My old friend is back again. My past had came back to haunt me. Why, of all times, now?? I'm already very busy and stressed with all my assignments, and now, emotional casualties are happening to me again? The timing couldnt have been better.....
I've always reveled in the fact that me, unlike all of my friends, do not have any crush on whoever, and no relationship problems to stress myself out as well. I was the one who wasnt really good looking, and who always get unnoticed by everyone everywhere i go. My shabby appearance helps too. So i was glad that i do not have problems from this department at all.
Wont u feel lonely at times u ask? Yea, i will, sometimes i feel a lil bit awkward seeing other couples around, but the feelings are under my control; i wont get too worked up on it. I still feel okay.
But recently..things happened which brought all that sense of loneliness back again. No, its not about anything in the love department. In the contrary, its another thing all together. Since i am not in a relationship or wat ever, watever things i wanted to share, whoever i wanted to hang out with, i will find my friends. They are liek my anchor of un-loneliness. But...things haf changed....kinda....
I'm starting to feel, even my friends desert me now. They seem to leave me out of alot of things now. Or they do not want to hang out at our usual times now. As a result, i cant help but feel things have changed. Things weren't like how they were last time. Part of the reason was that our critical times have comed: the final exams. Alot of people are stressed,a dn generally we hang out less often. But that wasnt a good enuff excuse, cos, they still hang out with each other, without me in.
Are they bored with me already? I am, after all, a very boring person.
Whatever it is, my old friend, Loneliness, is visiting me again. Soon, his wife, Isolation, might come too.
For now, i shall start grounding myself from everyhting, and everyone, again.
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