhaps i shall write abt this in another post, it's beginning to feel like a looong read. And i know how people gets bored easily with tonnes of words. :)
Thursday, January 6, 2011
Surprise, surprise.
Guess what? Last night i got a surprise hug. O__O
It was awkward when it happened. At least to me, i think. Well, last night since we are lack of part-timers my boss re-called one of our colleagues who started with us but left at the end of november last year due to final exams, to stand in for the night with me.
She showed up. That was the first surprise of the night. Cos i thought is another guy part-timer(who sadly is a very slow person, add hyperactive disorder to that, really gives me a major headache) who will come.
Me and her, unspokenly, had disagreements. Mostly me with her i think, but still. She is a good worker, no doubt, and she always strives to better herself. A good point, but sometimes it went too far and she's being very competitive. That and over-zealous to do EVERYTHING. Jeez gimme something to do will ya?
But both of us only wanted the best for the cafe, and for my best, i let her do what she wants as long as she did her job. And that she did. But the price is silence. There was always close-to-zero comunication between us when we worked together. Me remaining tight-lipped so as not to show my frustration towards her(and in doing so keeping my anger in), and her dare not talk so much cos she knows if there's no topic, i won't talk(which is kinda true...i would rather stay silent than participate in meaningless intelligence-deficit conversation).
So there exists this slight tension between us whenever we work...and to be honest, ever since she stopped working and two new douchebags came in for work, i miss her professionalism. So when she came in for work that night, i was relieved, because i don't have to spend the night with either one of the two, which will surely take a huge cut out of my life.
Like usual though, we remain mostly silent. I did my part in briefing her abt the new stuff she missed out while absent, and she took it all in with grace. I made effort this time, in cultivating small talk. I teased her abt her clumsiness(she kept knocking stuff over lol. perhaps too nervous i was around...) and talked abt other things.
Then came an interesting incident. A customer ordered hot latte(and later, hot cappuccino) which she both made(while i did the cold ones. I knew she missed making hot drinks) and i saw that she had vastly improved in her milk pouring, as if she never left, as if she never stopped making hot coffee drinks. She was the first......the first to successfully(and in succession too, so there is consistency) draw patterns over the milk froths on both the cappuccino and latte. She did it.
Her flair for perfection drove her to it. But it really takes patience and continuous dedication to make it work. I, shamefully, did not go as far as her, yet i am not jealous, even though i feel defeated. I wanted to congratulate her on her pattern, but again, i remained silent. Until...
...it is my turn to make both cappuccino and latte, one each. I poured out the cappuccino first. She, as always, watches me while i do it, trying to figure and analyse how i make my drinks. I put it out and told her to serve it first. Then i proceed to the latte, which i myself graded it as a failure, because i made a flat-white, instead of a latte. Still i told her to serve it out.
Minutes later when she came back in and i was cleaning up the coffee machine, she, in a serious tone(like always? lol) said to me "I have a question i wanna ask u." Omg what did i do? I said "Yea?" She continued "I've always wondered how u manage to make the perfect cappuccino...how did u do it???"
Omg wait....WHAT?
Just to make sure, i point to myself and asked "What? Me?" She nodded. I went on and laughed it off, saying "Me? Perfect? I can't even make a pattern like what u did..."
She then went on abt how the original and perfect cappuccino does not need a pattern....how the deco is simply a round blob of white, a creamy texture of milk on top. According to her, i made it just now. And that patterns exist more on lattes....it is less dominant in cappuccinos....
And then it hit me. Yeah....latte art! That was it! For latte!
I kicked myself in the head for forgetting abt that. However grateful i am to her for pointing out what i had done to me, i still reserved some unacceptance of what she said to myself(i don't trust ppl too easily), because, for all i know, she is just being praiseful with motives. But she seemed genuine though, so i took it in a way that is non-too-serious, but not entirely unaccepting too.
I was taken aback when the last surprise came. It was time to go home, and dutifully she recorded her working hours and abt to leave. I was packing away my computer, and she came and had her hand out for a handshake. "Goodbye!" she said. I shook her hand and said the same. When we let go, she said "Come!" and now both her hands are open and i actually said out loud what's in my head "What?" before she hugged me.
I was stunned. My bos's brother and his two cousins were there too, and they saw us. Gave a good-hearted laugh to themselves too and went "aww!!" I quickly regained my loss of words and went "Oh...thanks..." as she patted me on my back. And then we part.
The hug signifies alot. I know what she's doing. That hug alone doesn't mean anything more than "Let's set aside our differences. And make peace." Ok i added the latter as an afterthought but i think the main point is the first line.
And it was she who made that step...and now i wonder, am i really such a close-hearted person? I don't store hate in my heart(and in fact i do NOT hate her at all, just a disliking..) and collect it against time. At least that's saying something. If i really am a close-hearted person i would have rejected her straightaway. Blocked her with my adapter i was holding that time.
In hindsight, i do want peace.
Oh, and how did i answer her question? I simply told her, "I just pour it out like that...no secret or specific way to do it...i just did it without thinking much." I'm not sure if she believed me wholely(if she didn't, its okay, it's her thoughts after all), but it's the truth.
Because u know what, i actually didn't know how to answer her. Because i didn't know the exact answer. I just gave her the next best thing.
Thanks, RN.
Friday, December 31, 2010
Final post 2010
Ok! So i guess this will be the final post for this year. xD I hope i'll write more for the coming new year though. I'm finding writing to be really good therapy, and since i got mre time now on my hands to do what-evs, i might as well write...
Yes i do communicate better through writing i guess...i find myself mre able to express and construct what i wanna say compared to being in an actual conversation where i have to speak.
However, i have one project left undone...that is my #p365....i got lazy in the middle of things, adding that to forgetting to take pictures, or taking pics using different cameras. Last i checked, i was nearing the middle of September....sighh. I have a full 3mth to catch up on! I do wanna continue this into 2011 of course...
Ok i must really do it!
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Going to go to work soon. I really really really hope we can close early today.....i wanna go celebrate New Year's!! >< That and seriously i don't feel like working at all LOL. Siigh.
Oooh and i plan to take a series of pictures as i go thru the day, recording down how today-the last day of 2010 went for me. =D I'll prolly post them up here chronologically, i dunno but i felt like sharing on twitter too LOL bt we'll see how it goes. =)
So until then, this has been an okay year for me. Let what happened in 2010 stay in 2010, and all the best to everyone for 2011!! I actually can't wait for 2010 to end LOL!
Happy New Year 2011!!
(off to work......)
Yes i do communicate better through writing i guess...i find myself mre able to express and construct what i wanna say compared to being in an actual conversation where i have to speak.
However, i have one project left undone...that is my #p365....i got lazy in the middle of things, adding that to forgetting to take pictures, or taking pics using different cameras. Last i checked, i was nearing the middle of September....sighh. I have a full 3mth to catch up on! I do wanna continue this into 2011 of course...
Ok i must really do it!
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Going to go to work soon. I really really really hope we can close early today.....i wanna go celebrate New Year's!! >< That and seriously i don't feel like working at all LOL. Siigh.
Oooh and i plan to take a series of pictures as i go thru the day, recording down how today-the last day of 2010 went for me. =D I'll prolly post them up here chronologically, i dunno but i felt like sharing on twitter too LOL bt we'll see how it goes. =)
So until then, this has been an okay year for me. Let what happened in 2010 stay in 2010, and all the best to everyone for 2011!! I actually can't wait for 2010 to end LOL!
Happy New Year 2011!!
(off to work......)
2010 birthday
I was reading my past blog entries and i realised i did record down how i celebrated my birthdays in the past (well back to 2007 at least, where it was briefly mentioned). And because of me not writing much this year i didn't write down the one this year tho....so in keeping up with the tradition, i decided to write a post on my birthday for this year....
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Unlike in 2009, by September i am already a working adult(adult heh....i feel like a child still), and yes, i have to work on my birthday, though i specially requested to work earlier so i could get off work earlier and spend some time to celebrate my birthday myself.
Yes, by myself. All my friends were busy doing assignments, or had plans on their own. There's no one to celebrate it with me this year. I got alot of well wishes on Facebook, real-life and thru text messages though, so it's not all bad.
Though i wish to spend it with certain someone, but it was very unlikely, so i didn't think of it any further too.
My colleagues didn't even know it was my birthday that day..not even my boss...i didn't tell her the reason for my special request, and she didn't ask too....it was only until the next day then i know that she thought i had a special gathering to attend... LOL....
I'm being very secretive ehh? =P Come on i'm just low-key...
Perhaps the fact that no one was there to celebrate with me kinda pushed me to maintain the silence...i think none of my friends knew i got off work earlier too....maybe i prefer it that way cos i had a plan in mind...
***
My plans for the night after work? An all-night photoshoot by myself in Friendship Garden. I wanna do something EPIC. Initially, i thought of video-recording myself cycling around Kuching...but changed my mind soon abit later. At least, i thought to myself, taking pictures will take my mind off things. It might help in getting something out of the photography block i had then.
So after work i cycled first to the HTC shop to get my protective screen for my new phone(a present i got myself 3 days prior, a HTC Aria phone <3), too bad they don't have the leather flip casing yet, i wanted that too. I cycled all the way back to my apartment (i was already quite breathless and very sweaty, which is why i abandoned the video-recording, cos i didn't have the stamina for it sigh) only to find out my hsemate is preparing to go out with his friends, and they asked me if i wanna join them out(after much pressuring me to not go out on a photoshoot on my own), since they are going downtown for photoshoot anyway at the annual Lantern Festival Carnival.
Why not, eh? At least i got *some* company....
So after waiting for my shower to be done we all set off to town. There were so many people...and alot are holding DSLRs =S i brought my digicam along with my phone, and to my major disappointment both aren't taking satisfactory pictures at all; there was too much noise, and my digicam's shutter speed is too slow and everything blurs =.=!!!
That took a toll on my mood...they saw and kept asking me what's up. Told me i have to cheer up abit, it's my birthday after all. But no...i kinda felt empty inside. I couldn't take good pics! Sigh. The other thoughts come creeping into my mind. No cakes this year(i forgot to buy one for myself...sigh, have to buy for myself again!), no ppl i wanna celebrate with, no nothing...i wanted to do something epic to at least remember this day by, but even that was a goner...of cos i feel abit down, and it kinda showed on my face.
After everyone's done with the place we went to 101 for supper...i had some takoyaki (quite good) and my usual, the Kolo Mee i love very much. My mood eased slightly after the food and light chat, and not long after, it was time to go home.
Before entering my room....my hsemate asked me again if i'm okay. As usual, to many people, i said "I'm fine....its ok, its nothing". It's always that few answers....and seeing that i don't wanna go on anymore, he let me off and wished me Happy Birthday again.
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And that's how my 21st birthday went. THE 21st. Quite boring, isn't it. But oh wells. Let's see how it will be in a years time...
There!! I'm done!! (sorry no pics tho my sorry line is a headache enuff to me). And, in case i forgot next year, pls do remind me to post abt it in the future! LOL! xD
P/S it's 0321 now and i should be sleeping. Right eye is itchy and red again. Argh.
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Unlike in 2009, by September i am already a working adult(adult heh....i feel like a child still), and yes, i have to work on my birthday, though i specially requested to work earlier so i could get off work earlier and spend some time to celebrate my birthday myself.
Yes, by myself. All my friends were busy doing assignments, or had plans on their own. There's no one to celebrate it with me this year. I got alot of well wishes on Facebook, real-life and thru text messages though, so it's not all bad.
Though i wish to spend it with certain someone, but it was very unlikely, so i didn't think of it any further too.
My colleagues didn't even know it was my birthday that day..not even my boss...i didn't tell her the reason for my special request, and she didn't ask too....it was only until the next day then i know that she thought i had a special gathering to attend... LOL....
I'm being very secretive ehh? =P Come on i'm just low-key...
Perhaps the fact that no one was there to celebrate with me kinda pushed me to maintain the silence...i think none of my friends knew i got off work earlier too....maybe i prefer it that way cos i had a plan in mind...
***
My plans for the night after work? An all-night photoshoot by myself in Friendship Garden. I wanna do something EPIC. Initially, i thought of video-recording myself cycling around Kuching...but changed my mind soon abit later. At least, i thought to myself, taking pictures will take my mind off things. It might help in getting something out of the photography block i had then.
So after work i cycled first to the HTC shop to get my protective screen for my new phone(a present i got myself 3 days prior, a HTC Aria phone <3), too bad they don't have the leather flip casing yet, i wanted that too. I cycled all the way back to my apartment (i was already quite breathless and very sweaty, which is why i abandoned the video-recording, cos i didn't have the stamina for it sigh) only to find out my hsemate is preparing to go out with his friends, and they asked me if i wanna join them out(after much pressuring me to not go out on a photoshoot on my own), since they are going downtown for photoshoot anyway at the annual Lantern Festival Carnival.
Why not, eh? At least i got *some* company....
So after waiting for my shower to be done we all set off to town. There were so many people...and alot are holding DSLRs =S i brought my digicam along with my phone, and to my major disappointment both aren't taking satisfactory pictures at all; there was too much noise, and my digicam's shutter speed is too slow and everything blurs =.=!!!
That took a toll on my mood...they saw and kept asking me what's up. Told me i have to cheer up abit, it's my birthday after all. But no...i kinda felt empty inside. I couldn't take good pics! Sigh. The other thoughts come creeping into my mind. No cakes this year(i forgot to buy one for myself...sigh, have to buy for myself again!), no ppl i wanna celebrate with, no nothing...i wanted to do something epic to at least remember this day by, but even that was a goner...of cos i feel abit down, and it kinda showed on my face.
After everyone's done with the place we went to 101 for supper...i had some takoyaki (quite good) and my usual, the Kolo Mee i love very much. My mood eased slightly after the food and light chat, and not long after, it was time to go home.
Before entering my room....my hsemate asked me again if i'm okay. As usual, to many people, i said "I'm fine....its ok, its nothing". It's always that few answers....and seeing that i don't wanna go on anymore, he let me off and wished me Happy Birthday again.
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And that's how my 21st birthday went. THE 21st. Quite boring, isn't it. But oh wells. Let's see how it will be in a years time...
There!! I'm done!! (sorry no pics tho my sorry line is a headache enuff to me). And, in case i forgot next year, pls do remind me to post abt it in the future! LOL! xD
P/S it's 0321 now and i should be sleeping. Right eye is itchy and red again. Argh.
Last day of 2010.
My, how time flies.
I dunno abt u, but 2010 to me, whizzed by so fast i barely even had time to think. Seems like time is speeding up...was it trying to catch up with something?
Many things had happened...mostly sad, disappointing things to me. I lost things, i lost people. I lost alot....
But then again i think....i still have my family...i still have good health(i think)...i met new friends who turned my life around.....i experienced new things....i learnt alot too...
It's not such a bad year after all. True, it is full of heartbreaks, but i'll think of it as a step for me to be stronger to face whatever's ahead.
And i can conclude, my time here is almost up. Whatever plans God has for me in this place, i can feel i've done them all. He put me here for a reason. And the bell is ringing to indicate that the train is leaving soon, and i have to take it. For my next journey.
It has been an educational year. I got all my answers. Thanks to all the people who played a part in my life over the past year. Bless u all.
Happy New Year!! And goodbye 2010!! =)
*P/S This is post #111. Haha. Me and my numbers. LOL. xD
I dunno abt u, but 2010 to me, whizzed by so fast i barely even had time to think. Seems like time is speeding up...was it trying to catch up with something?
Many things had happened...mostly sad, disappointing things to me. I lost things, i lost people. I lost alot....
But then again i think....i still have my family...i still have good health(i think)...i met new friends who turned my life around.....i experienced new things....i learnt alot too...
It's not such a bad year after all. True, it is full of heartbreaks, but i'll think of it as a step for me to be stronger to face whatever's ahead.
And i can conclude, my time here is almost up. Whatever plans God has for me in this place, i can feel i've done them all. He put me here for a reason. And the bell is ringing to indicate that the train is leaving soon, and i have to take it. For my next journey.
It has been an educational year. I got all my answers. Thanks to all the people who played a part in my life over the past year. Bless u all.
Happy New Year!! And goodbye 2010!! =)
*P/S This is post #111. Haha. Me and my numbers. LOL. xD
Thursday, December 30, 2010
New blog?
Am thinking of opening a new blog. This current one are so messed up....haha....
However, i think the new blog(if i do make one) will contain mostly poetic writings i think. Or words suddenly popping into my head as lyrics or something. Nothing too personal and such.
Which means if i do, i will still keep this current one.
Ahh headache. Need to think of a new name. =O
Btw, am thinking of changing my Twitter name and setting it to private.
I even got the new name already ;) i woke up from an alternate Twitter universe and it just came to my mind!! :D
Cool! I stole something from my dreams!! :D
However, i think the new blog(if i do make one) will contain mostly poetic writings i think. Or words suddenly popping into my head as lyrics or something. Nothing too personal and such.
Which means if i do, i will still keep this current one.
Ahh headache. Need to think of a new name. =O
Btw, am thinking of changing my Twitter name and setting it to private.
I even got the new name already ;) i woke up from an alternate Twitter universe and it just came to my mind!! :D
Cool! I stole something from my dreams!! :D
Public holiday
So Malaysia won the AFF Suzuki Cup, and the nation got a public holiday on Dec 31 as a result??
Wow. Seems like we all will declare any day as a very important day just cause the nation achieved something.
Yes, the Cup is important, and according to my friend, it finally came home after 12yrs.
My question is, does that seem like a reasonable reason enough to declare a day to be public holiday?
Ohh yes...12yrs....that is long, and we finally achieved our glory. But hey, it took u 12 years. Is that even something to be proud of? And amidst a very known humiliation that our country's football standards had fallen really deep to the very bottom of the heap. The win, of course, gave some bleak hope to this fast degrading national football team.
Is that all? The only reason to give public servants a day off because of a football team even they themselves looked down on?
Yes, i agree, the team should be congratulated and their achievement appreciated and recognised, but this is not they way.
I predict when the team is back in M'sia they will be showered with gifts and titles or honours.
And then, like previous medal winners before them(in other sports of course), fall into a hopeless and pathetic slump, never achieving anything significant again because they get their heads lost in all that materialistic glory.
Yes i am judging, but unless everyone's attitude changes, even those bestowing the gifts, it will happen.
Wow. Seems like we all will declare any day as a very important day just cause the nation achieved something.
Yes, the Cup is important, and according to my friend, it finally came home after 12yrs.
My question is, does that seem like a reasonable reason enough to declare a day to be public holiday?
Ohh yes...12yrs....that is long, and we finally achieved our glory. But hey, it took u 12 years. Is that even something to be proud of? And amidst a very known humiliation that our country's football standards had fallen really deep to the very bottom of the heap. The win, of course, gave some bleak hope to this fast degrading national football team.
Is that all? The only reason to give public servants a day off because of a football team even they themselves looked down on?
Yes, i agree, the team should be congratulated and their achievement appreciated and recognised, but this is not they way.
I predict when the team is back in M'sia they will be showered with gifts and titles or honours.
And then, like previous medal winners before them(in other sports of course), fall into a hopeless and pathetic slump, never achieving anything significant again because they get their heads lost in all that materialistic glory.
Yes i am judging, but unless everyone's attitude changes, even those bestowing the gifts, it will happen.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
In the little corner....
Went back and read all the posts again....
All i can say is, i miss the old us.
Other than that, i thought i would feel sad....but no, i'm not. Perhaps slightly...but not as much as i thought i would feel.
I feel like continuing the posts. I feel, too, of deleting them. Deleting everything...
But a tiny part of me wants to preserve that. Preserve what is already lost.
Since it doesn't affect me much now, clicking it into oblivion won't change anything. Perhaps, only adding future regret.
What abt continuing it?
I don't know what to write or say, even if it is so.
So shall i leave it as it is? It looks and feels incomplete...everything was hanging there.
I was in the middle of my story. A story i now know nearing its end, but recording-wise, still halfway thru.
Was there even the need to continue it?
I don't know, i don't know....
All i can say is, i miss the old us.
Other than that, i thought i would feel sad....but no, i'm not. Perhaps slightly...but not as much as i thought i would feel.
I feel like continuing the posts. I feel, too, of deleting them. Deleting everything...
But a tiny part of me wants to preserve that. Preserve what is already lost.
Since it doesn't affect me much now, clicking it into oblivion won't change anything. Perhaps, only adding future regret.
What abt continuing it?
I don't know what to write or say, even if it is so.
So shall i leave it as it is? It looks and feels incomplete...everything was hanging there.
I was in the middle of my story. A story i now know nearing its end, but recording-wise, still halfway thru.
Was there even the need to continue it?
I don't know, i don't know....
Monday, December 27, 2010
Merry Christmas!
I'm kinda late now, but still, Merry Christmas!! xD
Christmas this year didnt turn out so bad like hw i imagined. LOL. I thought i wud be drinking in my sorrows alone at home during Christmas. Haha. But nahh, didn't happen. xD
Like last year, went to Spring for the countdown...i think they're making it annual? But i wonder how it's gonna be for next year tho...Kuching'll have two big malls sprawling up by the end of next year i think...
This time tho, went with different friends compared to last year. The grp of friends i went with last year....well. We kinda broke...lost touch with each other. What a difference a year makes...but oh wells.
***
So i had to work still on Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, Boxing Day etc...hahahha...i really thought i won't be able to make it cos i dunno the plans for the night! All i know is...we might close early if we hit the sales target for the day. And boy i was so worked up wishing it will happen quickly LOL.
In the end i did close early, arnd 10pm, and bless my colleague(who was so busy herself she cudnt make it to the dinner we promised to have together), brought me to Spring...but she couldn't find parking and left me to find my friends...kinda sad she can't watch the countdown tho. Sigh.
But i met up with my friends and gosh! The crowd was crazy!! So many ppl! I actually got scolded by someone cos i pushed my way past them...sorry dude!! I admit i was wrong...zzz...anyway i followed my friend's lead out to one side of the area so i could get a nice view of the fireworks.
3mins to countdown....the announcer announced it and everyone cheered. I love it when everyone is cheering...i love it. The atmosphere. Then soon....
10......9.....8......7......6......5......4....3.....2....1...~~~
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And then the fireworks start their show. =D
And i stood there and shot as many as i can, hoping i got the settings right. It's my first time shooting fireworks using DSLR....zzzz. People kept walking past me and hit me, i was kinda annoyed cos it distracted from my picture taking...zzz...
I had my friend help me record a video of the whole spectacle too..so yeah, got it on video and photos!
After it stopped though i just went back home...feels weird coming home so early LOL. Thought i could go for supper or perhaps get some beer. But it's ok, at least i did attend the countdown, better than nothing! xD
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For the Christmas Day itself, yeap, was working too, also closed early but nothing much after that, just went back home....started on watching the Korean show "Iris" though, to catch up with a friend, and so far so good! Liking what i see!
So to conclude, i wud say that this year my Christmas is watered dwn, but still enjoyable.
Lastly, wish everyone a blessed year ahead and once again, Merry Christmas!!
Christmas this year didnt turn out so bad like hw i imagined. LOL. I thought i wud be drinking in my sorrows alone at home during Christmas. Haha. But nahh, didn't happen. xD
Like last year, went to Spring for the countdown...i think they're making it annual? But i wonder how it's gonna be for next year tho...Kuching'll have two big malls sprawling up by the end of next year i think...
This time tho, went with different friends compared to last year. The grp of friends i went with last year....well. We kinda broke...lost touch with each other. What a difference a year makes...but oh wells.
***
So i had to work still on Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, Boxing Day etc...hahahha...i really thought i won't be able to make it cos i dunno the plans for the night! All i know is...we might close early if we hit the sales target for the day. And boy i was so worked up wishing it will happen quickly LOL.
In the end i did close early, arnd 10pm, and bless my colleague(who was so busy herself she cudnt make it to the dinner we promised to have together), brought me to Spring...but she couldn't find parking and left me to find my friends...kinda sad she can't watch the countdown tho. Sigh.
But i met up with my friends and gosh! The crowd was crazy!! So many ppl! I actually got scolded by someone cos i pushed my way past them...sorry dude!! I admit i was wrong...zzz...anyway i followed my friend's lead out to one side of the area so i could get a nice view of the fireworks.
3mins to countdown....the announcer announced it and everyone cheered. I love it when everyone is cheering...i love it. The atmosphere. Then soon....
10......9.....8......7......6......5......4....3.....2....1...~~~
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And then the fireworks start their show. =D
And i stood there and shot as many as i can, hoping i got the settings right. It's my first time shooting fireworks using DSLR....zzzz. People kept walking past me and hit me, i was kinda annoyed cos it distracted from my picture taking...zzz...
I had my friend help me record a video of the whole spectacle too..so yeah, got it on video and photos!
After it stopped though i just went back home...feels weird coming home so early LOL. Thought i could go for supper or perhaps get some beer. But it's ok, at least i did attend the countdown, better than nothing! xD
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For the Christmas Day itself, yeap, was working too, also closed early but nothing much after that, just went back home....started on watching the Korean show "Iris" though, to catch up with a friend, and so far so good! Liking what i see!
So to conclude, i wud say that this year my Christmas is watered dwn, but still enjoyable.
Lastly, wish everyone a blessed year ahead and once again, Merry Christmas!!
Saturday, May 29, 2010
One year.
It had been exactly one year.
If u were to tell me one year later we would arrive at a stage like this, i would've barfed. If u had told me we'd go thru things we went through, i would've laughed at u.
But....things did happen, and who's to change what's already happened?
Anyway, i'll be celebrating this day alone. Yay.
Cheers....
If u were to tell me one year later we would arrive at a stage like this, i would've barfed. If u had told me we'd go thru things we went through, i would've laughed at u.
But....things did happen, and who's to change what's already happened?
Anyway, i'll be celebrating this day alone. Yay.
Cheers....
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Skype.
No one is skyping anymore.
I feel so....lonely. And empty.
I remember last year...Skype is where all the fun happened. We'd be online and talk crap most of the time, but we talked and discussed abt assignments too.
Cant help but think back on the days when we would skype call and discuss abt assignment...i still remember there was once this looong conversation going on...i think abt 5hrs straight before the line turned really bad and it all got cut off. But in the end we called again anyway and continued to talk.... xD
Even had a "designer's area" and shit like that...it was SO MUCH FUN. Talking to each other without seeing each other, cos didnt have class etc..plans to surprise friends are also made there...it was so cool....
Chats that lasted until late nights or early mornings. Jokes that were so funny it was hard to continue typing. Teases here and there.
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Now...the place's just empty. No one is online there anymre. Everyone reverted back to MSN. Or left, because Skype was too much for them. Or they wanna avoid sumone. Or too many painful or regrettable memories. Or too busy etc. Or lazy.
Designer's area is no more. Ppl opted out, no one online anymre. Now whenever i signed onto skype, i don't see everyone anymore. I keep hoping sumone would pop out, but none came.
It was so empty....so lonely. Its like....a ghost town. Or....an abandoned playground. Where there was once happiness and liveliness, now all that's left are barren landscapes of death. Time is still. Not a word, not a sound, not even a whisper.
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Ever read Order of The Phoenix and Half-Blood Prince? Harry and his friends were part of a secret group of the name "Order of Phoenix". When they were discovered, they "disbanded"......but it was later revealed sum of its faithful members had been waiting for a day when all the members get to fight together again as part of the Order.
The faithful members had been holding onto the coin that they shared, waiting for it to glow, to come to life.
I am still waiting for u guys to come back. I am still waiting for it to glow.
But sadly.....everything seems bleak now.
I feel so....lonely. And empty.
I remember last year...Skype is where all the fun happened. We'd be online and talk crap most of the time, but we talked and discussed abt assignments too.
Cant help but think back on the days when we would skype call and discuss abt assignment...i still remember there was once this looong conversation going on...i think abt 5hrs straight before the line turned really bad and it all got cut off. But in the end we called again anyway and continued to talk.... xD
Even had a "designer's area" and shit like that...it was SO MUCH FUN. Talking to each other without seeing each other, cos didnt have class etc..plans to surprise friends are also made there...it was so cool....
Chats that lasted until late nights or early mornings. Jokes that were so funny it was hard to continue typing. Teases here and there.
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Now...the place's just empty. No one is online there anymre. Everyone reverted back to MSN. Or left, because Skype was too much for them. Or they wanna avoid sumone. Or too many painful or regrettable memories. Or too busy etc. Or lazy.
Designer's area is no more. Ppl opted out, no one online anymre. Now whenever i signed onto skype, i don't see everyone anymore. I keep hoping sumone would pop out, but none came.
It was so empty....so lonely. Its like....a ghost town. Or....an abandoned playground. Where there was once happiness and liveliness, now all that's left are barren landscapes of death. Time is still. Not a word, not a sound, not even a whisper.
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Ever read Order of The Phoenix and Half-Blood Prince? Harry and his friends were part of a secret group of the name "Order of Phoenix". When they were discovered, they "disbanded"......but it was later revealed sum of its faithful members had been waiting for a day when all the members get to fight together again as part of the Order.
The faithful members had been holding onto the coin that they shared, waiting for it to glow, to come to life.
I am still waiting for u guys to come back. I am still waiting for it to glow.
But sadly.....everything seems bleak now.
Monday, May 3, 2010
Week 8?? O.o
Wtf it's Week 8 already!!!
Today is the start of school again after the mid-term break.
Haha. The first thing i post when i went to school is "Mid-term break? WHAT mid-term break??"
LOL.
Cos u see, every single day of my mid-term was spent rushing assignment... T.T
But still, its quite a feat. I know i know, i always do things last minute, but hey, at least becos of this i did sum "epic" things....haha...
Not that i'm gonna say what are them here though. Keeping the epicness to myself for now...
Well assignments had been pushed to another deadline...thank goodness we had mre time to finish it..bt it also means we have to fine-tune it to really good...haiz...
Goodluck everyone. March on, soldiers! Let's fight together!!!
Ok i'm getting ahead of myself...back to mre assignments and assignments...goodness its time for Briefs 2 already!!! >.<
Today is the start of school again after the mid-term break.
Haha. The first thing i post when i went to school is "Mid-term break? WHAT mid-term break??"
LOL.
Cos u see, every single day of my mid-term was spent rushing assignment... T.T
But still, its quite a feat. I know i know, i always do things last minute, but hey, at least becos of this i did sum "epic" things....haha...
Not that i'm gonna say what are them here though. Keeping the epicness to myself for now...
Well assignments had been pushed to another deadline...thank goodness we had mre time to finish it..bt it also means we have to fine-tune it to really good...haiz...
Goodluck everyone. March on, soldiers! Let's fight together!!!
Ok i'm getting ahead of myself...back to mre assignments and assignments...goodness its time for Briefs 2 already!!! >.<
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Mid-term break!!!
Finally its mid-term break...lols....i should say "so fast!!!" instead of "finally", since i came in so late to class (for those of u who still dunno what happened, i only went for classes beginning week3(2 subjects week 4!) @.@ that leaves me only 3 weeks to catch up and complete tasks and assignments...
Hmm...so far 2 subjects' assignments have cleared...now i'm left with the game assignment and 3D assignment....deadline extended by the ever so cool and NICE Mr. Augustus....he really is a cool guy!! And i dun mean that only cos he extended for us, but he really is cool! =)
***
Random: i only slept 1 hr today...nw i feel like fainting anytime soon into sleep ahaha....but i dun wanna sleep ler..dunno why...maybe cos dun want waste the first day of holiday by sleeping....haha...feel like want do sumting special, but dunno what ler....haizz...
Hmmm....i joined Photomedia & Design club in my campus oh....and this weekend got trip to Sematang...which i can't go cos no $$...haiz...bo pian~
But this holiday really not like holiday lo...i have to chiong assignment too~~ T.T but musnt get distracted...like that can finish faster!!! =D
***
So far loving it. Studies i mean. It haas been awesome..i find myself really starting to get sucked into the feeling of BEING a designer...i find myself exploring more, thinking more, and even "itch" more to start designing stuff...be it a normal random sketch, a new angle for photography, or a new trailer for a makebelieve film. LOL.
Oh yeah...for video subject...we have to film a TVC(Television Commercial) with a community message...should be fun xD
Whoops that reminds me i didnt take down any notes for Technical Journal...aikz.....die... T.T
Lol too busy doing last min assignment again ~.~
I guess old habit die hard. LOL....
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I think that's all for now....signing off~
*23/04/2010* post
Hmm...so far 2 subjects' assignments have cleared...now i'm left with the game assignment and 3D assignment....deadline extended by the ever so cool and NICE Mr. Augustus....he really is a cool guy!! And i dun mean that only cos he extended for us, but he really is cool! =)
***
Random: i only slept 1 hr today...nw i feel like fainting anytime soon into sleep ahaha....but i dun wanna sleep ler..dunno why...maybe cos dun want waste the first day of holiday by sleeping....haha...feel like want do sumting special, but dunno what ler....haizz...
Hmmm....i joined Photomedia & Design club in my campus oh....and this weekend got trip to Sematang...which i can't go cos no $$...haiz...bo pian~
But this holiday really not like holiday lo...i have to chiong assignment too~~ T.T but musnt get distracted...like that can finish faster!!! =D
***
So far loving it. Studies i mean. It haas been awesome..i find myself really starting to get sucked into the feeling of BEING a designer...i find myself exploring more, thinking more, and even "itch" more to start designing stuff...be it a normal random sketch, a new angle for photography, or a new trailer for a makebelieve film. LOL.
Oh yeah...for video subject...we have to film a TVC(Television Commercial) with a community message...should be fun xD
Whoops that reminds me i didnt take down any notes for Technical Journal...aikz.....die... T.T
Lol too busy doing last min assignment again ~.~
I guess old habit die hard. LOL....
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I think that's all for now....signing off~
*23/04/2010* post
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