Swinburne Dance Party

Ok this happened long time ago, on 23rd October 2009, but i was too busy to blog abt it...lolss...but anyway, here it is!

Actually originally didn't plan to go to the party...but Sharon wanted to go, and me & Greg were in campus(doing work, no less), while Jacky had just finished his Japanese class. Since we all no mood do assignment that night, we decided last minute to join the event...

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Here are some pics i took....camera battery ran low halfway thru, so i didn't take much pics...sorry...

After u purchased the ticket u are given a chop on ur arm, and this is a shot of mine...it says 'Super'! xD

*Note : I misplaced my ticket...when i find it i'll post up a pic of the ticket yea...paiseh... =.=""

The party is held inside the MPH (Multi-Purpose Hall) in campus! The number of ppl who turned up was more than i expected, really....xD

The stage. A DJ spins music at the back there while performances will be held on stage...DUH. =.=""

The host for the night, Wilson. He's a member of Swinburne Dance Club.

The DJ....later another DJ rocked the house...but i didnt get a shot of him..lols...

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Let the performances begin!!

The theme of the night is 70's, 80's, 90's and the current decade~  I remember they started with MJ's "Don't Stop Til' You Get Enough", which i think, is a perfect dance track to start off the night....

Salsa dance....everyone was watching~~ xD  It was a very sensual dance type, i must say. xD

I really like this dance concept. The lights are cool! My friend Joak came up with it, according to Sharon. Very cool yea? xD

Overall, i had a FUN night. And i saw Greg bust some moves of his own. I was amazed. Never knew he could pull those tricks! =D

Finish....

I can finally say i've done *everything* for this semester. Finished up all my assignments, and finally had my final test today. The feeling of finishing everything....is SO GOOD.  =D

I had also settled my accomodation in Kuching...at least for the moment. I'll be staying here till CNY next year...in the meantime i'll work, i think. And for next semester i'm most probably gonna continue staying in hostel...had a talk with my mum today and settled it with the warden after my final test today..so all feels good =)

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So what have i been doing recently? Ever since i passed up my last assignment, i had been living like a lazy pig. Online all day and did nothing else. Oohh ya went out sometimes with friends too; we went to movies and ate out and basically just hung out. It was pretty cool; they made me feel less bored....

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Sigh. 'New Moon' finally caught up with me. =.=" My brother had this craze for the books last time, and he still is a fan of the books. Me, however, couldn't understand the hoopla, and only read 24 pages of 'Twilight', the first book. 'Twilight' the movie wasn't really exciting; i gave it a measly 5/10, but things looked good when i saw the trailer for New Moon. And at last, we went to catch it on Monday...

All in all, i felt it was a really good movie. Compared to the first one, this had more pacing, more action and relatively easy on the eyes. Come on we have the hot body of Taylor Lautner. Wuahhaa. Movie ended in the way these kind of love stories go, and i felt this film was done well. A solid 8.5/10.

However, that said, it was a pain to watch too. Jacob Black, the werewolf who's in love with Bella the main girl, reminds me so much of someone i know. It's like it was portraying the same things that she went through. The feelings. What Jacob was to Bella. The fierce protectiveness Jacob has for Bella. I came off the movie feeling very sad...and i had never identified with a movie/book character so strongly before.

My friend was nuts over Jacob Black. I think i will too...after seeing what i saw. Joey, its time to lend me your Twilight books again....i wanna find out what happens to Jacob Black~~  xD

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Other than 'New Moon', i also went and watched 'Ninja Assassin' with my friend...it was a last minute thing; he was going to leave soon, as do another friend of ours, so this is like a final get-together. This friend...i had no idea he still likes to see me, and is very generous to have me being there. After what happened. After we sort of drifted apart. It's nice 'reconciling' again...it was fun.

Anyway, let's talk about the movie. Rain the Korean superstar is the lead in this film, and i must say, his English improved a lot and he HAS an incredible body. x) Going into the film i heard many people saying it's not nice, but i read reviews were favourable, and i couldn't agree more. I liked the film. Action scenes are well-shot, there is good balance in portraying the history of the lead character Raizo(played by Rain) and generally the acting is okay. If u don't mind blood(there's PLENTY of them...my god...i wonder how many buckets it would have filled if it was real  xD) and gore(injuries and death, people...nothing big. It's just the WAY they die xD) generally this is a cool 'dude' movie to watch. Satisfied my action-flicks taste. 7.5/10.

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Besides that...i also tasted racing for the first time. Well i didn't race, i just sat in the car. But the feeling of speed and rush to the front...i love it. It woke up my dormant feel for racing....now i wish i have a car so i could race...but then...kinda risky ain't it? xD  But suffice to say, i had always been a racing/car enthusiast since young. The best game genre i play is racing. I was influenced by my dad's love of cars. Guys find it uneasy that i like cars. Gals thought me odd for not liking Barbie dolls.  ;)

But again...it's dangerous ohh...drive safe everyone! xD

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Lastly is food....haha...they brought me to a new place i hadn't been before: C121 in Tabuan (something...i forgot LOL). That area had good food, i must say! I tried the Kueh Chap and Pork Leg Rice there....both are awesome. Hope to find out more good food in Kuching!

Ohh ya....Sharon ah....Peter ahh...where is my DURIAN ahhhh??? And ABC....when we wanna go eat?? xD

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Ya....tomorrow me and a few friends are gonna go to Permai Beach to BBQ!  It's my first time going on such a trip, and my first time BBQ-ing....yes...i never BBQ-ed before...LOLS...sakai wei...haha....gonna stay overnight in Damai...am very looking forward to this...hehehe...

Ok...peace out ppl...enjoy ur holidays!! =)

Karaoke.

I think i might have found sumthing to be addicted to. To release myself.

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How do u deal with depression and negativity? How do u let it out? How do u smile again? Some ppl choose to release it through sports(punching, running) to get their mind off it; some choose to drink in sorrow; some choose to cut themselves; some choose to express it through art and music; some choose to write it down; some choose to do the exact same thing that made them depressed, inflicting the pain on themselves; and some choose to simply run away.

Whatever it is, there is a way of dealing with it.

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Lately, i found myself going thru some things i never thought will happen in my life. It is really wrecking me up. Worse is i dunno what to do about it. I have all these pent-up feelings inside me. Like a war was going on...

Good thing is, i found a way to relieve those frustrations...and that is, to sing K!!

When i sing, i really threw my emotions into it. Let everything be washed away by the loud music and my own terrible singing. Laugh my way out of my saddest thoughts. Enjoying other people's company. Even if it means i'll be screaming my head off, it doesnt matter. Even if it'll make my voice sound hoarse, i'll scream my lungs out till  i forget everything.

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I told a friend before that i never paid attention to lyrics when it comes to songs. I usually pay more attention to the beats, the rhythm, the tone. I think its time for me to start paying attention to lyrics, so i can know what is the song for the current chapter or paragraph of my life. Or i wouldnt have to go 'omg...so the lyrics are like this?'.

I wanna be released. And i'm already halfway through it. I can make it.

Lala...update~

Long time didn't update my blog, it seems.

It has been one crazy month. Days of rushing assignment, sleepless nights and unhealthy food is what i went through. Even though it sucked the life out of me i actually love it....

At least its better than working life anyway.

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As of now, i had handed up 2 of my major assignments, 1 more to completely finish, and another due next week. I really can't wait for Tuesday to come and pass. Sighs....ok eunff abt assignments. Talk abt it also sian. Haha. Just know that the end is near...wuahahahah~~

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These month also hung out outside alot ohh...among the many things i did is watch more movies in MBO and sing K in KBox, the newly opened karaoke center in Spring. And also celebrated friend's birthdays. Ah Lam and recently Kim's...

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For Ah Lam's we went to movies, after he himself chose to watch movie...originally planned to watch 2012 but since it was opening night the place is full....so in the end we watched 'Fourth Kind' instead...i thought it was a well shot movie despite its plot. Went home the night with scenes from the movie replaying in my head...haha....not bad..one of the better suspense movies i've seen in quite awhile. Oh and not to forget....before the movie we went to this western food place called Richmond...i had blackpepper lambchop (as usual, ^^)..their sauce is reallly nice....cooked quite well, but i still prefer Alfredo's or my cousin's one back in Miri =))  Too bad Alfredo closed...sighss..

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For Kim's we planned a surprise bday party at Pizza Junction...originally planned for Pizza Hut but it was full =.="" So everyone went and waited for the arrival of the bday gal...heheh it was abit awkward at start, but everything went well, everyone was full and everyone had a good time. Got a HUGE bear (really, its bigger than me i think xP) as a gift for her, and is really glad she liked it. A surprise from that night is...how popular the bear actually was with almost everyone!! xD Everyone was like playing with it...even the guys  =PP

Another movie we caught is 'Christmas Carol'...caught it in 3D, as Christine wanted to catch a 3D movie...kinda an added plus cos i wanted to watch this too, as i liked the book when i read it waaay back then. The movie started slowly and stuff, but what i liked most abt it is the many different angles u can see happened in the movie. Alot of interesting angles and scenes. However, this movie i think might be a bit slow for the general moviegoer, and the fact that it is in 3D actually made this film better. I dont think it'll be really that interesting if it is in 2D....

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That's it about movies and birthdays...now i'm speaking about something i find myself slowly addicted to. Sing K!! LOL. First ever K session in my life was in Absolute last time..this time we went to the newly opened KBox, which is just above MBO.

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First time went there was just a pure random thing...partly due to another one of Sharon's 'random fridays'...after dinner at Secret Garden, a new place i never knew before(the ham cheese-baked rice was AMAZING. According to Jacky, the Vanilla Shake was to DIE FOR. Judging from Sharon's Choc Shake, i can pretty much agree to it....xD) we didnt feel like going back yet...so we randomly went Peter there picked him up, and we all agreed on singing K.

Went O.O when we went in. There were so many rooms! And best thing is one box has 3 microphones...wuahhaha...and we got ourselves a pretty good food package, so the food and drinks are awesome =) the box is also very cold so i recommend everyone be 'wholly' clothed and do bring jacket xD

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Second time we went there is after my MOI and Msian studies assignments...after i got these two over, felt so easy to breath again. They celebrated by watching 'Planet 51' while i went to the Karaoke session after their movie finished. This time they were 5 of us in total; we couldnt get the better food packages(it was only keropok compared to hotdog and fries last time) as we are in an odd number. We decided next time we went for K there we should go in even numbers...wakakaka~~

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Besides that, i have many other things to worry about. First is moving out...i havent found a new place to stay!! Anyone any recommendation? xD  Second is job...i need job...i pokai liao...hahahahha!

And sum unwanted distractions i wish it never happened. I'm now working on throwing these distractions. Its a one-man war. I'll handle it myself....i want to win this.

THIS IS IT.

Went and watched MJ's "This Is It" yesterday. I couldn't wait any longer!! I just HAD TO see him!!

The movie didn't disappoint. In the beginning when i saw him...i dunno what i was feeling. Sadness? Wonder? Dread? I dunno. But i knew i went really quiet at the beginnning...but as the movie rolls on and the familiar songs came on, i slowly drowned myself in the movie.


Boy, if he had lived and performed these concerts, it'll be the BEST concert ever. Musically and stage-wise.


The effort and hard work put into the concerts by everyone, especially Michael himself, is highly regarded. I admired the professionalism everyone showed. What's most important is i got to see how a genius works. The way Michael involved himself in everything, i really have respect for his work ethic. His perfectionist nature(a Virgo!! =D ) is partly why everything in the concert looks so amazing.

Another bright new star is of course one Ms. Orianthi Panagasis, who is an AMAZING female guitarist. I swear she won my heart already just by holding the guitar. O.o  Hell man i wanna play like that!

I remember asking Dad if 'that blonde girl in "This Is It"' is the same guitarist as the one in MJ's concerts years ago(he had a blonde guitarist too, and her hair i shall never forget xD  Her name is Jennifer if i'm not mistaken) My dad said yes...but after i found out that she actually isn't, i began to read on why MJ hired Orianthi to be his guitarist. One must be quite good if able to pass Michael's test...

And she IS good.  xD

Another thing i came to understand from the movie is the 'hand-shake' movement MJ seems to always do in his concerts(yes i do watch his concerts lmao)...i always wondered why he did that. I knew there must be a reason(everything he does, from dancing to singing, is his way of expressing SOMETHING. When he sings or dances he feels it and expresses it out. Watch the movie and u'll understand.) why he did that...but i couldnt guess until i saw the movie. The moment i realised it i felt like smacking my head!

For a 50year old guy who has health problems(weak lungs among others) he sure can dance and keep up to his dancers half his age. AMAZING. Another thing is, when he sang, he sounded JUST LIKE how he sounds on official releases of his songs. For a guy whose voice is distinctly different to how it sounded 20 years ago, he really is amazing for managing to 'nail it'. This just shows what a gifted vocalist he is.

New clips to accompany his songs on stage are absolutely *stunning*. "Thriller" and "Earth Song" are top-notch. Wonderful. Marvellous. Its really such a shame it all didn't and won't happen! =(

All the while i was thinking, "he looked SO THIN...." I wonder if the last ever rehearsal was in the movie, i mean just the last one before he died..sighs. Whatever it is, MJ is the world's BEST EVER PERFORMER & ENTERTAINER. Ever. No one can beat him nor replace him.

"This Is It" is also the first ever movie that i sat till the credits rolled out fully. Not that i never wanted to stay behind, but usually the credits either got cut out really early by the workers or my friends wanted to leave or everyone left and the workers are staring at me silently asking me to leave =.=""  But this is the first time i stayed till it fully ended, praises to MBO. Nice.


I'm DEFINITELY buying the DVD when it's released next year. Even if it'll cost me an arm and a leg. It's WORTH it. "This Is It" is simply AMAZING.


Trivia : MJ is the one who first invented the 'robot' dance. Cool eh? Genius.

And November came...

Yeah and another month to the end of 2009. WHOA!! Time flies.... xD

Semester gonna end soon...but i have a test on early December...sighs...can't really holiday early. But i can't wait  for this sem to be over seriously!!

I wanna look for new place to stay. I am going to be evicted xP  Does anyone know where got room to rent? I have a few suggestions already...but still, keeping my eyes out for more. If u know sumwhere just suggest to me ya! Anywhere the area near campus is fine. Easier that way...THANKS IN ADVANCE. xD

Hmm assignments still alot..but soon gonna be finished. Rushed my 2D for 3 days now left with the sound department. LOL. ZOmbie mode these days. Supa unhealthy...sighs.

Ohh ya the typography exhibition is up!! I helped out a bit in the exhibition, nothing much, but it was a GREAT experience....i really enjoyed that.

Hmm..what else ah?? Sighs. I need inspiration and motivation. Gambatte~~

New skin~

As you can see, I've changed the skin/theme for my blog.

If u came to my page like, everyday(LOL!), u'd notice i change my skin quite a few times using the default templates. But i wanna try different skins...so i looked for some and found a few...

This current layout i edited abit of the HTML code, nothing drastic, just some deletion and tweaking. It still has problems though; i wanted my header to read "Dork Ducca's Corner" but if i did the 'Corner' will be moved down instead. And that doesnt look good at all.

So i spent all my time looking at the HTML trying to find where to tweak it. I can't find it. So i proceeded to change the font. Looked and previewed so many fonts, yet none can give me "Dork Ducca's Corner." So i suppose i should use "Dork's Corner" only then...

Something new: U can now go directly to my Facebook and Twitter page by clicking on the icons at the top right of my blog. For Facebook though *only* logged-in users and friends in my list can see my profile. I'm sorry but privacy is important to me and i don't want strangers snooping around my profile page. =.=""  However, my Twitter is very public, just set it up recently...

I'm still unsure whether to use the font Necropol or Berlin MD. Necropol looks better...sighh..

OK suddenly i thought of changing the name again, from "Dork's Corner" to "Dork Domain". HAHAHA!!! Why 'Dork' u ask. Well, cos i'm one. LOL. Simple as that. xDD

Anyway, i should go back to my assignments liao. Did nothing productive the whole day. Feel so useless. Ciao~

Venimus, Vidimus, Vicimus.

On 20/10/09 we came, we saw and we conquered. The 7th, 8th and 9th floor of G Building. LOL.

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Actually, its just that our haikus which we submitted to Christine for printing came back. AO size i think. Its HUGE. And we stamped our mark on the upper floors of the building with our haikus. I really like this idea. =D

Mind u, this is really part of our project, not just any activity...

Had a GREAT time putting these up with the classmates. ^^ <3

Disappointment in myself.

I feel like a failure. A weakness i know i always had was being exposed again. And this time it hurts so much more. So, so much.

Because i know i can do nothing about it. Because i let it grow inside me for so long.

I'd often tell people and friends that i'm not a good person. That i have a heart made of steel. I can ignore people easily if i want to, if i don't like them. Its easy to read my body language when this happens. I know someone who can't do this because she has such a good, soft heart, although at times i tell her to toughen up when the situation needs her to.

A tough and strong heart is best for resilience and withstanding attacks from other people. But NOT when u are needed to be there for someone. When ppl expect u to put ur heart on ur sleeve for them. To them ur heart is just stone cold.

If you don't already know by now, i can't comfort people.

You know how sometimes when a friend is down, and they go looking for someone that'll comfort them? The friend will say soothing words and calm the crappy-feeling person down. The friend will say the right words at the right time, and tend to the person and be their ears and physical source of comfort.

That someone isn't me. And you don't know how much it eats away at me. How much i feel like i disappointed my friends with my own lack of emotional comfort and support. Because i wanted to be there for my friends when they feel down. I wanted to be their source of comfort, a place to let out.

But i failed, i failed terribly. Even though how much i want it, it always backfires on me.

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I remember seeing my roommate cry. In front of me. I never had friends crying in front of me before. I didn't know what to do, what to say. I was afraid. Seeing a friend in trouble and crying, it tears away at my heart. But i was helpless. I didn't know what to say to her, how to comfort her. She expected something from me, i could give her nothing. All i could blurt out is a tiny 'Are u ok?' Then silence. I just sat there and let her cry till she stop. And the disappointment i felt in myself grows and grows.

When another friend of mine told me her troubles...i could see she was visibly very upset, and yet again i didn't know what to say. My mind is all blank. All i could do is try change the subject a little bit, or repeat something i said earlier, or try cheering her up instead.

I couldn't give comfort. Heh. Some friend i am.

Now it happened again. Someone wanted me to be there, just for her. Nurse her hurt, tend to her wounds. Wanted me on her side. Once again, my logical mind overrules everything. I analysed her situation, and lectured her abt her misgivings. I admit it, i tend to think alot and overanalyse and criticise things. I almost always analyse first before giving out the verdict. I stand on the fact that i couldn't take her side, because she wasn't right.

She then tells me that it wouldn't kill for me to break my rules for once even when i'm not supposed to take sides. That i could at least had stitched up her open wound before i start shooting her with cold hard facts.

I realised, she was right. I had approached her situation with the wrong way, again. I had been so robotic, until i had lost my 'human' touch.

What do i do? What should i have said? I dunno, i dunno!! I am at lost for words. I am not a person who comforts people. I DONT KNOW HOW. Now i know how dyslexics feel. It used to puzzle me why there exists dyslexia, and what sufferings dyslexics go through. I think now i know the feeling of not understanding and using something that probably the rest of the world knows how to.

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U know there's this saying, "know which friend to go to for each situation". When u are joyous, who do u share it with? When u are in deep shit, who do u call to ask for help? When u feel down in the dumps, who do you want to pull you up and clean u before u face the world again?

Sadly, i think i'm not this person to all my friends. I do care about my friends, but i don't know how to deal with them when they are down in the dumps. It doesnt mean i don't care. I care, i care alot. But i suppose my way of caring is hard for people to understand.

It's been like this for a long while. I don't know when this will end. This really is a glaring weakness of me as a friend. I had been blaming myself for a looooong time now. It seems it'll never end...

This is not a post to tell everyone NOT to look for me when they are down. Nor is this to tell people that i'm sick of their problems and leave me alone. NO THAT IS NOT IT. This is just me letting out. Me really disappointed in myself.

I'm sorry to the people, in the past, present and future in my life, for not being understanding enough.

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Funny, how a person who's always proud of being flamboyant with words find herself failing to come up with the right words at the right time.

Quick update~

Ok obviously the previous blog i saved it as a draft..that's why the date was 10th when i only posted now on 18th...LOL...

Anyway next up i'm gonna upload those to facebook and more shots to dA then i'm back to assignments...been spending the whole Saturday editing pics =.="""

Finally submitted my banner ads. Took me looooooong enuff. Sigh. =.="" Now next challenge is animatics. =.="" SIGH....

Ohh and i thought of a game to play on my blog. It'll appear soon..perhaps next post. Heheh. OK ciao!!! xDD

Will keep u guys updated as much as possible...seeing how assignments had been crushing on me. Haiz.