Ok! So i guess this will be the final post for this year. xD I hope i'll write more for the coming new year though. I'm finding writing to be really good therapy, and since i got mre time now on my hands to do what-evs, i might as well write...
Yes i do communicate better through writing i guess...i find myself mre able to express and construct what i wanna say compared to being in an actual conversation where i have to speak.
However, i have one project left undone...that is my #p365....i got lazy in the middle of things, adding that to forgetting to take pictures, or taking pics using different cameras. Last i checked, i was nearing the middle of September....sighh. I have a full 3mth to catch up on! I do wanna continue this into 2011 of course...
Ok i must really do it!
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Going to go to work soon. I really really really hope we can close early today.....i wanna go celebrate New Year's!! >< That and seriously i don't feel like working at all LOL. Siigh.
Oooh and i plan to take a series of pictures as i go thru the day, recording down how today-the last day of 2010 went for me. =D I'll prolly post them up here chronologically, i dunno but i felt like sharing on twitter too LOL bt we'll see how it goes. =)
So until then, this has been an okay year for me. Let what happened in 2010 stay in 2010, and all the best to everyone for 2011!! I actually can't wait for 2010 to end LOL!
Happy New Year 2011!!
(off to work......)
Friday, December 31, 2010
2010 birthday
I was reading my past blog entries and i realised i did record down how i celebrated my birthdays in the past (well back to 2007 at least, where it was briefly mentioned). And because of me not writing much this year i didn't write down the one this year tho....so in keeping up with the tradition, i decided to write a post on my birthday for this year....
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Unlike in 2009, by September i am already a working adult(adult heh....i feel like a child still), and yes, i have to work on my birthday, though i specially requested to work earlier so i could get off work earlier and spend some time to celebrate my birthday myself.
Yes, by myself. All my friends were busy doing assignments, or had plans on their own. There's no one to celebrate it with me this year. I got alot of well wishes on Facebook, real-life and thru text messages though, so it's not all bad.
Though i wish to spend it with certain someone, but it was very unlikely, so i didn't think of it any further too.
My colleagues didn't even know it was my birthday that day..not even my boss...i didn't tell her the reason for my special request, and she didn't ask too....it was only until the next day then i know that she thought i had a special gathering to attend... LOL....
I'm being very secretive ehh? =P Come on i'm just low-key...
Perhaps the fact that no one was there to celebrate with me kinda pushed me to maintain the silence...i think none of my friends knew i got off work earlier too....maybe i prefer it that way cos i had a plan in mind...
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My plans for the night after work? An all-night photoshoot by myself in Friendship Garden. I wanna do something EPIC. Initially, i thought of video-recording myself cycling around Kuching...but changed my mind soon abit later. At least, i thought to myself, taking pictures will take my mind off things. It might help in getting something out of the photography block i had then.
So after work i cycled first to the HTC shop to get my protective screen for my new phone(a present i got myself 3 days prior, a HTC Aria phone <3), too bad they don't have the leather flip casing yet, i wanted that too. I cycled all the way back to my apartment (i was already quite breathless and very sweaty, which is why i abandoned the video-recording, cos i didn't have the stamina for it sigh) only to find out my hsemate is preparing to go out with his friends, and they asked me if i wanna join them out(after much pressuring me to not go out on a photoshoot on my own), since they are going downtown for photoshoot anyway at the annual Lantern Festival Carnival.
Why not, eh? At least i got *some* company....
So after waiting for my shower to be done we all set off to town. There were so many people...and alot are holding DSLRs =S i brought my digicam along with my phone, and to my major disappointment both aren't taking satisfactory pictures at all; there was too much noise, and my digicam's shutter speed is too slow and everything blurs =.=!!!
That took a toll on my mood...they saw and kept asking me what's up. Told me i have to cheer up abit, it's my birthday after all. But no...i kinda felt empty inside. I couldn't take good pics! Sigh. The other thoughts come creeping into my mind. No cakes this year(i forgot to buy one for myself...sigh, have to buy for myself again!), no ppl i wanna celebrate with, no nothing...i wanted to do something epic to at least remember this day by, but even that was a goner...of cos i feel abit down, and it kinda showed on my face.
After everyone's done with the place we went to 101 for supper...i had some takoyaki (quite good) and my usual, the Kolo Mee i love very much. My mood eased slightly after the food and light chat, and not long after, it was time to go home.
Before entering my room....my hsemate asked me again if i'm okay. As usual, to many people, i said "I'm fine....its ok, its nothing". It's always that few answers....and seeing that i don't wanna go on anymore, he let me off and wished me Happy Birthday again.
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And that's how my 21st birthday went. THE 21st. Quite boring, isn't it. But oh wells. Let's see how it will be in a years time...
There!! I'm done!! (sorry no pics tho my sorry line is a headache enuff to me). And, in case i forgot next year, pls do remind me to post abt it in the future! LOL! xD
P/S it's 0321 now and i should be sleeping. Right eye is itchy and red again. Argh.
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Unlike in 2009, by September i am already a working adult(adult heh....i feel like a child still), and yes, i have to work on my birthday, though i specially requested to work earlier so i could get off work earlier and spend some time to celebrate my birthday myself.
Yes, by myself. All my friends were busy doing assignments, or had plans on their own. There's no one to celebrate it with me this year. I got alot of well wishes on Facebook, real-life and thru text messages though, so it's not all bad.
Though i wish to spend it with certain someone, but it was very unlikely, so i didn't think of it any further too.
My colleagues didn't even know it was my birthday that day..not even my boss...i didn't tell her the reason for my special request, and she didn't ask too....it was only until the next day then i know that she thought i had a special gathering to attend... LOL....
I'm being very secretive ehh? =P Come on i'm just low-key...
Perhaps the fact that no one was there to celebrate with me kinda pushed me to maintain the silence...i think none of my friends knew i got off work earlier too....maybe i prefer it that way cos i had a plan in mind...
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My plans for the night after work? An all-night photoshoot by myself in Friendship Garden. I wanna do something EPIC. Initially, i thought of video-recording myself cycling around Kuching...but changed my mind soon abit later. At least, i thought to myself, taking pictures will take my mind off things. It might help in getting something out of the photography block i had then.
So after work i cycled first to the HTC shop to get my protective screen for my new phone(a present i got myself 3 days prior, a HTC Aria phone <3), too bad they don't have the leather flip casing yet, i wanted that too. I cycled all the way back to my apartment (i was already quite breathless and very sweaty, which is why i abandoned the video-recording, cos i didn't have the stamina for it sigh) only to find out my hsemate is preparing to go out with his friends, and they asked me if i wanna join them out(after much pressuring me to not go out on a photoshoot on my own), since they are going downtown for photoshoot anyway at the annual Lantern Festival Carnival.
Why not, eh? At least i got *some* company....
So after waiting for my shower to be done we all set off to town. There were so many people...and alot are holding DSLRs =S i brought my digicam along with my phone, and to my major disappointment both aren't taking satisfactory pictures at all; there was too much noise, and my digicam's shutter speed is too slow and everything blurs =.=!!!
That took a toll on my mood...they saw and kept asking me what's up. Told me i have to cheer up abit, it's my birthday after all. But no...i kinda felt empty inside. I couldn't take good pics! Sigh. The other thoughts come creeping into my mind. No cakes this year(i forgot to buy one for myself...sigh, have to buy for myself again!), no ppl i wanna celebrate with, no nothing...i wanted to do something epic to at least remember this day by, but even that was a goner...of cos i feel abit down, and it kinda showed on my face.
After everyone's done with the place we went to 101 for supper...i had some takoyaki (quite good) and my usual, the Kolo Mee i love very much. My mood eased slightly after the food and light chat, and not long after, it was time to go home.
Before entering my room....my hsemate asked me again if i'm okay. As usual, to many people, i said "I'm fine....its ok, its nothing". It's always that few answers....and seeing that i don't wanna go on anymore, he let me off and wished me Happy Birthday again.
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And that's how my 21st birthday went. THE 21st. Quite boring, isn't it. But oh wells. Let's see how it will be in a years time...
There!! I'm done!! (sorry no pics tho my sorry line is a headache enuff to me). And, in case i forgot next year, pls do remind me to post abt it in the future! LOL! xD
P/S it's 0321 now and i should be sleeping. Right eye is itchy and red again. Argh.
Last day of 2010.
My, how time flies.
I dunno abt u, but 2010 to me, whizzed by so fast i barely even had time to think. Seems like time is speeding up...was it trying to catch up with something?
Many things had happened...mostly sad, disappointing things to me. I lost things, i lost people. I lost alot....
But then again i think....i still have my family...i still have good health(i think)...i met new friends who turned my life around.....i experienced new things....i learnt alot too...
It's not such a bad year after all. True, it is full of heartbreaks, but i'll think of it as a step for me to be stronger to face whatever's ahead.
And i can conclude, my time here is almost up. Whatever plans God has for me in this place, i can feel i've done them all. He put me here for a reason. And the bell is ringing to indicate that the train is leaving soon, and i have to take it. For my next journey.
It has been an educational year. I got all my answers. Thanks to all the people who played a part in my life over the past year. Bless u all.
Happy New Year!! And goodbye 2010!! =)
*P/S This is post #111. Haha. Me and my numbers. LOL. xD
I dunno abt u, but 2010 to me, whizzed by so fast i barely even had time to think. Seems like time is speeding up...was it trying to catch up with something?
Many things had happened...mostly sad, disappointing things to me. I lost things, i lost people. I lost alot....
But then again i think....i still have my family...i still have good health(i think)...i met new friends who turned my life around.....i experienced new things....i learnt alot too...
It's not such a bad year after all. True, it is full of heartbreaks, but i'll think of it as a step for me to be stronger to face whatever's ahead.
And i can conclude, my time here is almost up. Whatever plans God has for me in this place, i can feel i've done them all. He put me here for a reason. And the bell is ringing to indicate that the train is leaving soon, and i have to take it. For my next journey.
It has been an educational year. I got all my answers. Thanks to all the people who played a part in my life over the past year. Bless u all.
Happy New Year!! And goodbye 2010!! =)
*P/S This is post #111. Haha. Me and my numbers. LOL. xD
Thursday, December 30, 2010
New blog?
Am thinking of opening a new blog. This current one are so messed up....haha....
However, i think the new blog(if i do make one) will contain mostly poetic writings i think. Or words suddenly popping into my head as lyrics or something. Nothing too personal and such.
Which means if i do, i will still keep this current one.
Ahh headache. Need to think of a new name. =O
Btw, am thinking of changing my Twitter name and setting it to private.
I even got the new name already ;) i woke up from an alternate Twitter universe and it just came to my mind!! :D
Cool! I stole something from my dreams!! :D
However, i think the new blog(if i do make one) will contain mostly poetic writings i think. Or words suddenly popping into my head as lyrics or something. Nothing too personal and such.
Which means if i do, i will still keep this current one.
Ahh headache. Need to think of a new name. =O
Btw, am thinking of changing my Twitter name and setting it to private.
I even got the new name already ;) i woke up from an alternate Twitter universe and it just came to my mind!! :D
Cool! I stole something from my dreams!! :D
Public holiday
So Malaysia won the AFF Suzuki Cup, and the nation got a public holiday on Dec 31 as a result??
Wow. Seems like we all will declare any day as a very important day just cause the nation achieved something.
Yes, the Cup is important, and according to my friend, it finally came home after 12yrs.
My question is, does that seem like a reasonable reason enough to declare a day to be public holiday?
Ohh yes...12yrs....that is long, and we finally achieved our glory. But hey, it took u 12 years. Is that even something to be proud of? And amidst a very known humiliation that our country's football standards had fallen really deep to the very bottom of the heap. The win, of course, gave some bleak hope to this fast degrading national football team.
Is that all? The only reason to give public servants a day off because of a football team even they themselves looked down on?
Yes, i agree, the team should be congratulated and their achievement appreciated and recognised, but this is not they way.
I predict when the team is back in M'sia they will be showered with gifts and titles or honours.
And then, like previous medal winners before them(in other sports of course), fall into a hopeless and pathetic slump, never achieving anything significant again because they get their heads lost in all that materialistic glory.
Yes i am judging, but unless everyone's attitude changes, even those bestowing the gifts, it will happen.
Wow. Seems like we all will declare any day as a very important day just cause the nation achieved something.
Yes, the Cup is important, and according to my friend, it finally came home after 12yrs.
My question is, does that seem like a reasonable reason enough to declare a day to be public holiday?
Ohh yes...12yrs....that is long, and we finally achieved our glory. But hey, it took u 12 years. Is that even something to be proud of? And amidst a very known humiliation that our country's football standards had fallen really deep to the very bottom of the heap. The win, of course, gave some bleak hope to this fast degrading national football team.
Is that all? The only reason to give public servants a day off because of a football team even they themselves looked down on?
Yes, i agree, the team should be congratulated and their achievement appreciated and recognised, but this is not they way.
I predict when the team is back in M'sia they will be showered with gifts and titles or honours.
And then, like previous medal winners before them(in other sports of course), fall into a hopeless and pathetic slump, never achieving anything significant again because they get their heads lost in all that materialistic glory.
Yes i am judging, but unless everyone's attitude changes, even those bestowing the gifts, it will happen.
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
In the little corner....
Went back and read all the posts again....
All i can say is, i miss the old us.
Other than that, i thought i would feel sad....but no, i'm not. Perhaps slightly...but not as much as i thought i would feel.
I feel like continuing the posts. I feel, too, of deleting them. Deleting everything...
But a tiny part of me wants to preserve that. Preserve what is already lost.
Since it doesn't affect me much now, clicking it into oblivion won't change anything. Perhaps, only adding future regret.
What abt continuing it?
I don't know what to write or say, even if it is so.
So shall i leave it as it is? It looks and feels incomplete...everything was hanging there.
I was in the middle of my story. A story i now know nearing its end, but recording-wise, still halfway thru.
Was there even the need to continue it?
I don't know, i don't know....
All i can say is, i miss the old us.
Other than that, i thought i would feel sad....but no, i'm not. Perhaps slightly...but not as much as i thought i would feel.
I feel like continuing the posts. I feel, too, of deleting them. Deleting everything...
But a tiny part of me wants to preserve that. Preserve what is already lost.
Since it doesn't affect me much now, clicking it into oblivion won't change anything. Perhaps, only adding future regret.
What abt continuing it?
I don't know what to write or say, even if it is so.
So shall i leave it as it is? It looks and feels incomplete...everything was hanging there.
I was in the middle of my story. A story i now know nearing its end, but recording-wise, still halfway thru.
Was there even the need to continue it?
I don't know, i don't know....
Monday, December 27, 2010
Merry Christmas!
I'm kinda late now, but still, Merry Christmas!! xD
Christmas this year didnt turn out so bad like hw i imagined. LOL. I thought i wud be drinking in my sorrows alone at home during Christmas. Haha. But nahh, didn't happen. xD
Like last year, went to Spring for the countdown...i think they're making it annual? But i wonder how it's gonna be for next year tho...Kuching'll have two big malls sprawling up by the end of next year i think...
This time tho, went with different friends compared to last year. The grp of friends i went with last year....well. We kinda broke...lost touch with each other. What a difference a year makes...but oh wells.
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So i had to work still on Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, Boxing Day etc...hahahha...i really thought i won't be able to make it cos i dunno the plans for the night! All i know is...we might close early if we hit the sales target for the day. And boy i was so worked up wishing it will happen quickly LOL.
In the end i did close early, arnd 10pm, and bless my colleague(who was so busy herself she cudnt make it to the dinner we promised to have together), brought me to Spring...but she couldn't find parking and left me to find my friends...kinda sad she can't watch the countdown tho. Sigh.
But i met up with my friends and gosh! The crowd was crazy!! So many ppl! I actually got scolded by someone cos i pushed my way past them...sorry dude!! I admit i was wrong...zzz...anyway i followed my friend's lead out to one side of the area so i could get a nice view of the fireworks.
3mins to countdown....the announcer announced it and everyone cheered. I love it when everyone is cheering...i love it. The atmosphere. Then soon....
10......9.....8......7......6......5......4....3.....2....1...~~~
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And then the fireworks start their show. =D
And i stood there and shot as many as i can, hoping i got the settings right. It's my first time shooting fireworks using DSLR....zzzz. People kept walking past me and hit me, i was kinda annoyed cos it distracted from my picture taking...zzz...
I had my friend help me record a video of the whole spectacle too..so yeah, got it on video and photos!
After it stopped though i just went back home...feels weird coming home so early LOL. Thought i could go for supper or perhaps get some beer. But it's ok, at least i did attend the countdown, better than nothing! xD
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For the Christmas Day itself, yeap, was working too, also closed early but nothing much after that, just went back home....started on watching the Korean show "Iris" though, to catch up with a friend, and so far so good! Liking what i see!
So to conclude, i wud say that this year my Christmas is watered dwn, but still enjoyable.
Lastly, wish everyone a blessed year ahead and once again, Merry Christmas!!
Christmas this year didnt turn out so bad like hw i imagined. LOL. I thought i wud be drinking in my sorrows alone at home during Christmas. Haha. But nahh, didn't happen. xD
Like last year, went to Spring for the countdown...i think they're making it annual? But i wonder how it's gonna be for next year tho...Kuching'll have two big malls sprawling up by the end of next year i think...
This time tho, went with different friends compared to last year. The grp of friends i went with last year....well. We kinda broke...lost touch with each other. What a difference a year makes...but oh wells.
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So i had to work still on Christmas Eve, Christmas Day, Boxing Day etc...hahahha...i really thought i won't be able to make it cos i dunno the plans for the night! All i know is...we might close early if we hit the sales target for the day. And boy i was so worked up wishing it will happen quickly LOL.
In the end i did close early, arnd 10pm, and bless my colleague(who was so busy herself she cudnt make it to the dinner we promised to have together), brought me to Spring...but she couldn't find parking and left me to find my friends...kinda sad she can't watch the countdown tho. Sigh.
But i met up with my friends and gosh! The crowd was crazy!! So many ppl! I actually got scolded by someone cos i pushed my way past them...sorry dude!! I admit i was wrong...zzz...anyway i followed my friend's lead out to one side of the area so i could get a nice view of the fireworks.
3mins to countdown....the announcer announced it and everyone cheered. I love it when everyone is cheering...i love it. The atmosphere. Then soon....
10......9.....8......7......6......5......4....3.....2....1...~~~
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
And then the fireworks start their show. =D
And i stood there and shot as many as i can, hoping i got the settings right. It's my first time shooting fireworks using DSLR....zzzz. People kept walking past me and hit me, i was kinda annoyed cos it distracted from my picture taking...zzz...
I had my friend help me record a video of the whole spectacle too..so yeah, got it on video and photos!
After it stopped though i just went back home...feels weird coming home so early LOL. Thought i could go for supper or perhaps get some beer. But it's ok, at least i did attend the countdown, better than nothing! xD
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For the Christmas Day itself, yeap, was working too, also closed early but nothing much after that, just went back home....started on watching the Korean show "Iris" though, to catch up with a friend, and so far so good! Liking what i see!
So to conclude, i wud say that this year my Christmas is watered dwn, but still enjoyable.
Lastly, wish everyone a blessed year ahead and once again, Merry Christmas!!
Tuesday, December 21, 2010
Christmas is near!
But i know, long before Christmas, that it'll be ruined for me.
This will be the 3rd straight year. =(
I love Christmas so much!! Even though i'm not a Christian or even know its origins or whatever, i still love it.
The songs, the atmosphere, the spirit, I LOVE IT!!!!
It's my most favourite festival of the year!!
But it's going to be ruined...
I used to sing happily or hum happily when i hear christmas songs....now the Christmas songs just make me sad.
Especially "Last Christmas" by Wham!. I used to diss this song alot, saying "it's not a Christmas song, its a freaking love song!!"
Yes karma's a bitch, and look what happened. Stuff happened to me almost exactly the same in the song. And what's worse, i hear it EVERYWHERE. Like it isn't enough to drive me to death...
Sigh. Why is my Christmas this year gonna be ruined, u ask?
Well because...i lost everything, and everyone, and because of that, i lost the whole meaning of celebrating it too.
Christmas to me, is also a season of giving & forgiving....i am as happy giving presents as receiving them. Spreading the love, ya know? =)
Bt no....i dun have anyone else to celebrate it with anymore. Damn, i'm even working on Christmas Day. What to celebrate? Who to celebrate with?
Just gimme lotsa beer...and i'll drink myself to sleep i guess...
This will be the 3rd straight year. =(
I love Christmas so much!! Even though i'm not a Christian or even know its origins or whatever, i still love it.
The songs, the atmosphere, the spirit, I LOVE IT!!!!
It's my most favourite festival of the year!!
But it's going to be ruined...
I used to sing happily or hum happily when i hear christmas songs....now the Christmas songs just make me sad.
Especially "Last Christmas" by Wham!. I used to diss this song alot, saying "it's not a Christmas song, its a freaking love song!!"
Yes karma's a bitch, and look what happened. Stuff happened to me almost exactly the same in the song. And what's worse, i hear it EVERYWHERE. Like it isn't enough to drive me to death...
Sigh. Why is my Christmas this year gonna be ruined, u ask?
Well because...i lost everything, and everyone, and because of that, i lost the whole meaning of celebrating it too.
Christmas to me, is also a season of giving & forgiving....i am as happy giving presents as receiving them. Spreading the love, ya know? =)
Bt no....i dun have anyone else to celebrate it with anymore. Damn, i'm even working on Christmas Day. What to celebrate? Who to celebrate with?
Just gimme lotsa beer...and i'll drink myself to sleep i guess...
Goodbye.
It's an elusive word between us. No, for u.
U just left...without saying goodbye. I remember once u said something about hating goodbyes. But now...u're the one leaving, is is so hard to say goodbye?
Two days ago....i had a talk with my friend...i needed someone to scold me...to rationalise me...somehow she did it...i know what i had to do early on, but hearing it from someone else, hearing someone confirm that it is the right decision for me, helped alot...
So when u told me abt her, unlike in the past, i didn't feel anything at all...i didn't feel hurt, didn't feel jealousy, no nothing...i even encouraged u to go after her...this time without dying slowly inside. Hah...the way u apologised to me when u pasted the wrong thing to me. And when u said it's unfair to me....i saw it coming, really. I kinda liked the way u thought that it is unfair to me, and u apologising(even so, i suspect u did it on purpose, pasting the wrong thing)...it kinda means u still care.
A care which obviously isn't as much as before. I don't even know the things u said....i don't know which are the truth, which the lies....i donno how to differentiate anymore. U trusted u completely...but hey, i can see the times when u're lying too. I can only keep forgiving....and keeping my head the other way...
U think i'm slow...yes i'm slow at times. Alot of times. But i know a lie when i see one. I always wanted to confront u with it...but i was too scared to "fuck everything up" again...it was the only thing left between us, u know? And so i pretended to believe what u said...i switched topic...i changed the tone of my voice...and there u go, believing all my acts....believing i'm slow...
Enough. I've had enough. I've been relenting for so long.
Yesterday, i wanted to see u....talk to u....because it is a full, final closure for me. I wanted to wish u the best, wanted to see u for one last time. But no....u gave excuses, many many excuses...to avoid seeing me. U even have ur sis meet me instead and gave me a rather lame excuse, even for ur standard....why issit u don't want to see me?
Haven't u made it clear? Haven't i made it clear? Were u thinking i was trying to go after u again?
See, i wanted to settle everything, all the doubts, all the answers with u yesterday. But all u do is run...
Its my final closure...but somehow it didn't happen the way i want. So does this closure still count then?
***
I still can't believe what i did last night. I risked everything, even my health. In the end i get nothing...but its expected. Just wish u had been mre classy with it.
It's the final time. The final time i will do something so stupid for u. I'm not going to do it anymore.
Ppl will say i'm stupid. Yes i am. But the way i see it, i'm one stupid, hopeless romantic.
U just left...without saying goodbye. I remember once u said something about hating goodbyes. But now...u're the one leaving, is is so hard to say goodbye?
Two days ago....i had a talk with my friend...i needed someone to scold me...to rationalise me...somehow she did it...i know what i had to do early on, but hearing it from someone else, hearing someone confirm that it is the right decision for me, helped alot...
So when u told me abt her, unlike in the past, i didn't feel anything at all...i didn't feel hurt, didn't feel jealousy, no nothing...i even encouraged u to go after her...this time without dying slowly inside. Hah...the way u apologised to me when u pasted the wrong thing to me. And when u said it's unfair to me....i saw it coming, really. I kinda liked the way u thought that it is unfair to me, and u apologising(even so, i suspect u did it on purpose, pasting the wrong thing)...it kinda means u still care.
A care which obviously isn't as much as before. I don't even know the things u said....i don't know which are the truth, which the lies....i donno how to differentiate anymore. U trusted u completely...but hey, i can see the times when u're lying too. I can only keep forgiving....and keeping my head the other way...
U think i'm slow...yes i'm slow at times. Alot of times. But i know a lie when i see one. I always wanted to confront u with it...but i was too scared to "fuck everything up" again...it was the only thing left between us, u know? And so i pretended to believe what u said...i switched topic...i changed the tone of my voice...and there u go, believing all my acts....believing i'm slow...
Enough. I've had enough. I've been relenting for so long.
Yesterday, i wanted to see u....talk to u....because it is a full, final closure for me. I wanted to wish u the best, wanted to see u for one last time. But no....u gave excuses, many many excuses...to avoid seeing me. U even have ur sis meet me instead and gave me a rather lame excuse, even for ur standard....why issit u don't want to see me?
Haven't u made it clear? Haven't i made it clear? Were u thinking i was trying to go after u again?
See, i wanted to settle everything, all the doubts, all the answers with u yesterday. But all u do is run...
Its my final closure...but somehow it didn't happen the way i want. So does this closure still count then?
***
I still can't believe what i did last night. I risked everything, even my health. In the end i get nothing...but its expected. Just wish u had been mre classy with it.
It's the final time. The final time i will do something so stupid for u. I'm not going to do it anymore.
Ppl will say i'm stupid. Yes i am. But the way i see it, i'm one stupid, hopeless romantic.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
Only when u need me.
U only come find me when u want something from me.
A piece of information.....a favour...
Wat else?
It used to be when u wud find me for ANYTHING....
Now u only come to me when u are bored....when u are curious abt stuff i knw which u don't...
You dont even greet me....ask how i am....stuffs...u just jumped straight to YOUR point.....
And when u got what u wanted(how can i ever say no to u?) u just leave the conversation hanging there...
Silence...
In the silence i am waiting....foolishly waiting...
If u'll ever ask me how am i doing, or what's up with me...
Perhaps u sensed it....u sensed the silence...
And then, miraculously...u asked...
"what's up?"
I would've been happy....should've been happy when u asked...
But....i can't help but feel...
U asked just for the sake of asking.
I was tempted....to tell u how i really am.
But...u didn't care from the start. Why should you care now if i tell you?
U didn't even put in heart into what u're asking...
So what if i told u?
U don't care at all.
U asked just for the sake of asking.
And to think....it took this conversation for me to confirm what i've suspected all along...
U 'hid' me didnt u? if u didn't..then u really avoided my stuff...
Until what i had posted or shared...u don't even know.
U really avoided me that much huh. U really went to such lengths to show u dun care huh.
Seriously? After what we've been through...
Am i only worth this much?
Only find me when u are bored...only for information extraction...
Even had to set certain rules when we talk....
Couldn't we talk like how we did before?
I just want us back to where we once used to be...
Before all hell broke loose.
I meant something to u then. Now i mean nothing...
Sometimes i rather u leave me alone...
Sometimes i rather u don't find me at all...
If the only thing u want from me is just information.
A piece of information.....a favour...
Wat else?
It used to be when u wud find me for ANYTHING....
Now u only come to me when u are bored....when u are curious abt stuff i knw which u don't...
You dont even greet me....ask how i am....stuffs...u just jumped straight to YOUR point.....
And when u got what u wanted(how can i ever say no to u?) u just leave the conversation hanging there...
Silence...
In the silence i am waiting....foolishly waiting...
If u'll ever ask me how am i doing, or what's up with me...
Perhaps u sensed it....u sensed the silence...
And then, miraculously...u asked...
"what's up?"
I would've been happy....should've been happy when u asked...
But....i can't help but feel...
U asked just for the sake of asking.
I was tempted....to tell u how i really am.
But...u didn't care from the start. Why should you care now if i tell you?
U didn't even put in heart into what u're asking...
So what if i told u?
U don't care at all.
U asked just for the sake of asking.
And to think....it took this conversation for me to confirm what i've suspected all along...
U 'hid' me didnt u? if u didn't..then u really avoided my stuff...
Until what i had posted or shared...u don't even know.
U really avoided me that much huh. U really went to such lengths to show u dun care huh.
Seriously? After what we've been through...
Am i only worth this much?
Only find me when u are bored...only for information extraction...
Even had to set certain rules when we talk....
Couldn't we talk like how we did before?
I just want us back to where we once used to be...
Before all hell broke loose.
I meant something to u then. Now i mean nothing...
Sometimes i rather u leave me alone...
Sometimes i rather u don't find me at all...
If the only thing u want from me is just information.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Closure.
So. Finally got closure.
I dunno where to go to from here now. But I've said what i needed to say. I did my part.
I dunno how i'm supposed to react. Hurt because of what u said, or jump in jubilation cos i was right.
Either way, the ball's in your court now.
Somehow.....i don't foresee us ever talking again.
I dunno where to go to from here now. But I've said what i needed to say. I did my part.
I dunno how i'm supposed to react. Hurt because of what u said, or jump in jubilation cos i was right.
Either way, the ball's in your court now.
Somehow.....i don't foresee us ever talking again.
Friday, November 26, 2010
"Try not being a misunderstood being."
As if it is that easy. Try.
Hell, ppl misunderstood me without even me trying to.
And the weigh of people's expectations...it just seems like i'm not allowed a space to commit mistakes. I'm not forgiven for some fault i overlook.
If i try to explain why i made certain mistakes, then people start saying how irresponsible of my actions i really am, how i whine to the world no one understood my well-intentions.
Irresponsible? How abt u saying that to urself? U combusted by ur own will attacking me on something YOU misunderstood, and when i showed u the reason and source of the misunderstanding, u just ignored everything like it never happened.
Not even a sorry. Not even an apology for ruining my night. Not even a token of appreciation for my little help. Not even anything...
And u just stood there and encouraged me to hurt myself even deeper, when i've been hurt so much by ur hurtful words and ur general lack of understanding me as a person.
FUCK U.
As if it is that easy. Try.
Hell, ppl misunderstood me without even me trying to.
And the weigh of people's expectations...it just seems like i'm not allowed a space to commit mistakes. I'm not forgiven for some fault i overlook.
If i try to explain why i made certain mistakes, then people start saying how irresponsible of my actions i really am, how i whine to the world no one understood my well-intentions.
Irresponsible? How abt u saying that to urself? U combusted by ur own will attacking me on something YOU misunderstood, and when i showed u the reason and source of the misunderstanding, u just ignored everything like it never happened.
Not even a sorry. Not even an apology for ruining my night. Not even a token of appreciation for my little help. Not even anything...
And u just stood there and encouraged me to hurt myself even deeper, when i've been hurt so much by ur hurtful words and ur general lack of understanding me as a person.
FUCK U.
Saturday, May 29, 2010
One year.
It had been exactly one year.
If u were to tell me one year later we would arrive at a stage like this, i would've barfed. If u had told me we'd go thru things we went through, i would've laughed at u.
But....things did happen, and who's to change what's already happened?
Anyway, i'll be celebrating this day alone. Yay.
Cheers....
If u were to tell me one year later we would arrive at a stage like this, i would've barfed. If u had told me we'd go thru things we went through, i would've laughed at u.
But....things did happen, and who's to change what's already happened?
Anyway, i'll be celebrating this day alone. Yay.
Cheers....
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Skype.
No one is skyping anymore.
I feel so....lonely. And empty.
I remember last year...Skype is where all the fun happened. We'd be online and talk crap most of the time, but we talked and discussed abt assignments too.
Cant help but think back on the days when we would skype call and discuss abt assignment...i still remember there was once this looong conversation going on...i think abt 5hrs straight before the line turned really bad and it all got cut off. But in the end we called again anyway and continued to talk.... xD
Even had a "designer's area" and shit like that...it was SO MUCH FUN. Talking to each other without seeing each other, cos didnt have class etc..plans to surprise friends are also made there...it was so cool....
Chats that lasted until late nights or early mornings. Jokes that were so funny it was hard to continue typing. Teases here and there.
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Now...the place's just empty. No one is online there anymre. Everyone reverted back to MSN. Or left, because Skype was too much for them. Or they wanna avoid sumone. Or too many painful or regrettable memories. Or too busy etc. Or lazy.
Designer's area is no more. Ppl opted out, no one online anymre. Now whenever i signed onto skype, i don't see everyone anymore. I keep hoping sumone would pop out, but none came.
It was so empty....so lonely. Its like....a ghost town. Or....an abandoned playground. Where there was once happiness and liveliness, now all that's left are barren landscapes of death. Time is still. Not a word, not a sound, not even a whisper.
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Ever read Order of The Phoenix and Half-Blood Prince? Harry and his friends were part of a secret group of the name "Order of Phoenix". When they were discovered, they "disbanded"......but it was later revealed sum of its faithful members had been waiting for a day when all the members get to fight together again as part of the Order.
The faithful members had been holding onto the coin that they shared, waiting for it to glow, to come to life.
I am still waiting for u guys to come back. I am still waiting for it to glow.
But sadly.....everything seems bleak now.
I feel so....lonely. And empty.
I remember last year...Skype is where all the fun happened. We'd be online and talk crap most of the time, but we talked and discussed abt assignments too.
Cant help but think back on the days when we would skype call and discuss abt assignment...i still remember there was once this looong conversation going on...i think abt 5hrs straight before the line turned really bad and it all got cut off. But in the end we called again anyway and continued to talk.... xD
Even had a "designer's area" and shit like that...it was SO MUCH FUN. Talking to each other without seeing each other, cos didnt have class etc..plans to surprise friends are also made there...it was so cool....
Chats that lasted until late nights or early mornings. Jokes that were so funny it was hard to continue typing. Teases here and there.
----
Now...the place's just empty. No one is online there anymre. Everyone reverted back to MSN. Or left, because Skype was too much for them. Or they wanna avoid sumone. Or too many painful or regrettable memories. Or too busy etc. Or lazy.
Designer's area is no more. Ppl opted out, no one online anymre. Now whenever i signed onto skype, i don't see everyone anymore. I keep hoping sumone would pop out, but none came.
It was so empty....so lonely. Its like....a ghost town. Or....an abandoned playground. Where there was once happiness and liveliness, now all that's left are barren landscapes of death. Time is still. Not a word, not a sound, not even a whisper.
----
Ever read Order of The Phoenix and Half-Blood Prince? Harry and his friends were part of a secret group of the name "Order of Phoenix". When they were discovered, they "disbanded"......but it was later revealed sum of its faithful members had been waiting for a day when all the members get to fight together again as part of the Order.
The faithful members had been holding onto the coin that they shared, waiting for it to glow, to come to life.
I am still waiting for u guys to come back. I am still waiting for it to glow.
But sadly.....everything seems bleak now.
Monday, May 3, 2010
Week 8?? O.o
Wtf it's Week 8 already!!!
Today is the start of school again after the mid-term break.
Haha. The first thing i post when i went to school is "Mid-term break? WHAT mid-term break??"
LOL.
Cos u see, every single day of my mid-term was spent rushing assignment... T.T
But still, its quite a feat. I know i know, i always do things last minute, but hey, at least becos of this i did sum "epic" things....haha...
Not that i'm gonna say what are them here though. Keeping the epicness to myself for now...
Well assignments had been pushed to another deadline...thank goodness we had mre time to finish it..bt it also means we have to fine-tune it to really good...haiz...
Goodluck everyone. March on, soldiers! Let's fight together!!!
Ok i'm getting ahead of myself...back to mre assignments and assignments...goodness its time for Briefs 2 already!!! >.<
Today is the start of school again after the mid-term break.
Haha. The first thing i post when i went to school is "Mid-term break? WHAT mid-term break??"
LOL.
Cos u see, every single day of my mid-term was spent rushing assignment... T.T
But still, its quite a feat. I know i know, i always do things last minute, but hey, at least becos of this i did sum "epic" things....haha...
Not that i'm gonna say what are them here though. Keeping the epicness to myself for now...
Well assignments had been pushed to another deadline...thank goodness we had mre time to finish it..bt it also means we have to fine-tune it to really good...haiz...
Goodluck everyone. March on, soldiers! Let's fight together!!!
Ok i'm getting ahead of myself...back to mre assignments and assignments...goodness its time for Briefs 2 already!!! >.<
Sunday, April 25, 2010
Mid-term break!!!
Finally its mid-term break...lols....i should say "so fast!!!" instead of "finally", since i came in so late to class (for those of u who still dunno what happened, i only went for classes beginning week3(2 subjects week 4!) @.@ that leaves me only 3 weeks to catch up and complete tasks and assignments...
Hmm...so far 2 subjects' assignments have cleared...now i'm left with the game assignment and 3D assignment....deadline extended by the ever so cool and NICE Mr. Augustus....he really is a cool guy!! And i dun mean that only cos he extended for us, but he really is cool! =)
***
Random: i only slept 1 hr today...nw i feel like fainting anytime soon into sleep ahaha....but i dun wanna sleep ler..dunno why...maybe cos dun want waste the first day of holiday by sleeping....haha...feel like want do sumting special, but dunno what ler....haizz...
Hmmm....i joined Photomedia & Design club in my campus oh....and this weekend got trip to Sematang...which i can't go cos no $$...haiz...bo pian~
But this holiday really not like holiday lo...i have to chiong assignment too~~ T.T but musnt get distracted...like that can finish faster!!! =D
***
So far loving it. Studies i mean. It haas been awesome..i find myself really starting to get sucked into the feeling of BEING a designer...i find myself exploring more, thinking more, and even "itch" more to start designing stuff...be it a normal random sketch, a new angle for photography, or a new trailer for a makebelieve film. LOL.
Oh yeah...for video subject...we have to film a TVC(Television Commercial) with a community message...should be fun xD
Whoops that reminds me i didnt take down any notes for Technical Journal...aikz.....die... T.T
Lol too busy doing last min assignment again ~.~
I guess old habit die hard. LOL....
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I think that's all for now....signing off~
*23/04/2010* post
Hmm...so far 2 subjects' assignments have cleared...now i'm left with the game assignment and 3D assignment....deadline extended by the ever so cool and NICE Mr. Augustus....he really is a cool guy!! And i dun mean that only cos he extended for us, but he really is cool! =)
***
Random: i only slept 1 hr today...nw i feel like fainting anytime soon into sleep ahaha....but i dun wanna sleep ler..dunno why...maybe cos dun want waste the first day of holiday by sleeping....haha...feel like want do sumting special, but dunno what ler....haizz...
Hmmm....i joined Photomedia & Design club in my campus oh....and this weekend got trip to Sematang...which i can't go cos no $$...haiz...bo pian~
But this holiday really not like holiday lo...i have to chiong assignment too~~ T.T but musnt get distracted...like that can finish faster!!! =D
***
So far loving it. Studies i mean. It haas been awesome..i find myself really starting to get sucked into the feeling of BEING a designer...i find myself exploring more, thinking more, and even "itch" more to start designing stuff...be it a normal random sketch, a new angle for photography, or a new trailer for a makebelieve film. LOL.
Oh yeah...for video subject...we have to film a TVC(Television Commercial) with a community message...should be fun xD
Whoops that reminds me i didnt take down any notes for Technical Journal...aikz.....die... T.T
Lol too busy doing last min assignment again ~.~
I guess old habit die hard. LOL....
~~
I think that's all for now....signing off~
*23/04/2010* post
Epicness.
So last saturday my laptop died on me when i have an assignment deadline to meet just that night. I was more than horrified. I hadn't back up any of my files.
I press the "On" button again. The LED indicators flashed on briefly, and there was a sound coming out from the laptop before everything died. i tried again and again, until even the LED indicators didnt even flash on. I was beyond worried.
I tried using plug only. Its the same. The i changed to battery only. Worse. Nothing lits up. I tried both. The LED indicator actually flashed red...so i quickly switch it off.
I googled my problem and came to the nearest conclusion: my motherboard is KO'ed. Shit...i hope the problem's not big else i'd to change the whole motherboard, and rather than doing that why dun i get an entirely new laptop instead =.=""
Sigh.
***
It was not until 3 days later then i had the time to get it checked. To my amazement the girl made my laptop come alive with only the plug connected @.@ i was flabbergasted. Not to mention shocked and embarassed.
"Eh?? Why is this happening?" i said.
"I think its ur battery's problem..." she said. I told her abt the red flashing indicator.
"Yeah seems like it."
@.@
***
So my laptop's ok for the mo...i can only deduce it got short-circuited due to the rainwater i think, when i was bringing it to school that time. I hadnt been using my battery since then; i'm relying on my plug only.
Sigh. Call this epic fail or what? Lol.
*This post should've been finished edited on 07/04/2010.*
I press the "On" button again. The LED indicators flashed on briefly, and there was a sound coming out from the laptop before everything died. i tried again and again, until even the LED indicators didnt even flash on. I was beyond worried.
I tried using plug only. Its the same. The i changed to battery only. Worse. Nothing lits up. I tried both. The LED indicator actually flashed red...so i quickly switch it off.
I googled my problem and came to the nearest conclusion: my motherboard is KO'ed. Shit...i hope the problem's not big else i'd to change the whole motherboard, and rather than doing that why dun i get an entirely new laptop instead =.=""
Sigh.
***
It was not until 3 days later then i had the time to get it checked. To my amazement the girl made my laptop come alive with only the plug connected @.@ i was flabbergasted. Not to mention shocked and embarassed.
"Eh?? Why is this happening?" i said.
"I think its ur battery's problem..." she said. I told her abt the red flashing indicator.
"Yeah seems like it."
@.@
***
So my laptop's ok for the mo...i can only deduce it got short-circuited due to the rainwater i think, when i was bringing it to school that time. I hadnt been using my battery since then; i'm relying on my plug only.
Sigh. Call this epic fail or what? Lol.
*This post should've been finished edited on 07/04/2010.*
Friday, April 2, 2010
Death?
Not until last night had i given this much thought: how easy is it to die?
Last night was so intense, i'm sure i couldn't hold on anymore. I really felt i was dying....or at the very least suffer brain damage due to this intense heat....lol i even went and wiki 'Fever'...i read and thought did i just had hyperthermia instead?
Anyway, back to the topic about death. I realised last night....i could've died so easily and not one of my friends will know. Abit morbid, really, but i actually do wonder what will my friends think if they were to know i died last night and no one knew, no one cared.....
Prolly most of them will go back to living their lives like normal....my death isn't a big issue at all.
But really....in a city with no family and you can only depend on yourself, what happens when u fall sick? When u get mugged by sumone on the streets? Hell if last night i was mugged i won't be able to fight back...seeing how weak i was at that time. I couldn't even raise my umbrella properly.
What to do but suffer alone? Hardly anyone cares anyway.
Last night was so intense, i'm sure i couldn't hold on anymore. I really felt i was dying....or at the very least suffer brain damage due to this intense heat....lol i even went and wiki 'Fever'...i read and thought did i just had hyperthermia instead?
Anyway, back to the topic about death. I realised last night....i could've died so easily and not one of my friends will know. Abit morbid, really, but i actually do wonder what will my friends think if they were to know i died last night and no one knew, no one cared.....
Prolly most of them will go back to living their lives like normal....my death isn't a big issue at all.
But really....in a city with no family and you can only depend on yourself, what happens when u fall sick? When u get mugged by sumone on the streets? Hell if last night i was mugged i won't be able to fight back...seeing how weak i was at that time. I couldn't even raise my umbrella properly.
What to do but suffer alone? Hardly anyone cares anyway.
40 Degrees.
U ever had a fever and got SO hot until u feel like u're on fire and about to combust anytime soon?
Lol i never. Until last night. Ever since two days ago i went out and have chakueh, i've had this uneasy feeling in the throat. Throughout the whole yesterday morning this feeling grew, and by the time i reached late afternoon i can feel a small lump in my throat.
I thought it'll go away, but it didn't. In fact, it got worse rapidly with a speed that surprises me. I guess eating a chilli-laden Thai chicken rice helped abit in the lump's growth. Sigh. And then by the time i was packing to go back home at night i already have difficulty swallowing....slight dizziness came along and i start to feel cold...
All the time i'm walking home i feel cold...which is surprising, cos normally it feels hot as u had to sweat on the way back. But i didnt...i even started trembling a little...i thought i was feeling cold becos of the night wind....then i decided to head over to 101 and get myself that limewater my friend had last time which totally soothed his throat...
I didn't order it rightaway though. Instead i went to the stall selling ice and ask what is good to reduce heatiness. The guy suggested honeydew and i agreed. He made a honeydew ice and to my utmost horror it was filled with coconut santan...that isn't going to help my throat!!! @.@
Then i ordered the lime drink....but it was without semboi and is served cold. By the time i had finished half of the ice i was already shivering from the cold. "Uh-oh" i thought. "Eating ice is the wrong idea....." What do i know? All i was thinking at that time is to just get sumting cold to numb the throat....
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I didn't realise it actually at that time, but drinking cold stuff worsens the fever. It made my body react to the coldness, that's why i was shivering. To produce heat. This added fire to the already heaty feeling i got, and when i finished it was with utmost difficulty i walked back, trying not to faint, cos i was feeling like it. I couldn't even walk properly, my legs are so weak and joints hurt....
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So cold...........my teeth was even chattering. Yet i know inside i'm boiling up. Went into my room and straightaway lay down on my bed, covering myself trying to sleep it away. My vision was blurry and my head felt like it was gonna explode. All my joints were hurting at this time. Even my eyes were painful from the overheating. I was on fire!!!
When i woke up suddenly 2hrs later, it was already 1am plus, and my head was burning & dizzy....my whole body feels hot and i was sweating only a little. Dragged myself to the loo and came back in and continue to sleep...woke up again twice in the night for the loo....haha...i drank so much earlier... =.="
***
Then i woke up around 10sumting this morning. I wasn''t feeling as hot as last night; the heat had reduced. But i still have the cold feeling u get when u're in fever. My eyes was stinging though. So much pain everytime i blink. Even my lump had reduced.....i'm now only left with a very soft voice, painful joints and muscles, especially the legs. Goodness....at least my brain is still safe. I was so sure it'll be sooooo hot that i'll suffer brain damage and became a retard(sorry for the offensive term used).
What a time to fall sick. I've got so many assignments to do but all i want to do now is sleep and sleep and sleep. Fever makes me sleepy...but i know enough time was wasted....i've really got to get the things done...but my head is so heavy......arghh........
Funny, i almost always learn lessons the hard way. I must always go through some sort of physical or emotional pain before i 'get it'. Hmmm i guess only by this way that i will learn? Hmmmm........
Tired....i feel so weak..............................ughhhhhhh.....................
Lol i never. Until last night. Ever since two days ago i went out and have chakueh, i've had this uneasy feeling in the throat. Throughout the whole yesterday morning this feeling grew, and by the time i reached late afternoon i can feel a small lump in my throat.
I thought it'll go away, but it didn't. In fact, it got worse rapidly with a speed that surprises me. I guess eating a chilli-laden Thai chicken rice helped abit in the lump's growth. Sigh. And then by the time i was packing to go back home at night i already have difficulty swallowing....slight dizziness came along and i start to feel cold...
All the time i'm walking home i feel cold...which is surprising, cos normally it feels hot as u had to sweat on the way back. But i didnt...i even started trembling a little...i thought i was feeling cold becos of the night wind....then i decided to head over to 101 and get myself that limewater my friend had last time which totally soothed his throat...
I didn't order it rightaway though. Instead i went to the stall selling ice and ask what is good to reduce heatiness. The guy suggested honeydew and i agreed. He made a honeydew ice and to my utmost horror it was filled with coconut santan...that isn't going to help my throat!!! @.@
Then i ordered the lime drink....but it was without semboi and is served cold. By the time i had finished half of the ice i was already shivering from the cold. "Uh-oh" i thought. "Eating ice is the wrong idea....." What do i know? All i was thinking at that time is to just get sumting cold to numb the throat....
----
I didn't realise it actually at that time, but drinking cold stuff worsens the fever. It made my body react to the coldness, that's why i was shivering. To produce heat. This added fire to the already heaty feeling i got, and when i finished it was with utmost difficulty i walked back, trying not to faint, cos i was feeling like it. I couldn't even walk properly, my legs are so weak and joints hurt....
----
So cold...........my teeth was even chattering. Yet i know inside i'm boiling up. Went into my room and straightaway lay down on my bed, covering myself trying to sleep it away. My vision was blurry and my head felt like it was gonna explode. All my joints were hurting at this time. Even my eyes were painful from the overheating. I was on fire!!!
When i woke up suddenly 2hrs later, it was already 1am plus, and my head was burning & dizzy....my whole body feels hot and i was sweating only a little. Dragged myself to the loo and came back in and continue to sleep...woke up again twice in the night for the loo....haha...i drank so much earlier... =.="
***
Then i woke up around 10sumting this morning. I wasn''t feeling as hot as last night; the heat had reduced. But i still have the cold feeling u get when u're in fever. My eyes was stinging though. So much pain everytime i blink. Even my lump had reduced.....i'm now only left with a very soft voice, painful joints and muscles, especially the legs. Goodness....at least my brain is still safe. I was so sure it'll be sooooo hot that i'll suffer brain damage and became a retard(sorry for the offensive term used).
What a time to fall sick. I've got so many assignments to do but all i want to do now is sleep and sleep and sleep. Fever makes me sleepy...but i know enough time was wasted....i've really got to get the things done...but my head is so heavy......arghh........
Funny, i almost always learn lessons the hard way. I must always go through some sort of physical or emotional pain before i 'get it'. Hmmm i guess only by this way that i will learn? Hmmmm........
Tired....i feel so weak..............................ughhhhhhh.....................
Tuesday, March 30, 2010
Ahhhh!!!!
=.="" well i officially started classes....ughh and from week 4 lagi tu =.=""
still abit blur to as what i should do as i only just came in, but i suppose so far i can still manage.
if i dun spend time facebooking all the time. LOL. xD
Am really loving the subjects this semester. God i LOVE video. =)
Had to do games again this semester. Game & Watch style. Dude brings back memories of consoles from the past. Gonna be tough, but hey, just take it as a challenge!!!
Am really lagging behind everyone else, but will try do my best in catching up!
Gambatte oh! =)
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Got a call from the job interview i went last saturday this afternoon. Wth they actually agreed to my demands. And i had to say 'no' to them cos i am studying!!! I really wish this is worth it, cos i just rejected a job with a good pay.
But then again, maybe i'm not supposed to have some things....things are happening now for a reason. what reason? Only time will tell. For now, just go with the flow!
still abit blur to as what i should do as i only just came in, but i suppose so far i can still manage.
if i dun spend time facebooking all the time. LOL. xD
Am really loving the subjects this semester. God i LOVE video. =)
Had to do games again this semester. Game & Watch style. Dude brings back memories of consoles from the past. Gonna be tough, but hey, just take it as a challenge!!!
Am really lagging behind everyone else, but will try do my best in catching up!
Gambatte oh! =)
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Got a call from the job interview i went last saturday this afternoon. Wth they actually agreed to my demands. And i had to say 'no' to them cos i am studying!!! I really wish this is worth it, cos i just rejected a job with a good pay.
But then again, maybe i'm not supposed to have some things....things are happening now for a reason. what reason? Only time will tell. For now, just go with the flow!
Friday, March 26, 2010
Some explaining to do.
Ok remember abt the last post where i said i'm at the crossroads?
Well i got a sudden call from the Finance dept on thursday morning, telling me they'll reappeal for me again using my prev sem's results, and suggested i go to classes in the meantime. Then that afternoon i got a call from a full-time job i've been applying, asking me to go for an interview.
So i was at a crossroad. One takes me down the unsure path of continuing studies, as the reappeal results isnt a total guarantee too. I might still stop studying in the end. Another path sees me start working to pay back fees i owe the uni, and this means i'm not gonna take the risk of waiting for the loan and studying at the same time. I'm already 3 weeks late for studies anyway. Another path is going back to Miri to work, as the post i'm going for an interview has a post in Miri as well. Leave everything and everyone behind in Kuching.
So i was torn between job and school, Kuching and Miri. And the whole day i nearly frizzed my mind trying to weigh the pros and cons, analyse this and that, and was weighing opinions i got frm friends and mum.
In the end i chose to continue study. For the moment. Cos i really love classes and i missed them alot.
Mm....just take things one at a time. See how it goes.
*****
Because of the sudden onslaught of things happening all at once i didnt make it known to many ppl yet....it was still a shock to me and i wasnt really absorbing it at the time. So i kept a low profile and didnt tell ppl abt it.
I always try to keep a low profile. I dun really like to broadcast my problems and such. Especially things i myself isnt too sure about. I meant the outcome of the things happening to me or around me. I thought keeping silent and wait out the results is a good thing to do. Like go under the radar or something...
Apparently it is not. Ppl just misunderstand me all the time. Sigh.
Honestly i don't give a damn when ppl misunderstand me and my intentions. Except when it comes to ppl i care so much. Some ppl i hold dear to my heart.....i do not want them to misunderstand me, so i always try to be honest and explain myself. Because their opinions or what they think of me i put in highest regard.
Insecure perhaps? Sumone once told me i have a huge insecurity issue. I dunno. She could be right.
Well i got a sudden call from the Finance dept on thursday morning, telling me they'll reappeal for me again using my prev sem's results, and suggested i go to classes in the meantime. Then that afternoon i got a call from a full-time job i've been applying, asking me to go for an interview.
So i was at a crossroad. One takes me down the unsure path of continuing studies, as the reappeal results isnt a total guarantee too. I might still stop studying in the end. Another path sees me start working to pay back fees i owe the uni, and this means i'm not gonna take the risk of waiting for the loan and studying at the same time. I'm already 3 weeks late for studies anyway. Another path is going back to Miri to work, as the post i'm going for an interview has a post in Miri as well. Leave everything and everyone behind in Kuching.
So i was torn between job and school, Kuching and Miri. And the whole day i nearly frizzed my mind trying to weigh the pros and cons, analyse this and that, and was weighing opinions i got frm friends and mum.
In the end i chose to continue study. For the moment. Cos i really love classes and i missed them alot.
Mm....just take things one at a time. See how it goes.
*****
Because of the sudden onslaught of things happening all at once i didnt make it known to many ppl yet....it was still a shock to me and i wasnt really absorbing it at the time. So i kept a low profile and didnt tell ppl abt it.
I always try to keep a low profile. I dun really like to broadcast my problems and such. Especially things i myself isnt too sure about. I meant the outcome of the things happening to me or around me. I thought keeping silent and wait out the results is a good thing to do. Like go under the radar or something...
Apparently it is not. Ppl just misunderstand me all the time. Sigh.
Honestly i don't give a damn when ppl misunderstand me and my intentions. Except when it comes to ppl i care so much. Some ppl i hold dear to my heart.....i do not want them to misunderstand me, so i always try to be honest and explain myself. Because their opinions or what they think of me i put in highest regard.
Insecure perhaps? Sumone once told me i have a huge insecurity issue. I dunno. She could be right.
Thursday, March 25, 2010
Crossroads.
Faced with possibly one of the most difficult decisions i ever have to face in my life. I mean seriously one step or another is a life-changing choice.
I'm standing right in the middle of a crossroad. I could just feel it.....the turning point of my life. But what should i do? Which path should i choose?
U see, the thing is, too much 'maybe' and 'perhaps' are in for this too. I know no one hardly knows the result of the paths they chose in the end, but for me these stakes are kinda high...
I'm torn. Torn between this and that. Between the want and the need. I need to be rational, but somehow my logic is trying hard to defy me for sum reason.
I dunno what to do, really. What do i want? But what i want isn't totally controlled by me. I can't control the outcome, i can't control the process much. My current fate lies in the hands of others now....
Which path should i choose? The one to the left? The right? In front? Whatever it is, i can't go back, nor can i continue to stay where i am. I'm forced to make a decision soon.
Time is running out.
I'm standing right in the middle of a crossroad. I could just feel it.....the turning point of my life. But what should i do? Which path should i choose?
U see, the thing is, too much 'maybe' and 'perhaps' are in for this too. I know no one hardly knows the result of the paths they chose in the end, but for me these stakes are kinda high...
I'm torn. Torn between this and that. Between the want and the need. I need to be rational, but somehow my logic is trying hard to defy me for sum reason.
I dunno what to do, really. What do i want? But what i want isn't totally controlled by me. I can't control the outcome, i can't control the process much. My current fate lies in the hands of others now....
Which path should i choose? The one to the left? The right? In front? Whatever it is, i can't go back, nor can i continue to stay where i am. I'm forced to make a decision soon.
Time is running out.
Tuesday, March 23, 2010
Ferns growing???
Hmmmm....its beeen a loooong time since i last came in here. And my, alot did happen, and so is everyone's posts. I wonder if i have time to read all of them!!! xD But i will try la...haha.... xD
MMmmmm what's with me these days ahh? Haiz. Let's make it into a points system, easier to say...
I am:
- no longer pursuing my degree course.
- still technically a student of Swinburne Sarawak.
- need a job.
- starting everything frm scratch as i lost alot during the one month i was away frm Kuching.
- feeling less inspired than ever to do design work. =S
- photography passion is still intact. =)
- taking a fucking detour from the flow everyone's going.
Need to self-improvise on some of my skills. And keep thinking positive. =)
Next up will post something about my trip to a Japanese exhibition i went recently, and a post on my university as promised(long ago!!) to my friends. xD Sorry guys just be patient with me!! xD
Will try get more photos done. And shot.
Till then, ciao.
P/S i miss uni life soooooo much. I miss hanging with my classmates!!! =(((
MMmmmm what's with me these days ahh? Haiz. Let's make it into a points system, easier to say...
I am:
- no longer pursuing my degree course.
- still technically a student of Swinburne Sarawak.
- need a job.
- starting everything frm scratch as i lost alot during the one month i was away frm Kuching.
- feeling less inspired than ever to do design work. =S
- photography passion is still intact. =)
- taking a fucking detour from the flow everyone's going.
Need to self-improvise on some of my skills. And keep thinking positive. =)
Next up will post something about my trip to a Japanese exhibition i went recently, and a post on my university as promised(long ago!!) to my friends. xD Sorry guys just be patient with me!! xD
Will try get more photos done. And shot.
Till then, ciao.
P/S i miss uni life soooooo much. I miss hanging with my classmates!!! =(((
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Ministry of Beats Vol. 1 - Dinner
18th January 2010
Was invited by my friend Sharon to cover this soft opening of Lounge@Royal Oak, Hills Shopping Mall. Was thrilled to cover another event again~ =)
The other bloggers and photographers
MENU FOR THE NIGHT
Cakes
First the cakes were brought out and we wasted no time taking pictures of it. Cupcakes and layer cakes for everyone!
Baked by Ms Heather's Speaking Roses which is just opposite the bar, situated inside the mall itself.
Let me introduce the lovely cakes....
+ Cookies +
The diamond-shaped Spicy Spring Onion lives up to its name. Upon biting and tasting the crumbs u can taste the spiciness in it. It tastes salty to me too, but its okay cos i like salty stuff ^^
Then i tried the tear-shaped Almond Golden Leaves. Right amount of sweetness and i love the almond pieces.
I think both cookies are baked very well. *thumbs up*
~ Cupcake pastries ~
I like these cupcakes. The icing on top isn't too sweet (compared to ones i've eaten in the past) and the pastry itself is just the right amount of softness. Looks very cute too~
- Layer cakes -
The chocolate cakes isn't too sweet, which is nice and the chocolate flavour is retained. However i wish it could be more chocolatey though, but that's me and my chocolate cake fetishes =P
The layered chocolate & cheese cakes are quite ok, but i think still can be improved with stronger flavours as i felt i couldn't taste much cheese/choc in it.
The way the layered cakes is presented looks like a radioactive signal doesn't it? >.<
Drinks
The main course for the night would be beer(after all, its a pub!) but orange juices are available too. I was very 'guai' for the night; i chose to drink Green Tea instead =)
Food
: Satay :
This is the beef satay, which i didn't try as i don't eat beef. =)
Lamb satay!! I love lambs >.< It was cooked pretty well, juicy and tender enough. Top-notch!
And the main courses are rolled out...
-o Lamb chop o-
Certainly my most favourite in western cuisine, i was very eager to try it. It was served with baked potato, salad and sum broccolis. Not bad! Quite healthy as opposed to the normal lamb chops served with fries & baked beans and buns. =)
= Steak =
Unfortunately as i do not eat beef i didn't try this. But i can eat the fries, no problem~ =P I think they put some mint dressing on the salad? Because i remember taking some fries and i tasted mint O.o but it was nice, i like it =)
* Salad *
Broccolis and carrot. What's not to like?
They did a great job for the lamb...it was cooked just right, tender and as such easy to cut and chew on. Here's for u to see the texture of the meat....full marks for meat texture. =D
My cupcake <3
Alright, let's take a look at the bar's interior~
When i first step in from the outside i saw this quote on the wall, and i thought it's pretty neat to put such a quote in the interior. Nice quote too btw~
If you turn to ur left there's a staircase up to the lounge upstairs.
Here's how the area looks like.
I like these seats. Comfortable and i wonder if curtain can be let loose and the seat be covered and 'privatised'. LOL. Dang forgot to ask =.=""
Another quote! Found at the top of the stairs. Nice~!
So this is the bar counter, viewed from the upstairs lounge. The green part is actually beer bottles, which is cool! The countertop has a nice curvy shape. Order your drinks here~
The countertop is actually decorated by our not-for-use-anymore 1 cent coins. Talk about recycling! =D
Walk further in and u'll see the other entrance/exit of the pub, and this shelf of wines to the right side. Can u see me in the picture? =P
Speaking Roses
Ms Heathere's shop. A nice lady who took me to her shop and introduced me around. =)
The logo is surrounded by "I Love You" phrases in different languages. Awesome!! The place is brimming with positive energy already~ =)
Official Pass
When we were settled with our dinner, the pub owner, Mr Ronald came out and gave us passes to his upcoming event at the bar, the Ministry of Beats Vol. 1, which is a percussions event. So excited to hear this! Because i love percussions ^^ Not only that, we were given 5 free passes each so we could bring 5 friends of our own. One free bottle of beer for everyone with a pass! =D
Note: Thanks to Sharon for information on the cakes and the names of the cookies. Pictures are taken using her Canon EOS 40D except for the very first picture. Thanks. And many apologies for the late post...
More pictures on my DeviantArt.
Was invited by my friend Sharon to cover this soft opening of Lounge@Royal Oak, Hills Shopping Mall. Was thrilled to cover another event again~ =)
The other bloggers and photographers
***
MENU FOR THE NIGHT
Cakes
First the cakes were brought out and we wasted no time taking pictures of it. Cupcakes and layer cakes for everyone!
Baked by Ms Heather's Speaking Roses which is just opposite the bar, situated inside the mall itself.
Let me introduce the lovely cakes....
+ Cookies +
The diamond-shaped Spicy Spring Onion lives up to its name. Upon biting and tasting the crumbs u can taste the spiciness in it. It tastes salty to me too, but its okay cos i like salty stuff ^^
Then i tried the tear-shaped Almond Golden Leaves. Right amount of sweetness and i love the almond pieces.
I think both cookies are baked very well. *thumbs up*
~ Cupcake pastries ~
I like these cupcakes. The icing on top isn't too sweet (compared to ones i've eaten in the past) and the pastry itself is just the right amount of softness. Looks very cute too~
- Layer cakes -
The chocolate cakes isn't too sweet, which is nice and the chocolate flavour is retained. However i wish it could be more chocolatey though, but that's me and my chocolate cake fetishes =P
The layered chocolate & cheese cakes are quite ok, but i think still can be improved with stronger flavours as i felt i couldn't taste much cheese/choc in it.
The way the layered cakes is presented looks like a radioactive signal doesn't it? >.<
***
Drinks
The main course for the night would be beer(after all, its a pub!) but orange juices are available too. I was very 'guai' for the night; i chose to drink Green Tea instead =)
***
Food
: Satay :
This is the beef satay, which i didn't try as i don't eat beef. =)
Lamb satay!! I love lambs >.< It was cooked pretty well, juicy and tender enough. Top-notch!
And the main courses are rolled out...
-o Lamb chop o-
Certainly my most favourite in western cuisine, i was very eager to try it. It was served with baked potato, salad and sum broccolis. Not bad! Quite healthy as opposed to the normal lamb chops served with fries & baked beans and buns. =)
= Steak =
Unfortunately as i do not eat beef i didn't try this. But i can eat the fries, no problem~ =P I think they put some mint dressing on the salad? Because i remember taking some fries and i tasted mint O.o but it was nice, i like it =)
* Salad *
Broccolis and carrot. What's not to like?
They did a great job for the lamb...it was cooked just right, tender and as such easy to cut and chew on. Here's for u to see the texture of the meat....full marks for meat texture. =D
My cupcake <3
***
Alright, let's take a look at the bar's interior~
When i first step in from the outside i saw this quote on the wall, and i thought it's pretty neat to put such a quote in the interior. Nice quote too btw~
If you turn to ur left there's a staircase up to the lounge upstairs.
Here's how the area looks like.
I like these seats. Comfortable and i wonder if curtain can be let loose and the seat be covered and 'privatised'. LOL. Dang forgot to ask =.=""
Another quote! Found at the top of the stairs. Nice~!
So this is the bar counter, viewed from the upstairs lounge. The green part is actually beer bottles, which is cool! The countertop has a nice curvy shape. Order your drinks here~
The countertop is actually decorated by our not-for-use-anymore 1 cent coins. Talk about recycling! =D
Walk further in and u'll see the other entrance/exit of the pub, and this shelf of wines to the right side. Can u see me in the picture? =P
***
Speaking Roses
Ms Heathere's shop. A nice lady who took me to her shop and introduced me around. =)
The logo is surrounded by "I Love You" phrases in different languages. Awesome!! The place is brimming with positive energy already~ =)
***
Official Pass
When we were settled with our dinner, the pub owner, Mr Ronald came out and gave us passes to his upcoming event at the bar, the Ministry of Beats Vol. 1, which is a percussions event. So excited to hear this! Because i love percussions ^^ Not only that, we were given 5 free passes each so we could bring 5 friends of our own. One free bottle of beer for everyone with a pass! =D
Note: Thanks to Sharon for information on the cakes and the names of the cookies. Pictures are taken using her Canon EOS 40D except for the very first picture. Thanks. And many apologies for the late post...
More pictures on my DeviantArt.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
Start of a New Year.
In what seemed like a blink of an eye, 2009 ended. And WHAT A YEAR it has been. Full of ups and downs, lessons and opportunities, and not to forget meeting new people and places. =)
Let's get on quickly to what i did before i went dragging on too much again @.@
*
I had to work that night too. By that time i was already posted to the outlet in Spring, so i was not at King's Centre again. I was looking forward to another firework celebration and countdown in Spring that nite.
Unfortunately, there wasn't any. @.@ Apparently i was mislead....and what a bummer. NO COUNTDOWN?!?! So boring...i straightaway turned emo. *lol*
And then Sharon's text came in. Countdown at her workplace: Jase's Tea Room. =)
After work i was picked up by Sharon and Peter and we went over, calling our friends as we went along. In the end only Bryan and Kathleen showed up and joined us, who's already seated with Sharon's dancing friends, Hui Ming & Jia Mei~
***
Kath's Strawberry tea. Peter was her butler for the day. =P It has a very nice scent~
Chun-chun 12am we cheered and popped stuff. The kid was very happy for sum reason. ;)
Masks....i still keep mine..wheee~~~
We stayed there till nearly 2am i think. In the car on the way home, me and Kathleen formed our own 'band' and were trying hard to sell our 'music' using our new toy, the plastic toy trumpet/horn (what do u call that again?? HAIZ.). OMG we both went totally crazy blowing the damn thing!! Sharon couldnt stop laughing! =P
It was a night to remember. Kath, next time, we bring our trumpet and blow again. Huahaha~
*****
2009 is a year when i learnt alot. About life, love, friendship and work. I experienced many firsts...first time karaoke, first time sisha, first time took a pic with DSLR, first time didn't sleep at all for 40hrs(still a personal record), first time attend concert (Greenfest!), first time blog abt event, first time plan bday for friends, first boatride across river, first time clubbing, first time had hard liquor, first time lasertag, first time play drums and guitar, first time group photoshoot, first time dealing with exhibition stuff, first time staying overnight at a beach resort with friends, and many more....
First time someone really opened my heart, which before i thought is locked forever.
And because of that, first time had my heart broken & scarred too. That was one of the firsts of bad things that happened. First time lost my phone. First time had food poisoning sooo bad, i swear i was near to death. Felt SO awful. First time quarrel so much with sumone. First time felt what isolation and classification of people thru stupid judgements feels like. And many more.
But the heartbroken thing...i dun think its a bad thing. Everyone has to go thru it right? A blessing in disguise perhaps. SUmting that makes me learn and be opened to opportunities...
But what's happened was already in the past. A period of time which i shouldnt dwell on too much, for we all had to move forward. To grow. To learn. To survive.
Learnt what it feels like to like sumone. Learnt to let go. Learnt to accept. Learnt to think more openly. Learnt to be more careful. Learnt to be more alert. Learnt to be think faster. Learnt ALOT about life...
All in all, i grew as a person. Even thought the downs are there, but hey, they were there to help us learn and be stronger. It is the downs that made the ups more worthy. Despite everything that's happened, the things i did, the things i could've done when i was supposed to, I am still grateful and lucky i met there wonderful ppl who came into my life. Really happy i met these people who changed my life one way or another.
I wonder if i changed sumone's life though?
Note: drafted on 01/01/10.
Let's get on quickly to what i did before i went dragging on too much again @.@
*
I had to work that night too. By that time i was already posted to the outlet in Spring, so i was not at King's Centre again. I was looking forward to another firework celebration and countdown in Spring that nite.
Unfortunately, there wasn't any. @.@ Apparently i was mislead....and what a bummer. NO COUNTDOWN?!?! So boring...i straightaway turned emo. *lol*
And then Sharon's text came in. Countdown at her workplace: Jase's Tea Room. =)
After work i was picked up by Sharon and Peter and we went over, calling our friends as we went along. In the end only Bryan and Kathleen showed up and joined us, who's already seated with Sharon's dancing friends, Hui Ming & Jia Mei~
***
Kath's Strawberry tea. Peter was her butler for the day. =P It has a very nice scent~
Chun-chun 12am we cheered and popped stuff. The kid was very happy for sum reason. ;)
Masks....i still keep mine..wheee~~~
We stayed there till nearly 2am i think. In the car on the way home, me and Kathleen formed our own 'band' and were trying hard to sell our 'music' using our new toy, the plastic toy trumpet/horn (what do u call that again?? HAIZ.). OMG we both went totally crazy blowing the damn thing!! Sharon couldnt stop laughing! =P
It was a night to remember. Kath, next time, we bring our trumpet and blow again. Huahaha~
*****
2009 is a year when i learnt alot. About life, love, friendship and work. I experienced many firsts...first time karaoke, first time sisha, first time took a pic with DSLR, first time didn't sleep at all for 40hrs(still a personal record), first time attend concert (Greenfest!), first time blog abt event, first time plan bday for friends, first boatride across river, first time clubbing, first time had hard liquor, first time lasertag, first time play drums and guitar, first time group photoshoot, first time dealing with exhibition stuff, first time staying overnight at a beach resort with friends, and many more....
First time someone really opened my heart, which before i thought is locked forever.
And because of that, first time had my heart broken & scarred too. That was one of the firsts of bad things that happened. First time lost my phone. First time had food poisoning sooo bad, i swear i was near to death. Felt SO awful. First time quarrel so much with sumone. First time felt what isolation and classification of people thru stupid judgements feels like. And many more.
But the heartbroken thing...i dun think its a bad thing. Everyone has to go thru it right? A blessing in disguise perhaps. SUmting that makes me learn and be opened to opportunities...
But what's happened was already in the past. A period of time which i shouldnt dwell on too much, for we all had to move forward. To grow. To learn. To survive.
Learnt what it feels like to like sumone. Learnt to let go. Learnt to accept. Learnt to think more openly. Learnt to be more careful. Learnt to be more alert. Learnt to be think faster. Learnt ALOT about life...
All in all, i grew as a person. Even thought the downs are there, but hey, they were there to help us learn and be stronger. It is the downs that made the ups more worthy. Despite everything that's happened, the things i did, the things i could've done when i was supposed to, I am still grateful and lucky i met there wonderful ppl who came into my life. Really happy i met these people who changed my life one way or another.
I wonder if i changed sumone's life though?
Note: drafted on 01/01/10.
Thursday, January 21, 2010
It's Christmas! - 25/12/09
MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU!
I had always LOVED christmas. Even though i am not Christian, but i like the atmosphere of it. The songs...the people...the gifts...the things ppl do on Christmas. I like it very much...so much so its always my favourite festivity of the year.
LOL yes....to me it beats CNY too. =P
*
I had to work on the week leading to Christmas Day and after it...so i was abit down cos i thought i pretty much won't be celebrating much as all my friends are busy or out or timing not right to hang out(i work till 10pm every day...sigh.). Being particularly excited on Christmas Eve(cos the next day is Christmas Day!), the feeling slowly fades away as time slips closer to the midnight mark.
I thought for this year's Christmas I'll just past the midnite mark alone in my room and texting everyone...until Crystal mentioned to me there's gonna be a countdown that night and she's going to stay for it. I was like, "Got mehhh???" The countdown will be at Spring Mall....i could walk over after i finish work!
That got me excited. Something is going to happen after all!! It won't be dull...thank goodness. And after that my colleague talked to me abt it and mins later another text came in telling me to go for the countdown. =P
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When i finished work i went as fast as my tired legs could get me to Spring. The mall extended its opening hours to 11.30pm, which i was SO thankful for cos i need to buy xmas present for sumone~~ LOL this is literally last-min shopping, ppl. And i only have 1hr to do it....was runnning everywhere looking for the right present, and my foot was so painful i tell u. But i went on anyway...its Christmas dammit!!!
And then Crystal said she couldnt stay for the countdown. Bummer. =( I went look for Greg and asked him to stay for countdown too, but too bad his parents arrived to pick him already....HAIZZZ....
~~~
When it was just minutes to midnite *giggles* i went outside and waited for the fireworks, all the time taking pics of the crowd and the carol-singing choir at the stage there. Lols. Then Sharon came with Kath...and to my surprise Peter too. And Kath's young sis Jeannie :)
***
Nearing 12am...let's all rush outside....
Just look at the crowd.... >.<
10 seconds after that shot, the countdown started...i hold up my camera at the sky(and so does most of the people there) and my phone in my other calling sumone as i want her to hear what's going on around me. But it was engaged and so i stopped and focused on the fireworks.
Let them begin~~~~
Bleh. All were lousy shots. Not much i took there. Oh wells.
*
My verdict: Not jaw-dropping, but it was good enough for the night. The crowd cheered along to sum of the fireworks, and it was fun. I wasn't happy with my camera(again, sigh) but oh wells. It wasn't until later when Peter passed me his camera and i took sum shots....
Merry Christmas!!! =D
When everything was over, they wanna go McD. I was like 'damn i shudnt have bought the bread earlier!!!' lol cos i was hungry after all that walking around...in the end we went to 3rd Mile McD and feasted outside the place cos they were closing LOL.
We opened our Xmas gifts there too. I opened mine, which was from Sharon, Fab and Kathleen. They were expecting me to scream...LOL....but i didn't =P =P
This is what i got.
Lipgloss from MAC. My first Mac! Lol. Ahem. 5 different shades. SO far i only used two. LOL. These thing must've costed quite a fortune.....thanks alot alot!!! =) I LOVE it! I prolly din show it much, but i was thrilled when i saw this. =D
Kathleen opened her present too...and there was alot of picture taking of the crazy time we had eating and laughing there. LOL. Why do i say 'crazy'? Cos i was being super SOT and high...made everyone laugh but deep inside i was bleeding and miserable but it was Christmas and i want everyone to be happy~~
What crazy thing i did all the evidence is with Sharon. Lol...i kinda dread the day she gonna post it up =X But oh wells. I didnt regret anything i did that night outside McD. Nice memories~~!!
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*Note: This is drafted on 25/12/09...too busy to finish. Pictures in this post are not edited, though i would very much like the time to do it, but unfortunately no. I have other Christmas presents too, from the Christmas gift exchange i had with my friends earlier in the month. And also the pressie that my brother gave me in 2010 =.="" But i won't put them in soon cos i dunno where the pics went =.=!!!! Sorry...
Still, it's the thought that counts! Even thinking of buying one for me is good enough for me already. Thanks to everyone who made my Christmas '09 so lively that day!! Love you all! =D
I had always LOVED christmas. Even though i am not Christian, but i like the atmosphere of it. The songs...the people...the gifts...the things ppl do on Christmas. I like it very much...so much so its always my favourite festivity of the year.
LOL yes....to me it beats CNY too. =P
*
I had to work on the week leading to Christmas Day and after it...so i was abit down cos i thought i pretty much won't be celebrating much as all my friends are busy or out or timing not right to hang out(i work till 10pm every day...sigh.). Being particularly excited on Christmas Eve(cos the next day is Christmas Day!), the feeling slowly fades away as time slips closer to the midnight mark.
I thought for this year's Christmas I'll just past the midnite mark alone in my room and texting everyone...until Crystal mentioned to me there's gonna be a countdown that night and she's going to stay for it. I was like, "Got mehhh???" The countdown will be at Spring Mall....i could walk over after i finish work!
That got me excited. Something is going to happen after all!! It won't be dull...thank goodness. And after that my colleague talked to me abt it and mins later another text came in telling me to go for the countdown. =P
###
When i finished work i went as fast as my tired legs could get me to Spring. The mall extended its opening hours to 11.30pm, which i was SO thankful for cos i need to buy xmas present for sumone~~ LOL this is literally last-min shopping, ppl. And i only have 1hr to do it....was runnning everywhere looking for the right present, and my foot was so painful i tell u. But i went on anyway...its Christmas dammit!!!
And then Crystal said she couldnt stay for the countdown. Bummer. =( I went look for Greg and asked him to stay for countdown too, but too bad his parents arrived to pick him already....HAIZZZ....
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When it was just minutes to midnite *giggles* i went outside and waited for the fireworks, all the time taking pics of the crowd and the carol-singing choir at the stage there. Lols. Then Sharon came with Kath...and to my surprise Peter too. And Kath's young sis Jeannie :)
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Nearing 12am...let's all rush outside....
Just look at the crowd.... >.<
The carol singing on stage...
10 seconds after that shot, the countdown started...i hold up my camera at the sky(and so does most of the people there) and my phone in my other calling sumone as i want her to hear what's going on around me. But it was engaged and so i stopped and focused on the fireworks.
Let them begin~~~~
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My verdict: Not jaw-dropping, but it was good enough for the night. The crowd cheered along to sum of the fireworks, and it was fun. I wasn't happy with my camera(again, sigh) but oh wells. It wasn't until later when Peter passed me his camera and i took sum shots....
Merry Christmas!!! =D
When everything was over, they wanna go McD. I was like 'damn i shudnt have bought the bread earlier!!!' lol cos i was hungry after all that walking around...in the end we went to 3rd Mile McD and feasted outside the place cos they were closing LOL.
We opened our Xmas gifts there too. I opened mine, which was from Sharon, Fab and Kathleen. They were expecting me to scream...LOL....but i didn't =P =P
This is what i got.
Lipgloss from MAC. My first Mac! Lol. Ahem. 5 different shades. SO far i only used two. LOL. These thing must've costed quite a fortune.....thanks alot alot!!! =) I LOVE it! I prolly din show it much, but i was thrilled when i saw this. =D
Kathleen opened her present too...and there was alot of picture taking of the crazy time we had eating and laughing there. LOL. Why do i say 'crazy'? Cos i was being super SOT and high...made everyone laugh but deep inside i was bleeding and miserable but it was Christmas and i want everyone to be happy~~
What crazy thing i did all the evidence is with Sharon. Lol...i kinda dread the day she gonna post it up =X But oh wells. I didnt regret anything i did that night outside McD. Nice memories~~!!
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*Note: This is drafted on 25/12/09...too busy to finish. Pictures in this post are not edited, though i would very much like the time to do it, but unfortunately no. I have other Christmas presents too, from the Christmas gift exchange i had with my friends earlier in the month. And also the pressie that my brother gave me in 2010 =.="" But i won't put them in soon cos i dunno where the pics went =.=!!!! Sorry...
Still, it's the thought that counts! Even thinking of buying one for me is good enough for me already. Thanks to everyone who made my Christmas '09 so lively that day!! Love you all! =D
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