Some explaining to do.

Ok remember abt the last post where i said i'm at the crossroads?

Well i got a sudden call from the Finance dept on thursday morning, telling me they'll reappeal for me again using my prev sem's results, and suggested i go to classes in the meantime. Then that afternoon i got a call from a full-time job i've been applying, asking me to go for an interview.

So i was at a crossroad. One takes me down the unsure path of continuing studies, as the reappeal results isnt a total guarantee too. I might still stop studying in the end. Another path sees me start working to pay back fees i owe the uni, and this means i'm not gonna take the risk of waiting for the loan and studying at the same time. I'm already 3 weeks late for studies anyway. Another path is going back to Miri to work, as the post i'm going for an interview has a post in Miri as well. Leave everything and everyone behind in Kuching.

So i was torn between job and school, Kuching and Miri. And the whole day i nearly frizzed my mind trying to weigh the pros and cons, analyse this and that, and was weighing opinions i got frm friends and mum.

In the end i chose to continue study. For the moment. Cos i really love classes and i missed them alot.

Mm....just take things one at a time. See how it goes.

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Because of the sudden onslaught of things happening all at once i didnt make it known to many ppl yet....it was still a shock to me and i wasnt really absorbing it at the time. So i kept a low profile and didnt tell ppl abt it.

I always try to keep a low profile. I dun really like to broadcast my problems and such. Especially things i myself isnt too sure about. I meant the outcome of the things happening to me or around me. I thought keeping silent and wait out the results is a good thing to do. Like go under the radar or something...

Apparently it is not. Ppl just misunderstand me all the time. Sigh.

Honestly i don't give a damn when ppl misunderstand me and my intentions. Except when it comes to ppl i care so much. Some ppl i hold dear to my heart.....i do not want them to misunderstand me, so i always try to be honest and explain myself. Because their opinions or what they think of me i put in highest regard.

Insecure perhaps? Sumone once told me i have a huge insecurity issue. I dunno. She could be right.