So this week alone it happened two events that was kinda cool to happen to me. First was a photography talk by a renowned professional photographer by the name of Alvin Leong which was held in my campus on wednesday 27th May. Together with Breeze model search and more importantly, Canon, who's goin to display some of their EOS DSLR cameras, of cos i'm going!! That and the fact that i didn't have classes that time...nice....this was an opportunity not to be missed!!
And so i went with my fren, whose interest in photography outweighs my own. After registering ourselves we went into the auditorium. The Canon booth was on the right side, and further up front was a set up for the model photoshooting. To the left is a table with free Breeze magazines. Of cos, both of us went straight to the camera booths.
Some of the cameras are mounted with lens already, like one with telephoto lens and another with zooming lens. We were saying how heavy the equipment will be! Hehehe!!! Then we quickly settled ourselves and wait till everyone was there.....while we spend time talking and occasionally glance at who was in the auditorium xP
Minutes later...the emcee cam eup and asked evryone to be seated..and then mr alvin himself started his talk. i was really glad i went to the talk. i learnt alot. like abt the Digic thing in Canon cameras. And he even recommended wat camera to by for beginners, which i'm gonna take his advice. Lol~~~
He said....as a start, the 1000D model is a good enuff investment. Since u are starting out, there's no need to buy a high-level camera yet. unless u pro already. cos one camera can last 3-5years. by the time is up, there could be better models around already. so yea. if i am really getting a DSLR, i'm gonna buy the 1000D first. Cos it was the only model within my budget. And originally i wanted this one before i switched to target the 450D. So yea...keep my fingeers crossed, i'll save enuff in time to buy one new DSLR!!!
Another cool part of the talk was the Breeze models. 6 had came and were allowed for us to shoot them. naturally, of course i tool the chance to shoot them....even tho my camera is the normal dg ones....while eveyone's is like DSLR...but wth...i dun care...just shoot only...and the nice thing is lvin standing by the side giving tips how to shoot a good angle...and how to communicate with the model....so even tho i had to stop early cos my battery low and memory card full, i was satisfied.... =D
after the photo shoot...me and my friend went over to check out the cameras for real this time. I had to confess, that was the first time ever i hold a DSLR in my hand!!! i was thrilled like a 3 year old...but of cos i hid it. HAHAHAH. so i checked out a 1000D model that had lost battery(or hadn't any battery at all)..and another 1000D that had a type of lens mounted on it...i think its a zooming lens...i took a few shots with it...and i LOVE how it came out. Damn...if only i had this thing to myself to play with!!! then next came the 450D...which i played with too....doesn;t feel too differetn from 1000D tho....or maybe i was too excited to notice...heheheheh yeah.....
and by way of ending the talk...we all did a group photo with alvin.
Yeah. It was a blast all right.
THE SECOND EVENT
Happened on friday, week 12 of class, for 2D animation. for that class we were going to do something outside campus...lecturer posted that we meet at this Bing! cafe in town. and so we went....
The place is nice. I still dun like coffe. But i appreciate the place. then we all sat at the back of the cafe and waited for everyone to come. then lecturer briefed us on wat we all gonna do...and guess what?? Movie shooting!!!!
I was already excited at havin a class out of campus...but movie making made it more interestign!!!! but we werent just making ANY movie. we had to make a short film....in which the characters in the film will have to do super stuff like...disappearing suddenly and reappear...sumthing like that...and well the trick is just in pasting the frames. sounds fun huh!!
so me and my three friends, we went off to look for location to shoot. in the end we ended up beside a nighttime clubbing hotspot...lol...but since its 3pm in the afternoon...there wasn;t anyone. except the ppl working in the club next door getting ready to open business....
so we went back and got a tripod from the lecturer(who's in the cafe) and went back to start shooting. and so we thought up a story: aliens appeared on earth out of nowhere. and then they were looking at their surrounding...their new location. just wat are these aliens doing here? and so they tested their powers in that street...disappear and reappear. in the end of the short film, the aliens moved to the front of the camera and snapped the whole thing off. nice? hope so! xD
and so we got ready. i chose to be director. cos i really wanna direct stuff for once. i like seeing over how films are made. and i really wanted to try. so i volunteered to be director. 2 of them became the 'beautiful' aliens, and another is the 'camerawoman'. HAHAHAHA. sorry din say ur names out. i'm respecting ur privacy....lol.......
and so we shot the film. wat was fun for me was the process. the process of filming...and changing ideas..and stuff. and also the people in the club next door. all of them were watching us film. i feel a bit embarassed but oh well. we had to go on. and credits to my frens the actresses who didn;'t complain abt the 'extra audience'. the people even helped say 'action!' 'ready!' all dat....tho i tink it was to amuse themselves on their part. LOL. filming was made slower due to the fact that people were walking on the streeet....and we needed an empty street at all times to maintain the flow of the film. so everytime a person walks by....we had to wait almost a full minute for them to pass!!
so filming wrapped up around 4.10pm...by that time we were all feeling very hot and thirsty. we went back to find the lecturer and showed her our footage. we were to edit it next week in class. COOL!!!!
and then i went and got sumtign to drink. to satisfy the thirst from all dat heat. in the end i settled with ABC, which my fren highly recommended. and......IT TASTED LIKE HEAVEN!!!!! it was so nice, and costed only $1.50. super valuable!!!! i love it...till i decided to go for second round. HAHAHAH. i ordered another type....i think got six different stuff in it....that kind...adn it tasted good as well!!!! i just tasted the best ices EVER!!!!
So there u go. two things that happened that was rocking awesome that week. of cos...who wud've thought i'm gonna be surprised and disappointed later ab the whole thing frm previous post. but oh well. this isn' wat i wana talk here!! wat i wanna say is the two great events...and...i immortalised it as a blog!! xDDDD
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Saturday, May 30, 2009
Lone.Li.Ness. Welcome back~
My old friend is back again. My past had came back to haunt me. Why, of all times, now?? I'm already very busy and stressed with all my assignments, and now, emotional casualties are happening to me again? The timing couldnt have been better.....
I've always reveled in the fact that me, unlike all of my friends, do not have any crush on whoever, and no relationship problems to stress myself out as well. I was the one who wasnt really good looking, and who always get unnoticed by everyone everywhere i go. My shabby appearance helps too. So i was glad that i do not have problems from this department at all.
Wont u feel lonely at times u ask? Yea, i will, sometimes i feel a lil bit awkward seeing other couples around, but the feelings are under my control; i wont get too worked up on it. I still feel okay.
But recently..things happened which brought all that sense of loneliness back again. No, its not about anything in the love department. In the contrary, its another thing all together. Since i am not in a relationship or wat ever, watever things i wanted to share, whoever i wanted to hang out with, i will find my friends. They are liek my anchor of un-loneliness. But...things haf changed....kinda....
I'm starting to feel, even my friends desert me now. They seem to leave me out of alot of things now. Or they do not want to hang out at our usual times now. As a result, i cant help but feel things have changed. Things weren't like how they were last time. Part of the reason was that our critical times have comed: the final exams. Alot of people are stressed,a dn generally we hang out less often. But that wasnt a good enuff excuse, cos, they still hang out with each other, without me in.
Are they bored with me already? I am, after all, a very boring person.
Whatever it is, my old friend, Loneliness, is visiting me again. Soon, his wife, Isolation, might come too.
For now, i shall start grounding myself from everyhting, and everyone, again.
I've always reveled in the fact that me, unlike all of my friends, do not have any crush on whoever, and no relationship problems to stress myself out as well. I was the one who wasnt really good looking, and who always get unnoticed by everyone everywhere i go. My shabby appearance helps too. So i was glad that i do not have problems from this department at all.
Wont u feel lonely at times u ask? Yea, i will, sometimes i feel a lil bit awkward seeing other couples around, but the feelings are under my control; i wont get too worked up on it. I still feel okay.
But recently..things happened which brought all that sense of loneliness back again. No, its not about anything in the love department. In the contrary, its another thing all together. Since i am not in a relationship or wat ever, watever things i wanted to share, whoever i wanted to hang out with, i will find my friends. They are liek my anchor of un-loneliness. But...things haf changed....kinda....
I'm starting to feel, even my friends desert me now. They seem to leave me out of alot of things now. Or they do not want to hang out at our usual times now. As a result, i cant help but feel things have changed. Things weren't like how they were last time. Part of the reason was that our critical times have comed: the final exams. Alot of people are stressed,a dn generally we hang out less often. But that wasnt a good enuff excuse, cos, they still hang out with each other, without me in.
Are they bored with me already? I am, after all, a very boring person.
Whatever it is, my old friend, Loneliness, is visiting me again. Soon, his wife, Isolation, might come too.
For now, i shall start grounding myself from everyhting, and everyone, again.
Rollercoaster ride of emotions~~
I dunno wat to feel. How to feel. I was sore. Disappointed with my friends. I was very down, and selfishly, i was blaming them. I know i shouldn't feel this way; my brain was telling me the right thing to do, but i couldn't do it. I just...couldn't. I knew better, but i couldn't help it.
See, this is over a small matter. Yea, this is going to be huge rant on a small stuff. Hahah. How immature. One would have though i'm waaaayy past that. I thought i had matured. I was not.
I dunno wat's with some people. Right, they are busy, so they need to better manage and schedule their time, so they cant hang out much anymore. Yes, i understand that. What i dont understand is that, why are u doing it the wrong way, in the reverse direction instead of forward? U told me u are too busy for supper, that u cant hang out long for conversations, that u went for dinner instead, but, why can u hang out long time for dinner? Its just a matter of time, isn't it? Supper comes later. That's all. Its the same thing. U still talk and 'waste time'. Why not instead do it during supper, where more of us are around?
Sigh. And yesterday they went out...without even telling me. I was ver disappointed, sad. Why didn't they tell me? And i thought they only go out for awhile. Instead they went out till nightime, and i had to read from Facebook that one of them had the time of his life, and that he managed to buy the stuff he wants. I was so sad. When i texted them abt supper, they already took dinner and wasnt back yet. Imagine my surprise. Cos, i thought we were all gonna go out today later to shop, but instead, they had went first without me and got what they wanted. I was terribly, terribly, left out.
I was angry at them. My mood turned down, i do not feel like i want to face anyone. At all. I dont want to see them. I was angry. Jealous abit, yeah. Jealousy is a scary thing. I do not like it. But there was a tiny pang of jealousy within me that time. Sigh. Well, let them be. watever they wanna do. Just let them.
Today, i tried to reason and analyse(which i'm always doing, anyway). Why hadn;t they tell me anything? Well, i told myself, it could be these: 1) i was going for an excursion for my class and i had a chance to get out to town. Maybe they feel like going out too, since i was already out. 2) They knew i probably wont join them anyway(i had stated earlier i wanna play sports that night), so they didn't even bother to ask. 3) The urge of shopping is too strong to ignore. Other than these 3, i cant think of any anymore.
My answer to that? 1) plain stupid. 2) wth? did u even TRY to ask me? who knows, i just might say yes! and not even tellin me a single thing. that is just disrespectful. Or maybe i was being a busybody and thinking too much. 3) this...i can accept.
What annoyed me more was that while they were shopping, i sustained minor injuries, and i experienced aomething fun earlier, but cant talk to them abt it. Well, i'll tell the world abt it instead. Haha. That's why i'm here...
Yesterday. Everything was goin fine until late afternoon. Since late afternoon i felt like shit. That was when the 'incident' happened. Had the best time in afternoon, only to feel like shit from evening till night. Damn. I was tired, physically and emotionally. And no one asked abt me. At all. A 'how are u?' or 'wat are u doing?'...was visibly absent. Until the late hours in the night when there came a text message to me explaining a low battery whole day as a reason for not replying my text messages, ending with 'How are u?' TOO LATE. ITS TOO LATE. Too late to ask me. Even tho its still nice for him to ask, but it's too late. And to think, he's the only one who ask that. My my. I'm extremely disappointed in all of them. Or was i expecting too much?
My emo side is getting at me again. Whenever something like this happens, i would dwell on my emo-ness for a long time, and basically being a piece of emo crap. Sigh. I dunno wat to do now, except avoiding them if possible. I cant face them yet. Face them with my normal attitude. If i saw them, i know i'll be unjust to them by treating them cold, and the worst thing is they dunno what their actions had did to me!!! And i do not liek it when ppl was wrong and didn;t knew it; then they get all confused why my attitude changed or sumting. Sigh. People. And relationships. And my own silly principles. Sigh. How do i get mad? How do i stop being mad? I do not know. Maybe time will wash away everything.
Sometimes, i would think, 'What if one day i fainted on the road, or gotten myself into an accident, and no one knew, because they were having too much fun? What if they only knew when it was too late?'
TOO LATE. Sad words that feels worse with regret.
*end*
p/s i will post more emo thoughts again from yesterday. Meanwhile i will also post two things that happened to me which i thought was AWESOME! which happened in this week alone. Dont miss out(if i still have any readers left, that is)!!
See, this is over a small matter. Yea, this is going to be huge rant on a small stuff. Hahah. How immature. One would have though i'm waaaayy past that. I thought i had matured. I was not.
I dunno wat's with some people. Right, they are busy, so they need to better manage and schedule their time, so they cant hang out much anymore. Yes, i understand that. What i dont understand is that, why are u doing it the wrong way, in the reverse direction instead of forward? U told me u are too busy for supper, that u cant hang out long for conversations, that u went for dinner instead, but, why can u hang out long time for dinner? Its just a matter of time, isn't it? Supper comes later. That's all. Its the same thing. U still talk and 'waste time'. Why not instead do it during supper, where more of us are around?
Sigh. And yesterday they went out...without even telling me. I was ver disappointed, sad. Why didn't they tell me? And i thought they only go out for awhile. Instead they went out till nightime, and i had to read from Facebook that one of them had the time of his life, and that he managed to buy the stuff he wants. I was so sad. When i texted them abt supper, they already took dinner and wasnt back yet. Imagine my surprise. Cos, i thought we were all gonna go out today later to shop, but instead, they had went first without me and got what they wanted. I was terribly, terribly, left out.
I was angry at them. My mood turned down, i do not feel like i want to face anyone. At all. I dont want to see them. I was angry. Jealous abit, yeah. Jealousy is a scary thing. I do not like it. But there was a tiny pang of jealousy within me that time. Sigh. Well, let them be. watever they wanna do. Just let them.
Today, i tried to reason and analyse(which i'm always doing, anyway). Why hadn;t they tell me anything? Well, i told myself, it could be these: 1) i was going for an excursion for my class and i had a chance to get out to town. Maybe they feel like going out too, since i was already out. 2) They knew i probably wont join them anyway(i had stated earlier i wanna play sports that night), so they didn't even bother to ask. 3) The urge of shopping is too strong to ignore. Other than these 3, i cant think of any anymore.
My answer to that? 1) plain stupid. 2) wth? did u even TRY to ask me? who knows, i just might say yes! and not even tellin me a single thing. that is just disrespectful. Or maybe i was being a busybody and thinking too much. 3) this...i can accept.
What annoyed me more was that while they were shopping, i sustained minor injuries, and i experienced aomething fun earlier, but cant talk to them abt it. Well, i'll tell the world abt it instead. Haha. That's why i'm here...
Yesterday. Everything was goin fine until late afternoon. Since late afternoon i felt like shit. That was when the 'incident' happened. Had the best time in afternoon, only to feel like shit from evening till night. Damn. I was tired, physically and emotionally. And no one asked abt me. At all. A 'how are u?' or 'wat are u doing?'...was visibly absent. Until the late hours in the night when there came a text message to me explaining a low battery whole day as a reason for not replying my text messages, ending with 'How are u?' TOO LATE. ITS TOO LATE. Too late to ask me. Even tho its still nice for him to ask, but it's too late. And to think, he's the only one who ask that. My my. I'm extremely disappointed in all of them. Or was i expecting too much?
My emo side is getting at me again. Whenever something like this happens, i would dwell on my emo-ness for a long time, and basically being a piece of emo crap. Sigh. I dunno wat to do now, except avoiding them if possible. I cant face them yet. Face them with my normal attitude. If i saw them, i know i'll be unjust to them by treating them cold, and the worst thing is they dunno what their actions had did to me!!! And i do not liek it when ppl was wrong and didn;t knew it; then they get all confused why my attitude changed or sumting. Sigh. People. And relationships. And my own silly principles. Sigh. How do i get mad? How do i stop being mad? I do not know. Maybe time will wash away everything.
Sometimes, i would think, 'What if one day i fainted on the road, or gotten myself into an accident, and no one knew, because they were having too much fun? What if they only knew when it was too late?'
TOO LATE. Sad words that feels worse with regret.
*end*
p/s i will post more emo thoughts again from yesterday. Meanwhile i will also post two things that happened to me which i thought was AWESOME! which happened in this week alone. Dont miss out(if i still have any readers left, that is)!!
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Troubling times ahead....
Hmmm....all that seems well is not well...troubles are cropping up everywhere....so many problems...how to resolve?
Study problems...relationship problems...material problems...it is everywhere...sometimes i wish...that i wouldn't have to face all that problem...but then, where's the excitement in life if like that? heheheeh...
first thing...i wanna say how grateful and thankful i am to have met a wonderful bunch of friends ever since coming here...they are a great bunch of friends...very funny and easy-going...we can talk abt virtually anything...and also good friends who happen to be my coursemates....and this is where the problem lies...except for a very few...i'm not very close with my other coursemates....heheh...we see each other like strangers...which feels weird, giving we have to stay with each other for 3 more years....well, i guess...we have alot of time!! xD
other than that...hmmm...i am glad i didn't have any personal relationship problems whatsoever....lucky me...for i have less thing to worry about...i was already very busy...definitely no more time for personal loves!! but one thing that worries me is my friend...hmm...i always like to worry for other people...ahhaha...no wonder i'm so emo all the time....hohohohoh....pathetic eyh....
thing is....no one likes her bf...we can all sense that her bf is not a good guy...but...how can we tell her? she has already been brainwashed...cant really make good judgement...and that's really sad...cos i know she's a smart person...but this guy is too persuasive...influence too much...i'm worried she wont be able to resist him someday...i do not want her to be hurt!! i'm very sorry to say this, but seriously think that they are gonna break up sooner or later...
ok...enough abt her...if i seriously want talk abt it its gonna take forever....hmm...another thing that i have to worry abt is money...my well is drying up very very very fast!!!! i need more water input....heehehhhe....hmmm...just hope my bro knows how to handle his money really wisely...else i'm gonna be bankrupt for real....
hmmm....campus is full of nicely-dressed ladies and gents...but seriously...all of them abit of show-off innit? well, i guess, its normal human behaviour...when i see all these pretty girls and boys shop...hmm...abit jealous they have all the money to spend....whereas i had to dig really really deep into my pockets for a simple t-shirt...hmm...dunno...shudn't be jealous...just accept it...its them and their own wealth...it doesn't concern me...all i have to do is keep strong to my discipline and principles...be my own self....not be influenced by others to follow them....heheheheh...
wat else wat else? hmmm....assignmetns are burying me...i dont think i'll be seeing much of my friends anytime soon...so sad....i really liked their company...heheheheh....but i have to focus....i must get serious now!!! i don spend my family fortune to fail my subjects!!!
till then...ciao~~
Study problems...relationship problems...material problems...it is everywhere...sometimes i wish...that i wouldn't have to face all that problem...but then, where's the excitement in life if like that? heheheeh...
first thing...i wanna say how grateful and thankful i am to have met a wonderful bunch of friends ever since coming here...they are a great bunch of friends...very funny and easy-going...we can talk abt virtually anything...and also good friends who happen to be my coursemates....and this is where the problem lies...except for a very few...i'm not very close with my other coursemates....heheh...we see each other like strangers...which feels weird, giving we have to stay with each other for 3 more years....well, i guess...we have alot of time!! xD
other than that...hmmm...i am glad i didn't have any personal relationship problems whatsoever....lucky me...for i have less thing to worry about...i was already very busy...definitely no more time for personal loves!! but one thing that worries me is my friend...hmm...i always like to worry for other people...ahhaha...no wonder i'm so emo all the time....hohohohoh....pathetic eyh....
thing is....no one likes her bf...we can all sense that her bf is not a good guy...but...how can we tell her? she has already been brainwashed...cant really make good judgement...and that's really sad...cos i know she's a smart person...but this guy is too persuasive...influence too much...i'm worried she wont be able to resist him someday...i do not want her to be hurt!! i'm very sorry to say this, but seriously think that they are gonna break up sooner or later...
ok...enough abt her...if i seriously want talk abt it its gonna take forever....hmm...another thing that i have to worry abt is money...my well is drying up very very very fast!!!! i need more water input....heehehhhe....hmmm...just hope my bro knows how to handle his money really wisely...else i'm gonna be bankrupt for real....
hmmm....campus is full of nicely-dressed ladies and gents...but seriously...all of them abit of show-off innit? well, i guess, its normal human behaviour...when i see all these pretty girls and boys shop...hmm...abit jealous they have all the money to spend....whereas i had to dig really really deep into my pockets for a simple t-shirt...hmm...dunno...shudn't be jealous...just accept it...its them and their own wealth...it doesn't concern me...all i have to do is keep strong to my discipline and principles...be my own self....not be influenced by others to follow them....heheheheh...
wat else wat else? hmmm....assignmetns are burying me...i dont think i'll be seeing much of my friends anytime soon...so sad....i really liked their company...heheheheh....but i have to focus....i must get serious now!!! i don spend my family fortune to fail my subjects!!!
till then...ciao~~
My my....
What's this what's this? I thought i decided to keep my blog really updated? Now....a whole April is gone before this new post. What i can say is...time flies!! Heh...musta lost all my readers alreaady...hohohhoho.....one way to lose ur followers is to disappear..hahahah...easy ehh??
Here's hoping i'll find new readers with the new postings....hahaha....see how the time fits...cos...i will be reallly really busy as hell soon....more than 10 assignments and exercises awaits me...all to be handed up early june...tis a time to work hard man!!! to work my ass off!!! i cannot afford to lose out...i cannot afford to fail!!!! and on top of that, i had to master a software i barely know in one months time in order to fully utilise it!!! So fucked!!!
wish me luckk.....and i wish good luck to those out there...doin whatever in wherever....till then.....ciao~~~
Here's hoping i'll find new readers with the new postings....hahaha....see how the time fits...cos...i will be reallly really busy as hell soon....more than 10 assignments and exercises awaits me...all to be handed up early june...tis a time to work hard man!!! to work my ass off!!! i cannot afford to lose out...i cannot afford to fail!!!! and on top of that, i had to master a software i barely know in one months time in order to fully utilise it!!! So fucked!!!
wish me luckk.....and i wish good luck to those out there...doin whatever in wherever....till then.....ciao~~~
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