Epicness.

So last saturday my laptop died on me when i have an assignment deadline to meet just that night. I was more than horrified. I hadn't back up any of my files.

I press the "On" button again. The LED indicators flashed on briefly, and there was a sound coming out from the laptop before everything died. i tried again and again, until even the LED indicators didnt even flash on. I was beyond worried.

I tried using plug only. Its the same. The i changed to battery only. Worse. Nothing lits up. I tried both. The LED indicator actually flashed red...so i quickly switch it off.

I googled my problem and came to the nearest conclusion: my motherboard is KO'ed. Shit...i hope the problem's not big else i'd to change the whole motherboard, and rather than doing that why dun i get an entirely new laptop instead =.=""

Sigh.

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It was not until 3 days later then i had the time to get it checked. To my amazement the girl made my laptop come alive with only the plug connected @.@ i was flabbergasted. Not to mention shocked and embarassed.

"Eh?? Why is this happening?" i said.

"I think its ur battery's problem..." she said. I told her abt the red flashing indicator.

"Yeah seems like it."

@.@

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So my laptop's ok for the mo...i can only deduce it got short-circuited due to the rainwater i think, when i was bringing it to school that time. I hadnt been using my battery since then; i'm relying on my plug only.

Sigh. Call this epic fail or what? Lol.


*This post should've been finished edited on 07/04/2010.*

Death?

Not until last night had i given this much thought: how easy is it to die?

Last night was so intense, i'm sure i couldn't hold on anymore. I really felt i was dying....or at the very least suffer brain damage due to this intense heat....lol i even went and wiki 'Fever'...i read and thought did i just had hyperthermia instead?

Anyway, back to the topic about death. I realised last night....i could've died so easily and not one of my friends will know. Abit morbid, really, but i actually do wonder what will my friends think if they were to know i died last night and no one knew, no one cared.....

Prolly most of them will go back to living their lives like normal....my death isn't a big issue at all.

But really....in a city with no family and you can only depend on yourself, what happens when u fall sick? When u get mugged by sumone on the streets? Hell if last night i was mugged i won't be able to fight back...seeing how weak i was at that time. I couldn't even raise my umbrella properly.

What to do but suffer alone? Hardly anyone cares anyway.

40 Degrees.

U ever had a fever and got SO hot until u feel like u're on fire and about to combust anytime soon?

Lol i never. Until last night. Ever since two days ago i went out and have chakueh, i've had this uneasy feeling in the throat. Throughout the whole yesterday morning this feeling grew, and by the time i reached late afternoon i can feel a small lump in my throat.

I thought it'll go away, but it didn't. In fact, it got worse rapidly with a speed that surprises me. I guess eating a chilli-laden Thai chicken rice helped abit in the lump's growth. Sigh. And then by the time i was packing to go back home at night i already have difficulty swallowing....slight dizziness came along and i start to feel cold...

All the time i'm walking home i feel cold...which is surprising, cos normally it feels hot as u had to sweat on the way back. But i didnt...i even started trembling a little...i thought i was feeling cold becos of the night wind....then i decided to head over to 101 and get myself that limewater my friend had last time which totally soothed his throat...

I didn't order it rightaway though. Instead i went to the stall selling ice and ask what is good to reduce heatiness. The guy suggested honeydew and i agreed. He made a honeydew ice and to my utmost horror it was filled with coconut santan...that isn't going to help my throat!!! @.@

Then i ordered the lime drink....but it was without semboi and is served cold. By the time i had finished half of the ice i was already shivering from the cold. "Uh-oh" i thought. "Eating ice is the wrong idea....." What do i know? All i was thinking at that time is to just get sumting cold to numb the throat....

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I didn't realise it actually at that time, but drinking cold stuff worsens the fever. It made my body react to the coldness, that's why i was shivering. To produce heat. This added fire to the already heaty feeling i got, and when i finished it was with utmost difficulty i walked back, trying not to faint, cos i was feeling like it. I couldn't even walk properly, my legs are so weak and joints hurt....

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So cold...........my teeth was even chattering. Yet i know inside i'm boiling up. Went into my room and straightaway lay down on my bed, covering myself trying to sleep it away. My vision was blurry and my head felt like it was gonna explode. All my joints were hurting at this time. Even my eyes were painful from the overheating. I was on fire!!!

When i woke up suddenly 2hrs later, it was already 1am plus, and my head was burning & dizzy....my whole body feels hot and i was sweating only a little. Dragged myself to the loo and came back in and continue to sleep...woke up again twice in the night for the loo....haha...i drank so much earlier... =.="

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Then i woke up around 10sumting this morning. I wasn''t feeling as hot as last night; the heat had reduced. But i still have the cold feeling u get when u're in fever. My eyes was stinging though. So much pain everytime i blink. Even my lump had reduced.....i'm now only left with a very soft voice, painful joints and muscles, especially the legs. Goodness....at least my brain is still safe. I was so sure it'll be sooooo hot that i'll suffer brain damage and became a retard(sorry for the offensive term used).

What a time to fall sick. I've got so many assignments to do but all i want to do now is sleep and sleep and sleep. Fever makes me sleepy...but i know enough time was wasted....i've really got to get the things done...but my head is so heavy......arghh........

Funny, i almost always learn lessons the hard way. I must always go through some sort of physical or emotional pain before i 'get it'. Hmmm i guess only by this way that i will learn? Hmmmm........

Tired....i feel so weak..............................ughhhhhhh.....................

Ahhhh!!!!

=.="" well i officially started classes....ughh and from week 4 lagi tu =.=""

still abit blur to as what i should do as i only just came in, but i suppose so far i can still manage.

if i dun spend time facebooking all the time. LOL. xD

Am really loving the subjects this semester. God i LOVE video. =)

Had to do games again this semester. Game & Watch style. Dude brings back memories of consoles from the past. Gonna be tough, but hey, just take it as a challenge!!!

Am really lagging behind everyone else, but will try do my best in catching up!

Gambatte oh! =)

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Got a call from the job interview i went last saturday this afternoon. Wth they actually agreed to my demands. And i had to say 'no' to them cos i am studying!!! I really wish this is worth it, cos i just rejected a job with a good pay.

But then again, maybe i'm not supposed to have some things....things are happening now for a reason. what reason? Only time will tell. For now, just go with the flow!

Some explaining to do.

Ok remember abt the last post where i said i'm at the crossroads?

Well i got a sudden call from the Finance dept on thursday morning, telling me they'll reappeal for me again using my prev sem's results, and suggested i go to classes in the meantime. Then that afternoon i got a call from a full-time job i've been applying, asking me to go for an interview.

So i was at a crossroad. One takes me down the unsure path of continuing studies, as the reappeal results isnt a total guarantee too. I might still stop studying in the end. Another path sees me start working to pay back fees i owe the uni, and this means i'm not gonna take the risk of waiting for the loan and studying at the same time. I'm already 3 weeks late for studies anyway. Another path is going back to Miri to work, as the post i'm going for an interview has a post in Miri as well. Leave everything and everyone behind in Kuching.

So i was torn between job and school, Kuching and Miri. And the whole day i nearly frizzed my mind trying to weigh the pros and cons, analyse this and that, and was weighing opinions i got frm friends and mum.

In the end i chose to continue study. For the moment. Cos i really love classes and i missed them alot.

Mm....just take things one at a time. See how it goes.

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Because of the sudden onslaught of things happening all at once i didnt make it known to many ppl yet....it was still a shock to me and i wasnt really absorbing it at the time. So i kept a low profile and didnt tell ppl abt it.

I always try to keep a low profile. I dun really like to broadcast my problems and such. Especially things i myself isnt too sure about. I meant the outcome of the things happening to me or around me. I thought keeping silent and wait out the results is a good thing to do. Like go under the radar or something...

Apparently it is not. Ppl just misunderstand me all the time. Sigh.

Honestly i don't give a damn when ppl misunderstand me and my intentions. Except when it comes to ppl i care so much. Some ppl i hold dear to my heart.....i do not want them to misunderstand me, so i always try to be honest and explain myself. Because their opinions or what they think of me i put in highest regard.

Insecure perhaps? Sumone once told me i have a huge insecurity issue. I dunno. She could be right.

Crossroads.

Faced with possibly one of the most difficult decisions i ever have to face in my life. I mean seriously one step or another is a life-changing choice.

I'm standing right in the middle of a crossroad. I could just feel it.....the turning point of my life. But what should i do? Which path should i choose?

U see, the thing is, too much 'maybe' and 'perhaps' are in for this too. I know no one hardly knows the result of the paths they chose in the end, but for me these stakes are kinda high...

I'm torn. Torn between this and that. Between the want and the need. I need to be rational, but somehow my logic is trying hard to defy me for sum reason.

I dunno what to do, really. What do i want? But what i want isn't totally controlled by me. I can't control the outcome, i can't control the process much. My current fate lies in the hands of others now....

Which path should i choose? The one to the left? The right? In front? Whatever it is, i can't go back, nor can i continue to stay where i am. I'm forced to make a decision soon.

Time is running out.

Ferns growing???

Hmmmm....its beeen a loooong time since i last came in here. And my, alot did happen, and so is everyone's posts. I wonder if i have time to read all of them!!! xD But i will try la...haha.... xD

MMmmmm what's with me these days ahh? Haiz. Let's make it into a points system, easier to say...

I am:

- no longer pursuing my degree course.
- still technically a student of Swinburne Sarawak.
- need a job.
- starting everything frm scratch as i lost alot during the one month i was away frm Kuching.
- feeling less inspired than ever to do design work. =S
- photography passion is still intact. =)
- taking a fucking detour from the flow everyone's going.

Need to self-improvise on some of my skills. And keep thinking positive. =)

Next up will post something about my trip to a Japanese exhibition i went recently, and a post on my university as promised(long ago!!) to my friends. xD Sorry guys just be patient with me!! xD

Will try get more photos done. And shot.

Till then, ciao.


P/S i miss uni life soooooo much. I miss hanging with my classmates!!! =(((

Ministry of Beats Vol. 1 - Dinner

18th January 2010

Was invited by my friend Sharon to cover this soft opening of Lounge@Royal Oak, Hills Shopping Mall. Was thrilled to cover another event again~ =)

The other bloggers and photographers

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MENU FOR THE NIGHT

Cakes

First the cakes were brought out and we wasted no time taking pictures of it. Cupcakes and layer cakes for everyone!

Baked by Ms Heather's Speaking Roses which is just opposite the bar, situated inside the mall itself.

Let me introduce the lovely cakes....

+ Cookies +

The diamond-shaped Spicy Spring Onion lives up to its name. Upon biting and tasting the crumbs u can taste the spiciness in it. It tastes salty to me too, but its okay cos i like salty stuff ^^

Then i tried the tear-shaped Almond Golden Leaves. Right amount of sweetness and i love the almond pieces.

I think both cookies are baked very well. *thumbs up*

~ Cupcake pastries ~

I like these cupcakes. The icing on top isn't too sweet (compared to ones i've eaten in the past) and the pastry itself is just the right amount of softness. Looks very cute too~

- Layer cakes -

The chocolate cakes isn't too sweet, which is nice and the chocolate flavour is retained. However i wish it could be more chocolatey though, but that's me and my chocolate cake fetishes =P

The layered chocolate & cheese cakes are quite ok, but i think still can be improved with stronger flavours as i felt i couldn't taste much cheese/choc in it.

The way the layered cakes is presented looks like a radioactive signal doesn't it? >.<

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Drinks

The main course for the night would be beer(after all, its a pub!) but orange juices are available too. I was very 'guai' for the night; i chose to drink Green Tea instead =)

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Food

: Satay :

This is the beef satay, which i didn't try as i don't eat beef. =)

Lamb satay!! I love lambs >.< It was cooked pretty well, juicy and tender enough. Top-notch!

And the main courses are rolled out...

-o Lamb chop o-

Certainly my most favourite in western cuisine, i was very eager to try it. It was served with baked potato, salad and sum broccolis. Not bad! Quite healthy as opposed to the normal lamb chops served with fries & baked beans and buns. =)

= Steak =

Unfortunately as i do not eat beef i didn't try this. But i can eat the fries, no problem~ =P I think they put some mint dressing on the salad? Because i remember taking some fries and i tasted mint O.o but it was nice, i like it =)

* Salad *

Broccolis and carrot. What's not to like?

They did a great job for the lamb...it was cooked just right, tender and as such easy to cut and chew on. Here's for u to see the texture of the meat....full marks for meat texture. =D

My cupcake <3

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Alright, let's take a look at the bar's interior~

When i first step in from the outside i saw this quote on the wall, and i thought it's pretty neat to put such a quote in the interior. Nice quote too btw~

If you turn to ur left there's a staircase up to the lounge upstairs.

Here's how the area looks like.

I like these seats. Comfortable and i wonder if curtain can be let loose and the seat be covered and 'privatised'. LOL. Dang forgot to ask =.=""

Another quote! Found at the top of the stairs. Nice~!

So this is the bar counter, viewed from the upstairs lounge. The green part is actually beer bottles, which is cool! The countertop has a nice curvy shape. Order your drinks here~

The countertop is actually decorated by our not-for-use-anymore 1 cent coins. Talk about recycling! =D

Walk further in and u'll see the other entrance/exit of the pub, and this shelf of wines to the right side. Can u see me in the picture? =P

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Speaking Roses

Ms Heathere's shop. A nice lady who took me to her shop and introduced me around. =)

The logo is surrounded by "I Love You" phrases in different languages. Awesome!! The place is brimming with positive energy already~ =)

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Official Pass

When we were settled with our dinner, the pub owner, Mr Ronald came out and gave us passes to his upcoming event at the bar, the Ministry of Beats Vol. 1, which is a percussions event. So excited to hear this! Because i love percussions ^^ Not only that, we were given 5 free passes each so we could bring 5 friends of our own. One free bottle of beer for everyone with a pass! =D

Note: Thanks to Sharon for information on the cakes and the names of the cookies. Pictures are taken using her Canon EOS 40D except for the very first picture. Thanks. And many apologies for the late post...

More pictures on my DeviantArt.

Start of a New Year.

In what seemed like a blink of an eye, 2009 ended. And WHAT A YEAR it has been. Full of ups and downs, lessons and opportunities, and not to forget meeting new people and places. =)

Let's get on quickly to what i did before i went dragging on too much again @.@

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I had to work that night too. By that time i was already posted to the outlet in Spring, so i was not at King's Centre again. I was looking forward to another firework celebration and countdown in Spring that nite.

Unfortunately, there wasn't any. @.@ Apparently i was mislead....and what a bummer. NO COUNTDOWN?!?! So boring...i straightaway turned emo. *lol*

And then Sharon's text came in. Countdown at her workplace: Jase's Tea Room. =)

After work i was picked up by Sharon and Peter and we went over, calling our friends as we went along. In the end only Bryan and Kathleen showed up and joined us, who's already seated with Sharon's dancing friends, Hui Ming & Jia Mei~

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Kath's Strawberry tea. Peter was her butler for the day. =P It has a very nice scent~

Chun-chun 12am we cheered and popped stuff. The kid was very happy for sum reason. ;)

Masks....i still keep mine..wheee~~~

We stayed there till nearly 2am i think. In the car on the way home, me and Kathleen formed our own 'band' and were trying hard to sell our 'music' using our new toy, the plastic toy trumpet/horn (what do u call that again?? HAIZ.). OMG we both went totally crazy blowing the damn thing!! Sharon couldnt stop laughing! =P

It was a night to remember. Kath, next time, we bring our trumpet and blow again. Huahaha~



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2009 is a year when i learnt alot. About life, love, friendship and work. I experienced many firsts...first time karaoke, first time sisha, first time took a pic with DSLR, first time didn't sleep at all for 40hrs(still a personal record), first time attend concert (Greenfest!), first time blog abt event, first time plan bday for friends, first boatride across river, first time clubbing, first time had hard liquor, first time lasertag, first time play drums and guitar, first time group photoshoot, first time dealing with exhibition stuff, first time staying overnight at a beach resort with friends, and many more....

First time someone really opened my heart, which before i thought is locked forever.

And because of that, first time had my heart broken & scarred too. That was one of the firsts of bad things that happened. First time lost my phone. First time had food poisoning sooo bad, i swear i was near to death. Felt SO awful. First time quarrel so much with sumone. First time felt what isolation and classification of people thru stupid judgements feels like. And many more.

But the heartbroken thing...i dun think its a bad thing. Everyone has to go thru it right? A blessing in disguise perhaps. SUmting that makes me learn and be opened to opportunities...

But what's happened was already in the past. A period of time which i shouldnt dwell on too much, for we all had to move forward. To grow. To learn. To survive.

Learnt what it feels like to like sumone. Learnt to let go. Learnt to accept. Learnt to think more openly. Learnt to be more careful. Learnt to be more alert. Learnt to be think faster. Learnt ALOT about life...

All in all, i grew as a person. Even thought the downs are there, but hey, they were there to help us learn and be stronger. It is the downs that made the ups more worthy. Despite everything that's happened, the things i did, the things i could've done when i was supposed to, I am still grateful and lucky i met there wonderful ppl who came into my life. Really happy i met these people who changed my life one way or another.

I wonder if i changed sumone's life though?


Note: drafted on 01/01/10.

It's Christmas! - 25/12/09

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU!

I had always LOVED christmas. Even though i am not Christian, but i like the atmosphere of it. The songs...the people...the gifts...the things ppl do on Christmas. I like it very much...so much so its always my favourite festivity of the year.

LOL yes....to me it beats CNY too. =P

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I had to work on the week leading to Christmas Day and after it...so i was abit down cos i thought i pretty much won't be celebrating much as all my friends are busy or out or timing not right to hang out(i work till 10pm every day...sigh.). Being particularly excited on Christmas Eve(cos the next day is Christmas Day!), the feeling slowly fades away as time slips closer to the midnight mark.

I thought for this year's Christmas I'll just past the midnite mark alone in my room and texting everyone...until Crystal mentioned to me there's gonna be a countdown that night and she's going to stay for it. I was like, "Got mehhh???" The countdown will be at Spring Mall....i could walk over after i finish work!

That got me excited. Something is going to happen after all!! It won't be dull...thank goodness. And after that my colleague talked to me abt it and mins later another text came in telling me to go for the countdown. =P

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When i finished work i went as fast as my tired legs could get me to Spring. The mall extended its opening hours to 11.30pm, which i was SO thankful for cos i need to buy xmas present for sumone~~ LOL this is literally last-min shopping, ppl. And i only have 1hr to do it....was runnning everywhere looking for the right present, and my foot was so painful i tell u. But i went on anyway...its Christmas dammit!!!

And then Crystal said she couldnt stay for the countdown. Bummer. =( I went look for Greg and asked him to stay for countdown too, but too bad his parents arrived to pick him already....HAIZZZ....

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When it was just minutes to midnite *giggles* i went outside and waited for the fireworks, all the time taking pics of the crowd and the carol-singing choir at the stage there. Lols. Then Sharon came with Kath...and to my surprise Peter too. And Kath's young sis Jeannie :)

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Nearing 12am...let's all rush outside....

Just look at the crowd.... >.<

The carol singing on stage...

10 seconds after that shot, the countdown started...i hold up my camera at the sky(and so does most of the people there) and my phone in my other calling sumone as i want her to hear what's going on around me. But it was engaged and so i stopped and focused on the fireworks.

Let them begin~~~~

Bleh. All were lousy shots. Not much i took there. Oh wells.


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My verdict: Not jaw-dropping, but it was good enough for the night. The crowd cheered along to sum of the fireworks, and it was fun. I wasn't happy with my camera(again, sigh) but oh wells. It wasn't until later when Peter passed me his camera and i took sum shots....


Merry Christmas!!!  =D

When everything was over, they wanna go McD. I was like 'damn i shudnt have bought the bread earlier!!!' lol cos i was hungry after all that walking around...in the end we went to 3rd Mile McD and feasted outside the place cos they were closing LOL.

We opened our Xmas gifts there too. I opened mine, which was from Sharon, Fab and Kathleen. They were expecting me to scream...LOL....but i didn't =P =P


This is what i got.

Lipgloss from MAC. My first Mac! Lol. Ahem. 5 different shades. SO far i only used two. LOL. These thing must've costed quite a fortune.....thanks alot alot!!! =) I LOVE it! I prolly din show it much, but i was thrilled when i saw this. =D

Kathleen opened her present too...and there was alot of picture taking of the crazy time we had eating and laughing there. LOL. Why do i say 'crazy'? Cos i was being super SOT and high...made everyone laugh but deep inside i was bleeding and miserable but it was Christmas and i want everyone to be happy~~

What crazy thing i did all the evidence is with Sharon. Lol...i kinda dread the day she gonna post it up =X But oh wells. I didnt regret anything i did that night outside McD. Nice memories~~!!


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*Note: This is drafted on 25/12/09...too busy to finish. Pictures in this post are not edited, though i would very much like the time to do it, but unfortunately no. I have other Christmas presents too, from the Christmas gift exchange i had with my friends earlier in the month. And also the pressie that my brother gave me in 2010 =.="" But i won't put them in soon cos i dunno where the pics went =.=!!!! Sorry...

Still, it's the thought that counts! Even thinking of buying one for me is good enough for me already. Thanks to everyone who made my Christmas '09 so lively that day!! Love you all! =D