Hallo there! I know it's a bit late to update but i went to Pangkor Island last weekend, it was a company trip so i went with my colleagues, it was so much fun! And a nice break too from the city cos guess what? I was back at the beach!!!
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The trip was long though. Bus journey(departed from our office building) took 4hrs to reach the Lumut jetty, where we had to take boats over to reach the islands. That alone took 30-40mins. By the time we reach and checked-in to our beach resort hotel, we were so hungry!!!!
After lunch we started our snorkeling session, it felt good and thrilling too. My first time snorkeling, initially i was scared and hesitant at first but once i got the hang of it, it's a pretty nice experience. The water is clear enough even for my not-so-perfect vision(i had opted to wear the goggles without my glasses, seeing it's pretty tight and might damage my glasses) so i can really see the fishes in the sea =D was so happy! I even touched one of the fishes, it felt weird but so nice at the same time ^^
That said though boats bringing ppl to that particular part of the island to snorkel are quite dangerous though, they just drive up to the shoreline, which is within the snorkeling area. At one time i was pulled up by a person and i realise the boat is so near me, i was shocked ><
There were huge rocks in the area too, and alot of my colleagues got scraped by it while snorkeling...some climbed up the rocks and were grazed by it just like that...the rocks are very slippery! Again i tried to be as careful as i can, and in the end i didn't get any open wounds/scrapes fortunately.
When snorkeling time is up we were taken for a short island hopping tour, not much really the guy just brought us to some islands in the area and showed us interesting rock formations at each island. One island had a rock formation that looks exactly like a whale, another is turtle, and another is crocodile-shaped. So interesting!!! Too bad i didn't bring my camera along so no pics =( the guys said there are no stories behind the rocks; they are naturally formed that way. xD
Then he put us back to the main beach and me and some colleagues stayed back and continue to play water while the others went back to the resort to rest and shower. The waves are quite strong and when they push against you, goodness it felt SO GOOD!! It was so relaxing! The water depth is okay too and i made sure i can always step on the beach floor lols dun wanna get washed away ><
We almost wanted to play Banana Boat but it was RM15 per person and the way the guy play it, doesn't look fun at all so we didn't play. But playing at the shore there is quite fun already! After that we went back and showered to get ready for the dinner later. Was nice able to get out in time to take some sunset photos. It was breathtaking, the view. Sun setting over the sea horizon. Nothing's more beautiful than that xD
Then we all set off for dinner (barbecue) bt it wasn't ready yet(i was thankful we didn't have to barbecue ourselves, someone will do it for us) so we all spread out and walked along the road and visited the stalls selling souvenirs etc. Then we went back to dinner and not quite ready yet, everyone was talking etc and i went off silently alone to the beach.....and had a quiet walk by myself on the dark beach(it was still illuminated by the lights from the seaside stalls and open air eateries so no worries)
Walking by myself on that beach.....it was of course a walk full of emotions and memories. I was numbed by the moment but quite enjoyed the silent walk. After awhile i went back to the group and found the food was ready, so i started eating.
Pangkor is famous for its sea products, esp fish products, and we had alot of fishes and crabs for our meals that night. I also realised they produce alot of fish-related food, but i'm not a big fan of fishes so i didn't buy any...haha...
After dinner ended we're supposed to have a karaoke session but it was an outdoor karaoke session with limited songs(mostly Malay songs lol) so ended up no one sang and we all dispersed again, each to our own activities. However the night is still young (9pm ++ only) and i didn't feel like going back to the hotel and rest for the night yet. But the whole area is turning to sleep itself and there was no entertainment around! After looking through the stalls again we went back to the hotel and sat at the lobby there. The others are sitting there playing with their iPhones/iPads. LOL. Apple fans. xDD
Then at last we decided to go limteh and went out again to drink. In the end we decided to drink beer instead so we all set off and bought a couple bottles of beer and went to the beach there and drank it, sharing between each other. It was a moment i savoured intensely deep inside. I mean....just 2mths back, if u told me i were to spend time at a beach in the night sharing beer with ppl i never knew existed before today, i wud've said that u are crazy! Seriously, u never can guess what will happen in the future...and i certainly didn't expect this. xD
It was quite fun though, some of us sat and lied on the sand, some of us remain standing(me included, didn't wanna get my shorts dirty) but we were there all together, talking, joking among each other, enjoying the night, enjoying the beach, the sound of the waves. Nice experience =)
The most interesting part of the night is that we found glow-in-the-dark particles in the sand as the waves wash up on the shore. At first we thought it was glitter left behind by ppl who might've been wearing glow-in-the-dark clothes(yes they were actually selling those clothes but i'm not too sure i believe it), but when we saw more being washed up onto the shore by the incoming waves, our curiosity were all piqued and we kept searching for more of the particles. The glow will fade after sometime and it was too dark(even with the very bright moonlight) to see clearly what the particle looks like(it felt like sand though!). In the end we didn't really know what it was that glowed, but it was pretty...
Then after that we went back to the hotel and slept... xD
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Woke up very early and went to bfast, another day of Malay cuisine(i had Nasi Lemak Rendang Ayam) and honestly i'm missing chinese food LOL. I ate much mre than i wanted and i felt bad abt it cos we're gonna have a telematch afterwards and i didn't wanna get too full before the match. Went back and changed into sports attire again(was warned might get wet again) and then set off.
I took some pics before the match started(started late too cos the guy was so late ==). We played "build the castle", "blind date" (where one has to be blindfolded and the teammates shout direction to get an object they hid somewhere) and then the old "tug-of-war". My team won and lost one match. LOL.
In the end after the tug-of-war everyone was exhausted and very thirsty(no one bought water) so no more games after that(was supposed to have 2 more). In the end some of us went to play with water and just relaxed, no vigorous activities. I joined in as well but didn't play as crazy as the day before.
Soon it was time to go(we were running late as well) and the results of the match came up: my team got third place. xDD So we rushed back to shower and check out on time, then went for lunch. WHile there we learnt that our afternoon activity of island hopping was cancelled so we all went back early to the jetty, and back to KL. The drive there was madness though!! The driver was driving so fast and dangerous at one point we almost got into an accident when a car on the opposite lane cut into our way. We all screamed in the car rofl...but in the end we all arrived safely. Phew!
It was a shock at the jetty tho cos there is a huge and long queue of ppl waiting to depart the island. We only got out turn nearly an hour later!
It felt awesome on the boat out in the vast sea. And the weather was very good and sunny, it was a beauty seeing the blue of the water amidst the green of the island jungles. Fantastic!
When we arrived back at Lumut Jetty it was still early, and we found out the bus back to KL isn't gonna start ahead of schedule, so we will only leave back to KL arnd 4.30pm as planned. So we all separated and went shopping around the area, mostly to buy local products(more fish products). I didn't buy any cos i really dun eat much fish products and my family was too far away to send it to. So i just tagged along that's all.
Soon it was time to go and most of the time most of the ppl napped in the bus. Haha. They played two movies(one is Norbit which i slept through and another is a local ghost film; we didn't have much choice of movies left) during the journey. Finally we reached KL at 8.30pm and we all went back home after that.
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Overall it's a good experience for me. Tho it reminds me of an old memory but i love the experience there. I finally snorkelled! LOL!! Had the lifejacket save my ass but still. xDD I thought it was a good ice-breaking session too between all the colleagues. It was fun. Never expect to have a holiday with virtual strangers, but it was fun :)
Monday, July 25, 2011
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
709 - The Day I Came "Clean"
Last Saturday, 9th of July 2011, is the day the Bersih rallies are going to take place. Deemed "illegal" by the government, the Bersih group's application to stage an assembly at the Stadium Merdeka was rejected, and they had no choice, but to stage a peaceful rally trying to enter the city and the stadium itself.
What are the Bersih organisation standing up for? Clean and fair electoral reforms. Recent elections conducted in the country over the last few years are blighted by accusations of unfair polling and poll-fixing. It was a whole lot of mess that couldn't be summed up in a book let alone a blog post. The national ruling party UMNO/BN faced a huge 'defeat' after opposition parties won alot of seats everywhere, even as they retained a mojority of 2/3 of Parliamentary seats. A revolution heading our way? BN losing its footing soon? What is the PM and his party going to do now?
I don't wanna go on and talk about how badly the government is reacting to all these political agendas. I'm not going to rant about how stupid i think the "1Malaysia" slogan and all the shit connected to it are. Those are for talks over a cup of tea and with like-minded friends. No, i'm going to talk about the Bersih experience.
I wrote a note on FB accounting my experience through the whole spectacle, but that was just an account of my journey through it all. Not my emotions, the people i met, the distance i ran, the heavy rain, the shouts, and most importantly, the UNITY between the people. To put all these in a singular post in a site where attention span is low, people wud've lost interest halfway reading through. So i trimmed alot of detail, gave a skin of everything.
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I went at it alone and not entirely prepared(forgotten abt the possibility of rain, didn't check and prepare stuff to counter tear gas), and unlike alot of rally-goers who went there with purpose, to put it simply, i was just being a 'busybody'. The unofficial 'journalist'. I was a neutral; i was at a point in my life where i gave up my country's politics totally, because to me really, their constant bickering and antics and cheap tricks to sway people's alliance is making them the shame of the country in the world's eyes, not to mention being the drivers behind the express that is the country degeneration. My single purpose was to simply take pictures of the event, because honestly, how often is it that i find myself in a 'hotspot' like this? I couldn't just let the opportunity slip away.
So like any storyteller, i tell the story from the beginning; i shot pics of before, during and after the rally. Although they aren't in a preferred proportion to each other, but at least i did it. I tried not to leave out as many happenings as possible. Because really, it only happens once. You capture it, it will last forever....
But you can look at pics, watch videos and can only be limited to imagination....imagine how it would feel like if you're down there with them. And to be honest, being there is a totally different experience. What i felt, right there and then, cannot be expressed in a picture alone. I was living, breathing, adrenaline pumped; the high morale of the marching confident Bersih rally group got to me.
They affected me.
It started when i was first at the UMNO Youth Party group, the so-called "Patriots" of Malaysia. Their noise interrupted my planned advance to the Stadium Merdeka. Their chants, their energy, the way they tried to raise everyone up....the songs they sang(yes, the National Song included), they affected me. But i know and felt that something is wrong. I felt that this shouldn't be the right group i should be supporting, or even watching/marching with them. Something is wrong. Their slogan is wrong. They are shouting "Hancur Bersih!" ("condemn Bersih") even though i felt some pride when they shout "Hidup Rakyat" ("Rakyat Lives"). Yes, Hidup Rakyat means alot to me, because as a rakyat myself, i want the country to prosper and live long, its rakyat living in peace and harmony, and that we as a whole, are proud patriots.
But not under him. Certainly not under this group. They have their own selective rakyat to protect, but definitely not ALL the Malaysians. I'm downright disgusted at myself. Where are the Bersih? Where are my real brothers and sisters? I felt like losing my family, right there and then.
Then suddenly i overheard a media worker that they are just nearby. I was again very excited, like i found my lost family! Blood soaring, i ran in search of them, and finally found them up ahead several minutes later.
The things i did to get to them? Climb a steep, wet slope. Broke into a private property by climbing over its closed gate(because that is the only way to go to reach the Bersih group; police had blocked off sections of the road). Prolly stepped on a couple of people's feet and heard them shout back at me. Gotten pushed by other people as well. But at last, i made it. I caught up to them.
Even tho i didn't start out by purposefully joining the rally, by now i was feeling like one of them. For once my heart felt right! I began to think in terms of "we", like "we marched on!" or "we raised our hands". By now, my heart is beating as one. As one with them.
I didn't chant along, i didn't shout, but i marched forward with them(although it was driven more by the fact that i need to get to the front for some nice pics). I was already having something against the FRU, was silently thinking "now don't you do ANYTHING to us....you can't turn on your own citizens!"
As time goes by though i sensed the breaking point is reached and surely as i guessed, all hell broke loose. The FRU finally threw tear gases at us and forced us to run for our lives. Me coming without any counter measures to tear gases, resorted to covering my face with my bag and shirt. Usually when i smell smelly gases(like fart! LOL) i will not breath thru the nose at all; i will breath through the mouth because if i did i won't be able to "taste" the smell. So i tried and did the same without really knowing the effects of tear gases.
What a big mistake it turned out to be. As i gulped in the now smoke-infested air, the sensation burnt my throat and forced me to choke on myself. I nearly gagged. Because of that natural reaction to outside harm, my eyes opened wide in surprise and it was another mistake: this time the gas stung my eyes. It was sooooooo stinging, i could hardly open my eyes. But i had to, because i need to see where i'm going. I was running away, running for my life.
In addition to choking, there is also the breathing part that is so bad. I felt suffocated, gasping for more air. It gave me more chokes and tears in my eyes as really, there's no air at all. The atmosphere was soaked with the stench and the spread of tear gases. It was raining harder by the second and i was hoping the rain will diminish the spread of the smoke, but it still spread strongly.
People around me were already starting to choke. I heard alot of coughs, and felt alot of people pushing and running away. I couldn't totally watch where i'm going, i just kept telling myself to keep straight and follow the path of people in front of me. One of my hands are on the bag of someone in front of me. I made sure with the force i'm placing on her bag, i won't be pulling or pushing her. In a way, i was steadying her and myself.
Then came shouts behind me to "Stop pushing!" and "Do not push!" There were also occasional "Calm down calm down!!!" "Be cool, relax! Slowly!" I even heard "Ladies first!" Of course, those were shout in Malay. I was touched. Even in the midst of chaos, people still retained some sense and logic and more importantly selfless care in them, to make sure while everyone ran away safely, we ran away unharmed by our own. A stampede is avoided this way.
I ambled a few more meters before i finally thought i couldn't take it anymore, that i was gonna faint and lie down there and be caught by the police. But at the thought of police i surged forward with more determination to NOT be caught by the police. There is a small regret right there and that where i think to myself "look what u got urself into coming into this rally!" but i forced that thought out; i was prepared mentally for a gas attack anyway. My mission now is not to be caught by the police...
It was really hard by now. I've taken the full force of the gas and the pain in my head is pounding. I tried to take deep breaths to slow my own breathing but it was only temporary relief(like 1 nanosecond? LOL). Everytime i open my eyes it was a blur(my glasses are wet and it blurred my already blurry vision) + pain + stinging, couldn't keep my eyes open for mre than 3 seconds. However i manage to spot a man ducking by a water pipe on a wall of the building and i crawled over to the other side of the wall where there is a pot of plant and hid beside it. Up to this point since the tear gas attack started, i never looked back at the police, so i didn't really knw how close/far they were from me. And i don't want to know either.
The man was taking as much water as he can from the pipe to wash his face and body. I did the same too, not caring if the water from the pipe is clean or not(normally, i'm very sensitive to cleanliness!). He left as soon as i came and i followed him, doing what he did; take water and wash my face. Mostly dabbled onto my eyes and mouth, and goodness it felt so much better. I was able to open my eyes more frequently now, and my mouth didn't feel as dry. But the nausea is still there...
A Malay woman in front of me was sprawled on a table choking her lungs out. When i glanced at her i heard a bang and saw someone escaping behind a shop gate just to the side of the girl. I then realise i'm in front of a restaurant! The gate was loosely dropped down and wasn't locked properly(prolly forgot to lock in the chaos of the sudden dispersal of the crowd + tear gas) and i realised it was my only escape route from the horrible tear gas. Quickly i made a dash for the gate and finally found myself on the other side of the doorgate, inside the safety of the restaurant.
I quickly grabbed and sat on the nearest chair i found and took deep, big breaths to calm my own breathing and nausea. There were already a couple of ppl inside. I saw the Malay girl earlier had escaped into the restaurant with me too. I looked around,; it was an Indian restaurant. The counter there is still selling rendang and various meals in economy rice style. I saw some of the people who escaped inside were washing themselves at the sink area in the restaurant. I got up(still dizzy) and tried to walk over and do the same.
A man saw me and came forward putting his hand out for me. I saw in his hands a fair amount of white stuff. Still not coming fully to my senses, i asked blindly "What is it?" My speech was slurred due to the tear gas, but he got me. "Salt," he said, eyes looking at me with concern. Not understanding why he gave me salt, i asked "What do i do with it?" He told me to eat it. "You will feel better.." he assured me. I grabbed a pinch and threw them into my mouth and sat back down.
The discomfort in my stomach eased greatly. For once i was feeling better. Salt! Who would've imagined! I glanced around the restaurant again and actually saw people handing salt out from salt packets they stored in their pockets. So salt was part of the "inventory preparation"! Again i wondered why i hadn't done my homework abt tear gases beforehand. Now i understand why alot of the people were drapping cloths over themselves. Those cloths are not to shield themselves from rain; they are to be soaked with water and to be covered up your face to ease discomfort breathing in tear gas!
As i sat there resting after washing myself up(sharing a moment with the salt-man when i saw him still looking at me with concern, checking if i'm okay. I smiled back at him assuring him i'm fine) i feel like wanting to stay there until everything stops and ends. I want to be in that safe haven. But no...within minutes, the shopworkers advised us to go back out(after peeking through their gate and checking if the coast is clear). I felt a sense of dread.....because it means heading out to danger again. But we had no choice and have to leave, after all we budged in in the first place. So i went out of the restaurant, thanking the Indian/Bangladeshi worker on my way out where he was holding the gate open for us to exit. In that one moment, he was my saviour, it felt like we are on the same side regardless of our races or maybe even nationality, but he helped us, in dangerous times like this. To me that time, he was my brother.
When i was out the rain had clearly became much much heavier, it was downright POURING. Not caring anymore that i'm gonna be fully soaked to the skin and without looking back in the direction of the FRU, i ran. I ran in the rain for my life. I couldn't have been more pumped. At last i seek shelter in a small eatery enclosed by a tent flap. I didn't really see where i was, i just went into a shaded stall and try and get my bearings right.
Only by then i realise i brought my umbrella with me and that i shud use it. Previously i didn't because it will be hard for me to take pics and it wasn't raining hard anyway, so yeah. I took out my umbrella and was ready to walk out of the tent and towards anywhere that i could escape to.
A man saw me and commented "No need use umbrella-lahh! When u run later it's gonna be hard! You're also wet already anyway!" LOLOLOL. But he did has his point. Of course i'm not gonna run while holding up and umbrella...so i just smiled back at him. Really, the advices ppl give you in dangerous times! Ppl seem to be more willing to help/advice when we're all in trouble at the same time! xD Normally, why would a stranger talk to me right? =D
Just moments later though, i saw a couple of tear gas canisters flying towards it. Everyone started to panic again and ran. There was nowhere else to run except backwards and up the slope in the distance. So i ran and nearly got knocked down by a guy who flung open the tent flap to run out, not wanting to be trapped inside the tent with the gas. I was so pissed at that time but scared too. The police are coming and they're not stopping!
So i ran as quickly as i can and finally reached a higher ground, near the top of the slope. I stood there and looked back towards the scene before me. People were still running up the slope but the path behind them was blurry with smoke already. By now the rain had become lighter and i unfold my umbrella straightaway. There were people around me too looking at the scene below. In the distance, i can see water being sprayed very high into the air over the road where we all just escaped from. I realise in horror that they had begun to use water canons too on the people still stranded down there. I heard the water was laden with chemicals, not just plain water. I've always thought it was plain water...
It was there i realised i am on the slope right next to the Tung Shin Hospital. Surely they aren't gonna catch up to us up here?? The people around me were starting to distribute salt again. These people really came prepared! I think i'm the only idiot here who didn't go prepared. LOL. Struck up a little chat with another rally-goer who kept talking about how salt will reduce the effect of tear gas. Told a couple of girls nearby too that they should take some salt(not sure if they know each other, but oh wells it's not important at this stage. Stranger or not, we are the same right there and then. Same victims.) and also apply it to their skin. LOL. It was amusing, but i'm thanking the guy too. He even asked the girls to distribute their salt to a few Malay girls nearby. They gave without hesitation, and the girls took the salt with gratitude. This is what we called "helping each other"!
The calm didn't last long though, as we saw more canisters thrown into the compound where we are now. My mind went "Holy shit!" cos they did the unthinkable- gassing ppl on a private compound!! The police really wanted us to disperse as far as possible! A fact i find funny because they are the ones who blocked the other side of the road, preventing reasonable escape routes! Seems more like they were trying to trap us and catch as many of us as possible!
Nowhere left to run, the only way is up. There is a short but high gap between the slope and a carpark area around a bulding higher up. Like earlier there is rising panic again as people desperately want to escape the tear gas. Luckily for us there were already people up there waiting to pull you up into the compound and escape. Steadying myself on the slippery roots of a huge tree nearby, i reached up and was pulled up to safety by a Malay man. "Thank you!" I said to him loudly and patted him on the back. Then i continued to run. He on the other hand, stayed to pull more people up, helping them to escape despite the tear gas rapidly spreading over the area.
Once up on the compound again we were only left with two paths to take; both having to trek through a huge tree and its various roots and fallen branches. What's worse is there were nails in the debris on the ground; i felt on piercing through my shoe soles and pricking my flesh. Luckily i wasn't stepping full force on my feet, if not, the huge long nail would've cut into my foot causing me to bleed. And that was one thing i never want at that moment.
To reach the other side, which i saw is a huge wide compound, i had to jump off the ground to below. And it was really high up and i wasn't so sure of it cos i didnt wanna break my leg. Fortunately the tree had long vines stretching down, and by clutching onto the vines and hopping down we were able to make it down to the wide compound safely.
It was so nice knowing that while you were at it, there were people asking you to "be careful" "look out for nails!" "do it slowly, take your time, dont rush, just be careful" while trying to hop down underneath. I didn't see who it was, bt i feel good about them. Once out in the wide compound, we began to walk slowly ahead to nowhere. I didn't know where i was at that time. I was lost, together with the others....i came in step with a few ppl and one of them, a hearty Malay man, said "Ehh mana kita pegi ni??? Kampung Baru ke?" (Ehh where are we going right now? Kampung Baru?) and we all laughed at his joke. It was a light moment, and we all shared some laugh and smiles. There were more actually before and after this, that one single moment while on the run together with your "comrades", when you look in their eyes and shared a smile, knowing we are all in such a deep mess, yet it feels SO RIGHT at the time. We BELONGED there. We were fighting for our cause.
Helicopters still flying low above, i heard shouts behind us suddenly and turned around, saw everyone running in our direction trying to escape from something. That something is called FRU and tear gas!!! I finally shouted out a curse "FUUUCCKKKK!!!!" before turning away and start to run away again. One half being pissed at the FRU for not stopping to harm us and another half wondering how long do i still have to run. LOL.
Finally on my right i saw a building and ran towards it together with some of the people. FOund out it was the Bursa Saham building and stopped there to catch my breath and recover. Some people were already taking refuge there. The others who ran with me earlier took other roads to escape instead of within the building. But i need rest, and i was still weak from the tear gas...
Took the opportunity to check on my friends who's leaving KL that day, ending their vacation. They are safely out of the city, thank god. I was actually trembling as i sent text messages to them. I think i spent abt 20mins in the building, deciding where to go next.
There were three ways actually, one back to where we came from, another that spreads to a road junction beneath, which itself spread to two directions: one left, one right. The problem is i dunno which road leads to where, and whether the roads themselves are still safe or not. There was a moment two Malay uncles went past me and i ask them where are they headed to and whether they know where the roads lead to; apparently they don't know either.
Suddenly a huge cough got me and i choked out. The uncle did not hesitate and pulled out his packet of salt and offered it to me "Nah...ambil ni...". I put my hand out and he poured salt onto my hands, but i told him to stop it when i felt it was enough, but apprently he did not think the same way, saying "Taklah....lebih lagi!" when i say "Cukup sudah, cukup sudah!" LOL i really didn't need that much but he poured alot to me anyway. I took some and he asked his friend to give me his water to wash down the salt, and he did :))
After awhile we debated where to go. I told them i want to go back to Kelana Jaya as i heard that they are trying to take LRT back home. They want to go to Bangsar. As if scared i dunno the way, they then tell me how to change trains at Jamek etc etc to get back on Kelana Jaya line. So nice and caring!
Alas we parted ways in different direction, due to them in the end changing mind to take taxi instead. I stood rooted where i was though, right at the junction of the road. Then i saw a group of friends(one of whom i'd chatted lightly to while in the building, discussing where to go) come back to my way. They had earlier went off the road to the right(which will eventually land u in Bukit Bintang) and were now planning to head back to where we ran from earlier, back to Puduraya. Feeling quite at lost, i gave in to them and joined them to walk back up the road.
The girl whom i talked to finally asked for my name and introduced herself as well. Her friends join our conversations once awhile. I guess they're just curious abt me, cos i was alone and everything. LOL they were like "You're so brave coming alone!" which made me embarassed abit, dunno why LOL but yeah. Found out they are a group of surveyors surveying the area and of cos this event. They soon asked me which side was i on. I told them i didn't choose any side, and that i'm just a nosy busybody. =D
They found out too that i like photography(the girl asked me if i'm interested in journalism, after i joked abt being an unofficial reporter) and told me two of their other friends are into photography as well. "Interested in shooting are you?" he asked. I said yeah. "My friend here, that dude over there, likes to shoot too." I am not alone anymore. In this 'troubled' times, brief friendships are sparked.
"Your're not alone anymore! You're with us now!" another girl from the group said loudly to me, flashing me a smile. To be honest i was quite touched at that moment....because she said the truth....right there and then, i was not alone...i was part of something, and whether i had wanted it or not in the first place, i am with them now. Even if i had started neutral, now i'm inclined towards Bersih...and i wanted to fight for them too, together with them.
So we walked until we nearly reached Puduraya again and saw a large group already there and chanting loudly as well. Alot of them are wearing white tho, or draping white cloths over themselves. Quite far and i can't see much. However, despite wanting to join, i wasn't really ready for a second round of tear gas, and i was feeling weaker and weaker too, i couldn't go on anymore. i left the group (more like they advanced in separate groups and i sorta wasa left behind lol) and went back the way to Bursa Saham building, and decided to try the Bukit Bintang road to go home. I want to eat in Times Square and go back home after that. So i started walking....
Then i finally realised where the road will take me. I had just been lost on the same road two nights beforehand while trying to meetup with my vacation friends in Petaling Street. That night i took the wrong shortcut and ended up so far away from my destination. And now..........i'm at the same road!!! U won't believe how i felt at this revelation. Never knew a bad thing that happened to me 2 nights before will serve me so well that day! Because of easy recognition of the particular street now, i was able to make my way back to Bintang and in the end, Times Square to refuel my body(still having minor after-effects of the tear gas). I thought of my friend and called her to let her know i'm safe(one of the few who knws i'm going to the event), also texted the others who knew too. LOL!
After that is back home and nothing exciting except if u wanna count in the time when i reach the LRT station and found out it was closed and had to wait outside for nearly an hr before it was reopened again. It sorta looks like some war camp though. Haha...interesting....
At night i asked my friend out for supper/tea while we sat downstairs watching the evening TV3 news. I was excited to see how they will show the whole incident on tv. To my major disappointment, the only showed minor footages and talk abit abt it only. I felt that alot of the truth that happened are not being reported out. I felt....cheated....and was very very very disappointed with the tv stations. I knew the media are govt-controlled...but after finally seeing and experiencing how much difference there are between the footage and news reported in tv and the real-life event, i finally lost faith in the local media...utter disappointement...
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Anyway, what i gained from this experience is more than the event itself. In just one day i found out how the people of Msia can be so united, through thick and thin, regardless of race. We helped each other regardless what skin colour we have. I've never felt so united in my life with the other rakyat before. This peaceful rally shows easily the unity between us more than the fallacy that is the PM's 1Malaysia plans. Even the name sounds stupid, if i may say. All that $$$ spent on developing this program(which obviously doesn't work, instead stirred more racial discrimination and hatred) is a complete waste compared to one rally which costs almost nothing and yet still manages to unite people.
Another thing i learnt from this is how shitty our country's media is.....i know most of them are govt' owned, but it really disappointed me how they covered this event. Almost close to none of the events are shown or reported. They only reported the police's statements and interviews. What a major letdown. Those who didn't attend the rally won't even know how tension it was because they didn't experience it and had to rely on TV news for information.
And to think that i wanted to work as a journalist, a reporter at a local news station here...i have my doubts now. If i wanna work as one, i wanna report the TRUTH and only the truth. The very basic moral of journalism: INTEGRITY. Sure, the news might not had twisted details on purpose, but they never served to report the truth either. Mostly just beating around the bush. So disappointed.....
Anyway, i think i've written quite a long post haven't i?? Hahahah i really have to give it to you if you read until the very last word in this post. xD I'm so lazy to edit anymore(make bold typefaces etc) and this actually took two days to write...lol.
Yes, it was one HECK of an experience i will never forget. Thrilling shit. No regrets even though gas-ed!!! xDD
What are the Bersih organisation standing up for? Clean and fair electoral reforms. Recent elections conducted in the country over the last few years are blighted by accusations of unfair polling and poll-fixing. It was a whole lot of mess that couldn't be summed up in a book let alone a blog post. The national ruling party UMNO/BN faced a huge 'defeat' after opposition parties won alot of seats everywhere, even as they retained a mojority of 2/3 of Parliamentary seats. A revolution heading our way? BN losing its footing soon? What is the PM and his party going to do now?
I don't wanna go on and talk about how badly the government is reacting to all these political agendas. I'm not going to rant about how stupid i think the "1Malaysia" slogan and all the shit connected to it are. Those are for talks over a cup of tea and with like-minded friends. No, i'm going to talk about the Bersih experience.
I wrote a note on FB accounting my experience through the whole spectacle, but that was just an account of my journey through it all. Not my emotions, the people i met, the distance i ran, the heavy rain, the shouts, and most importantly, the UNITY between the people. To put all these in a singular post in a site where attention span is low, people wud've lost interest halfway reading through. So i trimmed alot of detail, gave a skin of everything.
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I went at it alone and not entirely prepared(forgotten abt the possibility of rain, didn't check and prepare stuff to counter tear gas), and unlike alot of rally-goers who went there with purpose, to put it simply, i was just being a 'busybody'. The unofficial 'journalist'. I was a neutral; i was at a point in my life where i gave up my country's politics totally, because to me really, their constant bickering and antics and cheap tricks to sway people's alliance is making them the shame of the country in the world's eyes, not to mention being the drivers behind the express that is the country degeneration. My single purpose was to simply take pictures of the event, because honestly, how often is it that i find myself in a 'hotspot' like this? I couldn't just let the opportunity slip away.
So like any storyteller, i tell the story from the beginning; i shot pics of before, during and after the rally. Although they aren't in a preferred proportion to each other, but at least i did it. I tried not to leave out as many happenings as possible. Because really, it only happens once. You capture it, it will last forever....
But you can look at pics, watch videos and can only be limited to imagination....imagine how it would feel like if you're down there with them. And to be honest, being there is a totally different experience. What i felt, right there and then, cannot be expressed in a picture alone. I was living, breathing, adrenaline pumped; the high morale of the marching confident Bersih rally group got to me.
They affected me.
It started when i was first at the UMNO Youth Party group, the so-called "Patriots" of Malaysia. Their noise interrupted my planned advance to the Stadium Merdeka. Their chants, their energy, the way they tried to raise everyone up....the songs they sang(yes, the National Song included), they affected me. But i know and felt that something is wrong. I felt that this shouldn't be the right group i should be supporting, or even watching/marching with them. Something is wrong. Their slogan is wrong. They are shouting "Hancur Bersih!" ("condemn Bersih") even though i felt some pride when they shout "Hidup Rakyat" ("Rakyat Lives"). Yes, Hidup Rakyat means alot to me, because as a rakyat myself, i want the country to prosper and live long, its rakyat living in peace and harmony, and that we as a whole, are proud patriots.
But not under him. Certainly not under this group. They have their own selective rakyat to protect, but definitely not ALL the Malaysians. I'm downright disgusted at myself. Where are the Bersih? Where are my real brothers and sisters? I felt like losing my family, right there and then.
Then suddenly i overheard a media worker that they are just nearby. I was again very excited, like i found my lost family! Blood soaring, i ran in search of them, and finally found them up ahead several minutes later.
The things i did to get to them? Climb a steep, wet slope. Broke into a private property by climbing over its closed gate(because that is the only way to go to reach the Bersih group; police had blocked off sections of the road). Prolly stepped on a couple of people's feet and heard them shout back at me. Gotten pushed by other people as well. But at last, i made it. I caught up to them.
Even tho i didn't start out by purposefully joining the rally, by now i was feeling like one of them. For once my heart felt right! I began to think in terms of "we", like "we marched on!" or "we raised our hands". By now, my heart is beating as one. As one with them.
I didn't chant along, i didn't shout, but i marched forward with them(although it was driven more by the fact that i need to get to the front for some nice pics). I was already having something against the FRU, was silently thinking "now don't you do ANYTHING to us....you can't turn on your own citizens!"
As time goes by though i sensed the breaking point is reached and surely as i guessed, all hell broke loose. The FRU finally threw tear gases at us and forced us to run for our lives. Me coming without any counter measures to tear gases, resorted to covering my face with my bag and shirt. Usually when i smell smelly gases(like fart! LOL) i will not breath thru the nose at all; i will breath through the mouth because if i did i won't be able to "taste" the smell. So i tried and did the same without really knowing the effects of tear gases.
What a big mistake it turned out to be. As i gulped in the now smoke-infested air, the sensation burnt my throat and forced me to choke on myself. I nearly gagged. Because of that natural reaction to outside harm, my eyes opened wide in surprise and it was another mistake: this time the gas stung my eyes. It was sooooooo stinging, i could hardly open my eyes. But i had to, because i need to see where i'm going. I was running away, running for my life.
In addition to choking, there is also the breathing part that is so bad. I felt suffocated, gasping for more air. It gave me more chokes and tears in my eyes as really, there's no air at all. The atmosphere was soaked with the stench and the spread of tear gases. It was raining harder by the second and i was hoping the rain will diminish the spread of the smoke, but it still spread strongly.
People around me were already starting to choke. I heard alot of coughs, and felt alot of people pushing and running away. I couldn't totally watch where i'm going, i just kept telling myself to keep straight and follow the path of people in front of me. One of my hands are on the bag of someone in front of me. I made sure with the force i'm placing on her bag, i won't be pulling or pushing her. In a way, i was steadying her and myself.
Then came shouts behind me to "Stop pushing!" and "Do not push!" There were also occasional "Calm down calm down!!!" "Be cool, relax! Slowly!" I even heard "Ladies first!" Of course, those were shout in Malay. I was touched. Even in the midst of chaos, people still retained some sense and logic and more importantly selfless care in them, to make sure while everyone ran away safely, we ran away unharmed by our own. A stampede is avoided this way.
I ambled a few more meters before i finally thought i couldn't take it anymore, that i was gonna faint and lie down there and be caught by the police. But at the thought of police i surged forward with more determination to NOT be caught by the police. There is a small regret right there and that where i think to myself "look what u got urself into coming into this rally!" but i forced that thought out; i was prepared mentally for a gas attack anyway. My mission now is not to be caught by the police...
It was really hard by now. I've taken the full force of the gas and the pain in my head is pounding. I tried to take deep breaths to slow my own breathing but it was only temporary relief(like 1 nanosecond? LOL). Everytime i open my eyes it was a blur(my glasses are wet and it blurred my already blurry vision) + pain + stinging, couldn't keep my eyes open for mre than 3 seconds. However i manage to spot a man ducking by a water pipe on a wall of the building and i crawled over to the other side of the wall where there is a pot of plant and hid beside it. Up to this point since the tear gas attack started, i never looked back at the police, so i didn't really knw how close/far they were from me. And i don't want to know either.
The man was taking as much water as he can from the pipe to wash his face and body. I did the same too, not caring if the water from the pipe is clean or not(normally, i'm very sensitive to cleanliness!). He left as soon as i came and i followed him, doing what he did; take water and wash my face. Mostly dabbled onto my eyes and mouth, and goodness it felt so much better. I was able to open my eyes more frequently now, and my mouth didn't feel as dry. But the nausea is still there...
A Malay woman in front of me was sprawled on a table choking her lungs out. When i glanced at her i heard a bang and saw someone escaping behind a shop gate just to the side of the girl. I then realise i'm in front of a restaurant! The gate was loosely dropped down and wasn't locked properly(prolly forgot to lock in the chaos of the sudden dispersal of the crowd + tear gas) and i realised it was my only escape route from the horrible tear gas. Quickly i made a dash for the gate and finally found myself on the other side of the doorgate, inside the safety of the restaurant.
I quickly grabbed and sat on the nearest chair i found and took deep, big breaths to calm my own breathing and nausea. There were already a couple of ppl inside. I saw the Malay girl earlier had escaped into the restaurant with me too. I looked around,; it was an Indian restaurant. The counter there is still selling rendang and various meals in economy rice style. I saw some of the people who escaped inside were washing themselves at the sink area in the restaurant. I got up(still dizzy) and tried to walk over and do the same.
A man saw me and came forward putting his hand out for me. I saw in his hands a fair amount of white stuff. Still not coming fully to my senses, i asked blindly "What is it?" My speech was slurred due to the tear gas, but he got me. "Salt," he said, eyes looking at me with concern. Not understanding why he gave me salt, i asked "What do i do with it?" He told me to eat it. "You will feel better.." he assured me. I grabbed a pinch and threw them into my mouth and sat back down.
The discomfort in my stomach eased greatly. For once i was feeling better. Salt! Who would've imagined! I glanced around the restaurant again and actually saw people handing salt out from salt packets they stored in their pockets. So salt was part of the "inventory preparation"! Again i wondered why i hadn't done my homework abt tear gases beforehand. Now i understand why alot of the people were drapping cloths over themselves. Those cloths are not to shield themselves from rain; they are to be soaked with water and to be covered up your face to ease discomfort breathing in tear gas!
As i sat there resting after washing myself up(sharing a moment with the salt-man when i saw him still looking at me with concern, checking if i'm okay. I smiled back at him assuring him i'm fine) i feel like wanting to stay there until everything stops and ends. I want to be in that safe haven. But no...within minutes, the shopworkers advised us to go back out(after peeking through their gate and checking if the coast is clear). I felt a sense of dread.....because it means heading out to danger again. But we had no choice and have to leave, after all we budged in in the first place. So i went out of the restaurant, thanking the Indian/Bangladeshi worker on my way out where he was holding the gate open for us to exit. In that one moment, he was my saviour, it felt like we are on the same side regardless of our races or maybe even nationality, but he helped us, in dangerous times like this. To me that time, he was my brother.
When i was out the rain had clearly became much much heavier, it was downright POURING. Not caring anymore that i'm gonna be fully soaked to the skin and without looking back in the direction of the FRU, i ran. I ran in the rain for my life. I couldn't have been more pumped. At last i seek shelter in a small eatery enclosed by a tent flap. I didn't really see where i was, i just went into a shaded stall and try and get my bearings right.
Only by then i realise i brought my umbrella with me and that i shud use it. Previously i didn't because it will be hard for me to take pics and it wasn't raining hard anyway, so yeah. I took out my umbrella and was ready to walk out of the tent and towards anywhere that i could escape to.
A man saw me and commented "No need use umbrella-lahh! When u run later it's gonna be hard! You're also wet already anyway!" LOLOLOL. But he did has his point. Of course i'm not gonna run while holding up and umbrella...so i just smiled back at him. Really, the advices ppl give you in dangerous times! Ppl seem to be more willing to help/advice when we're all in trouble at the same time! xD Normally, why would a stranger talk to me right? =D
Just moments later though, i saw a couple of tear gas canisters flying towards it. Everyone started to panic again and ran. There was nowhere else to run except backwards and up the slope in the distance. So i ran and nearly got knocked down by a guy who flung open the tent flap to run out, not wanting to be trapped inside the tent with the gas. I was so pissed at that time but scared too. The police are coming and they're not stopping!
So i ran as quickly as i can and finally reached a higher ground, near the top of the slope. I stood there and looked back towards the scene before me. People were still running up the slope but the path behind them was blurry with smoke already. By now the rain had become lighter and i unfold my umbrella straightaway. There were people around me too looking at the scene below. In the distance, i can see water being sprayed very high into the air over the road where we all just escaped from. I realise in horror that they had begun to use water canons too on the people still stranded down there. I heard the water was laden with chemicals, not just plain water. I've always thought it was plain water...
It was there i realised i am on the slope right next to the Tung Shin Hospital. Surely they aren't gonna catch up to us up here?? The people around me were starting to distribute salt again. These people really came prepared! I think i'm the only idiot here who didn't go prepared. LOL. Struck up a little chat with another rally-goer who kept talking about how salt will reduce the effect of tear gas. Told a couple of girls nearby too that they should take some salt(not sure if they know each other, but oh wells it's not important at this stage. Stranger or not, we are the same right there and then. Same victims.) and also apply it to their skin. LOL. It was amusing, but i'm thanking the guy too. He even asked the girls to distribute their salt to a few Malay girls nearby. They gave without hesitation, and the girls took the salt with gratitude. This is what we called "helping each other"!
The calm didn't last long though, as we saw more canisters thrown into the compound where we are now. My mind went "Holy shit!" cos they did the unthinkable- gassing ppl on a private compound!! The police really wanted us to disperse as far as possible! A fact i find funny because they are the ones who blocked the other side of the road, preventing reasonable escape routes! Seems more like they were trying to trap us and catch as many of us as possible!
Nowhere left to run, the only way is up. There is a short but high gap between the slope and a carpark area around a bulding higher up. Like earlier there is rising panic again as people desperately want to escape the tear gas. Luckily for us there were already people up there waiting to pull you up into the compound and escape. Steadying myself on the slippery roots of a huge tree nearby, i reached up and was pulled up to safety by a Malay man. "Thank you!" I said to him loudly and patted him on the back. Then i continued to run. He on the other hand, stayed to pull more people up, helping them to escape despite the tear gas rapidly spreading over the area.
Once up on the compound again we were only left with two paths to take; both having to trek through a huge tree and its various roots and fallen branches. What's worse is there were nails in the debris on the ground; i felt on piercing through my shoe soles and pricking my flesh. Luckily i wasn't stepping full force on my feet, if not, the huge long nail would've cut into my foot causing me to bleed. And that was one thing i never want at that moment.
To reach the other side, which i saw is a huge wide compound, i had to jump off the ground to below. And it was really high up and i wasn't so sure of it cos i didnt wanna break my leg. Fortunately the tree had long vines stretching down, and by clutching onto the vines and hopping down we were able to make it down to the wide compound safely.
It was so nice knowing that while you were at it, there were people asking you to "be careful" "look out for nails!" "do it slowly, take your time, dont rush, just be careful" while trying to hop down underneath. I didn't see who it was, bt i feel good about them. Once out in the wide compound, we began to walk slowly ahead to nowhere. I didn't know where i was at that time. I was lost, together with the others....i came in step with a few ppl and one of them, a hearty Malay man, said "Ehh mana kita pegi ni??? Kampung Baru ke?" (Ehh where are we going right now? Kampung Baru?) and we all laughed at his joke. It was a light moment, and we all shared some laugh and smiles. There were more actually before and after this, that one single moment while on the run together with your "comrades", when you look in their eyes and shared a smile, knowing we are all in such a deep mess, yet it feels SO RIGHT at the time. We BELONGED there. We were fighting for our cause.
Helicopters still flying low above, i heard shouts behind us suddenly and turned around, saw everyone running in our direction trying to escape from something. That something is called FRU and tear gas!!! I finally shouted out a curse "FUUUCCKKKK!!!!" before turning away and start to run away again. One half being pissed at the FRU for not stopping to harm us and another half wondering how long do i still have to run. LOL.
Finally on my right i saw a building and ran towards it together with some of the people. FOund out it was the Bursa Saham building and stopped there to catch my breath and recover. Some people were already taking refuge there. The others who ran with me earlier took other roads to escape instead of within the building. But i need rest, and i was still weak from the tear gas...
Took the opportunity to check on my friends who's leaving KL that day, ending their vacation. They are safely out of the city, thank god. I was actually trembling as i sent text messages to them. I think i spent abt 20mins in the building, deciding where to go next.
There were three ways actually, one back to where we came from, another that spreads to a road junction beneath, which itself spread to two directions: one left, one right. The problem is i dunno which road leads to where, and whether the roads themselves are still safe or not. There was a moment two Malay uncles went past me and i ask them where are they headed to and whether they know where the roads lead to; apparently they don't know either.
Suddenly a huge cough got me and i choked out. The uncle did not hesitate and pulled out his packet of salt and offered it to me "Nah...ambil ni...". I put my hand out and he poured salt onto my hands, but i told him to stop it when i felt it was enough, but apprently he did not think the same way, saying "Taklah....lebih lagi!" when i say "Cukup sudah, cukup sudah!" LOL i really didn't need that much but he poured alot to me anyway. I took some and he asked his friend to give me his water to wash down the salt, and he did :))
After awhile we debated where to go. I told them i want to go back to Kelana Jaya as i heard that they are trying to take LRT back home. They want to go to Bangsar. As if scared i dunno the way, they then tell me how to change trains at Jamek etc etc to get back on Kelana Jaya line. So nice and caring!
Alas we parted ways in different direction, due to them in the end changing mind to take taxi instead. I stood rooted where i was though, right at the junction of the road. Then i saw a group of friends(one of whom i'd chatted lightly to while in the building, discussing where to go) come back to my way. They had earlier went off the road to the right(which will eventually land u in Bukit Bintang) and were now planning to head back to where we ran from earlier, back to Puduraya. Feeling quite at lost, i gave in to them and joined them to walk back up the road.
The girl whom i talked to finally asked for my name and introduced herself as well. Her friends join our conversations once awhile. I guess they're just curious abt me, cos i was alone and everything. LOL they were like "You're so brave coming alone!" which made me embarassed abit, dunno why LOL but yeah. Found out they are a group of surveyors surveying the area and of cos this event. They soon asked me which side was i on. I told them i didn't choose any side, and that i'm just a nosy busybody. =D
They found out too that i like photography(the girl asked me if i'm interested in journalism, after i joked abt being an unofficial reporter) and told me two of their other friends are into photography as well. "Interested in shooting are you?" he asked. I said yeah. "My friend here, that dude over there, likes to shoot too." I am not alone anymore. In this 'troubled' times, brief friendships are sparked.
"Your're not alone anymore! You're with us now!" another girl from the group said loudly to me, flashing me a smile. To be honest i was quite touched at that moment....because she said the truth....right there and then, i was not alone...i was part of something, and whether i had wanted it or not in the first place, i am with them now. Even if i had started neutral, now i'm inclined towards Bersih...and i wanted to fight for them too, together with them.
So we walked until we nearly reached Puduraya again and saw a large group already there and chanting loudly as well. Alot of them are wearing white tho, or draping white cloths over themselves. Quite far and i can't see much. However, despite wanting to join, i wasn't really ready for a second round of tear gas, and i was feeling weaker and weaker too, i couldn't go on anymore. i left the group (more like they advanced in separate groups and i sorta wasa left behind lol) and went back the way to Bursa Saham building, and decided to try the Bukit Bintang road to go home. I want to eat in Times Square and go back home after that. So i started walking....
Then i finally realised where the road will take me. I had just been lost on the same road two nights beforehand while trying to meetup with my vacation friends in Petaling Street. That night i took the wrong shortcut and ended up so far away from my destination. And now..........i'm at the same road!!! U won't believe how i felt at this revelation. Never knew a bad thing that happened to me 2 nights before will serve me so well that day! Because of easy recognition of the particular street now, i was able to make my way back to Bintang and in the end, Times Square to refuel my body(still having minor after-effects of the tear gas). I thought of my friend and called her to let her know i'm safe(one of the few who knws i'm going to the event), also texted the others who knew too. LOL!
After that is back home and nothing exciting except if u wanna count in the time when i reach the LRT station and found out it was closed and had to wait outside for nearly an hr before it was reopened again. It sorta looks like some war camp though. Haha...interesting....
At night i asked my friend out for supper/tea while we sat downstairs watching the evening TV3 news. I was excited to see how they will show the whole incident on tv. To my major disappointment, the only showed minor footages and talk abit abt it only. I felt that alot of the truth that happened are not being reported out. I felt....cheated....and was very very very disappointed with the tv stations. I knew the media are govt-controlled...but after finally seeing and experiencing how much difference there are between the footage and news reported in tv and the real-life event, i finally lost faith in the local media...utter disappointement...
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Anyway, what i gained from this experience is more than the event itself. In just one day i found out how the people of Msia can be so united, through thick and thin, regardless of race. We helped each other regardless what skin colour we have. I've never felt so united in my life with the other rakyat before. This peaceful rally shows easily the unity between us more than the fallacy that is the PM's 1Malaysia plans. Even the name sounds stupid, if i may say. All that $$$ spent on developing this program(which obviously doesn't work, instead stirred more racial discrimination and hatred) is a complete waste compared to one rally which costs almost nothing and yet still manages to unite people.
Another thing i learnt from this is how shitty our country's media is.....i know most of them are govt' owned, but it really disappointed me how they covered this event. Almost close to none of the events are shown or reported. They only reported the police's statements and interviews. What a major letdown. Those who didn't attend the rally won't even know how tension it was because they didn't experience it and had to rely on TV news for information.
And to think that i wanted to work as a journalist, a reporter at a local news station here...i have my doubts now. If i wanna work as one, i wanna report the TRUTH and only the truth. The very basic moral of journalism: INTEGRITY. Sure, the news might not had twisted details on purpose, but they never served to report the truth either. Mostly just beating around the bush. So disappointed.....
Anyway, i think i've written quite a long post haven't i?? Hahahah i really have to give it to you if you read until the very last word in this post. xD I'm so lazy to edit anymore(make bold typefaces etc) and this actually took two days to write...lol.
Yes, it was one HECK of an experience i will never forget. Thrilling shit. No regrets even though gas-ed!!! xDD
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