I lost it.

Perhaps subconsciously i saw this coming. After all, i had been very prone to do it. I was that careless. Careless and blurr, and not alert at all. I sometimes take pride in being alert, but, oh, i dunno. Perhaps weeks of irregular sleep patterns had changed me. Or maybe unhealthy diets. Or my condition is getting worse. I dont know. One of the few.


Today, i officially lost my phone.


My dear phone!!!! I'm sorry!!! ExpressMusic phone. One i treasured very much cos its one heck of a cool looking phone. And....the phone is not mine originally. It was my dad's. He re-used his old phone just so i could use this new phone. =(((( I feel so guilty. I feel so shameful. I feel so....bad.

I had left it in the car when i went to saberkas to reprint my stuff. I was paying, and i put the phone down on the seat. And then i chatted a bit with the uncle. Then.....i just went down. And left the phone behind. And stupidly, i only realised i left the phone almost 2 hrs later!!! How freaking idiotic can u be!!!

I was finishing the last touches to my orkbook and had wanted to leave the room. Then...i realised my phone's not there. The horror i felt. I cursed out loud. First thing i thought of is not the phone, its abt my parents. Sure my dad and mum gonna kill me!!! The phone is not cheap!!! Yes, it may not be those hi-tech phones which have everything, but nvrtheless, it's still expensive. I feel scared to go back home now. And i'm going back in 2 weekss time. =(((

What will they say? Will i get scolded like shit!!!

And then....i thought of my fren who i wanted to meet up together to see lecturer. I thought she must've texted me or sumting, and i wasnt able to reply!! Even so i still went to the uni bookstore to buy stickers for my folder before i went up to see her and my lecturer.

She was there....i was so relieved. I finally found one person i can borrow phone to use. Cos i need to recall my phone...and...i realised.....i dun have anyone in campus to depend on. =(( And i didn't remember phone numbers!!! So yea i was relieved and so i asked to borrow her phone to call my number.


The line is dead. With the voice saying "Sorry, the number you have dialed is unreachable. Pls..." i knew i had lost it forever. All positive thoughts that i might still find it is lost. The feeling i got that time was......indescribable.

I call the uncle again. The phone wasnt in the car anymore. Sure i die. Then i thought of my sim card. I need to suspend it! And my fren, bless her, called the operator for me. And i got my line temporarily suspended. =((((

After we went see lecturer(which didn't help, as the lecturer was not in a good mood and i think i absorbed her stress a bit) my fren offered to bring me go saberkas to get a new phone. God bless her. She wanted to go back do assignment, but becos of me...she had to delay.....i feel so bad....

So i got myself a really basic phone, costing just over $100. Really basic, no FM radio, no bluetooth, not even infrared. Lol. And the way i buy it, i was so rushing. Didn't even think of going other place to survey and compare. I just went to the first shop and bought it. God, wat was i thinkin!!!! The whole day...i wasnt thinking properly. I dunno why. Not enuff sleep? Not wanting to waste my fren's time? Aftershock of losing phone? All are possible.

And then we went Spring to retrieve a replacement sim card. At one point my fren asked me wat is pistachio. I knew it wasa a type of fruit or flavour, but i wanted to know the chinese meaning so i cud explain it properly to her. I reached into my pocket to get my trusty old phone to check dictionary.....then i realised i had lost it earlier. The heartbreak!!!! =(((

At last we went back campus. I'm glad my fren can finally go back and do her stuff!! While i continue to worry abt my last phone....now i do not have a camera phone anymore. I cannot take pics anymore. I felt like i lost a limb or sumting. Everywhere i went, if i saw sumting interesting, sure i take pic. But now....all is lost. I have to be contented with this new phone and 'look forward' to my parents anger....

So i spent the time configuring the phone. The tones suck big time. I was so sad. My expressmusic........gone. WHy me so careless?? But then right. This phone not that bad. It has a flashlight which i could turn on. Cool!!! How many of u have phones that have flashlight??? xDDDD And i cud also set different themes for different profiles...like general, or silent mode. Kinda cool!!! xDDD


Well all is not bad. Cant dwell too much of the past now. I should move on with the new one. Hard....cos i'm loyal. But. I shall think positive. No more complaining. =))

Ahh. Which reminds me. There was an online survey in my campus, where we stand a chance to win an iPhone. xDDD Maybe i was destined to lose my expressmusic phone in order to win the iPhone???? Who knows???? xDDDD


Oh, sure alot of ppl wanna smack me for my arrogance oredi. xDDDD




Shoutout: Sharon Bunny, many thanks. Words cant express my gratitude. God bless u.
Dear 5610, sorry to be such a stupid owner. I loved u alot.