Why~

Why spend time on someone who doesn't have time for you?

I keep asking myself that question.....i know better, and yet, i keep going back....

Even when i hinted so strongly in the mail, which "will be replied some other time"......

U know, since sometime ago, "some other time" or "talk to you later", already means "i'm not going to get any reply"....

So why am i still waiting?

Of course. I know why. But its so hard. I am trying tho.

Even when u keep saying we're still friends. If we are, do something about it.....i can't go on sailing this ship alone. It takes effort from both sides to hold up a friendship....

What am i to u? Looks like i'll prolly never get the answer.....and from the speed at how ur defenses went up, looks like its still bothering u....

I really wish, that i didn't leave taints.....but then, u've already seen it as a taint.

Worse, u regret it.

Too bad then. I've had enough too.

And i'm going to keep telling myself, I don't care anymore. I don't want to care anymore. There's no point in caring anymore.

I'm trying. Hard.

Someone tell me how to do it better. I must do it somehow.....

And somehow, i'll be gone before u realise it.