Tired.

"The world flies by me, and i'm just sitting here watching it, waiting for someone to take my hand and fly with them." Ducca, 02.09.09


Hi everyone!! Long time no post sumthing. Well actually i did drafted a post last friday...but i'm still waiting for the pics from my fren..LOL...will tell u guys when i posted yeah! Since it'll appear before this current post.


Assignment mania is kicking in...next week already got the words 'DEADLINE'...cham liao..and and...today learn Actionscript....end of the class i went @.@ but the lecturer ok la...he's quite good ^^ And spam mania reached its peak today oso in my fb status..shot up to 76 comments in under 45mins..that was quite a record..thanks guys!!! =D


Many things happened this few days...beginning to feel like everyday is an adventure in itself..haha...thanks to spontaneity from my frens, i found myself suddenly in one place or another..doing something completely different from my plans..hahah..not to say its bad...i REALLY ENJOYED what we did...and a change of pace once in awhile is not bad. All in all i got a pretty good kick from hanging out with my classmates~~~


Watched 'Up'. Almost played basketball...but ended up hanging out in Iglool(great ice-cream!! ^^) and Kenyalang. And many more others....



That said tho....there's also a few things that were making my mind going on overdrive mode....LOL....




I have 3 friends facing love problems, all different stories and stages and versions...and another friend who finds himself possibly starting to fall in love it...LOL....and i was in the middle of it all. LMAO!!! I dont mean i was involved in their uhm...'experience'.....its just that i was the one they chose to talk abt it. Nothing wrong. I'm not making a point or whatsoever here by saying this out...it's just i find it amusing i'm in this situation...LOL....but...i really appreciate those that willingly told me abt it and asked abt my opinions and stuff...thanks ppl...i am not writing this to offend u guys...LOL....




Ohh and another thing i wanna stress about. One thing abt me is.....if i dont wanna talk about something, i wont talk abt it, no matter how u pressed me. If i feel like saying it out then i will(usually those really really really close friends...my resolve will crumble more easily under u all...hehehe...). U must give me time. When i feel comfortable saying it out, i will do it. If u continue to press me to talk, i will either:


1) ignore u
2) give u a face
3) lie to u.



Which i dont feel like doing to my friends. So pls....give me space. I feel so stuffed at times. I feel i cant breathe sometimes. I need my space. I wish that ppl will notice how i really really act around. There's this 'obvious' part of me, which i think everyone knows, and the other part of me which u really really need to look carefully. I wish ppl could read my 'hidden' language. But i guess ppl just dont care. Or they failed to notice. Or i hid it too well. Well, fine. I shall tell u then. But....I hate telling ppl how i am. It sounds so desperate sometimes.

I dont have problem with ppl reading me tho. I have a friend who notices all the little parts about me, and she understands why i act that way or how i approach stuff. And she tells me about it. And i'm cool with it. It actually made me realise how i am in other people's eyes. Stuff like that.


Man...i could go on and on. But. I shall stop for now...for it will drag too long and these sorta things i prefer talking privately heart by heart.



I. Am. Tired. Of. Explaining. Myself.



And. Pls. Dont. CONSTANTLY. Bug. Me. With. Assignment. I. Am. Not. The. Top. Student. I have enough of my own assignment problems to deal with. Sigh.


Thank you.