March.

Seems like so much had happened since my last post. I can say the usual, didnt have time, too lazy, work is consuming me, line not good at home etc etc, that those are the reasons i didnt update much. I guess u get me....lols...

Anyway, i'm back home already and left Kuching for good. It had been a good two years. I loved the first year actually, in fact i loved the first 9mths so much. It has something to do with the people in it, but i'm not gonna say anymre. The second year in Kuching was......more of an emotional journey to find myself, and find my purpose. More importantly though, i had wanted to find answers.

So did i find it in the end? I would say yes, i did. Even though somehow i saw it coming and started to brace myself for it. But for me, i had learnt to let go of things. I got my closures. That was enough. In the past year, i nearly succumbed to terminal depression. I was soo depressed over stuff that i was so lost.....i even thought of giving everything up. I was an angry person most of the time. I hurt too easily. Emotionally, and physically. I was spiraling into madness....

Until, i met certain people, people who would define my life in the latter 7 or 8 mths of my stay in Kuching. I had one to thank in particular, she literally SAVED me. I talked abt this with one of my friends, abt how she managed to pull me away from jumping off the edge. And the funny thing is she doesnt even know what she'd done. And i intend to never tell her. Let's just keep things as they are for now.

So i slowly healed, and began to approach things in a new way. I thought i had lost everything then, and i know by now, my greatest mistake is letting someone be my everything. And when i lost that someone...i lost everything. I vow to never let that happen again. I guess, through all these, i am meant to learn this lesson.

Then i started to make mre new friends, but i thank my lucky stars that for once i never got to know any "bad' friends, u know, those type of ppl who will have bad influence on me. Even some friends, i got them unexpectedly. I...never, see myself as an important person. I never thought i could be that important to certain ppl. I just come and go.....and i'll be just someone they happen to "know".

I think the truth's far from that. Yes some people play those roles in my life, but i also know, through this final parting, some are more than that to me. And I am more than that to them. So thank you all, everyone i knew through my stay here. In Kuching, i learnt alot, and it is also here that i met wonderful people i gladly call my friends.


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P/S as usual i will be in Brunei for most of the week and only in Miri in the weekends, unless we had to go during one of the weekdays if we wanna do govt stuff lol. So yeah. U guys know when i am available. =P