Hello September~

Can't believe I actually left my blog here for 6mths without any new posts. Incredulous! And so much had happened within the last few months and weirdly i'd been keeping it bottled up inside me rather than write them out, which honestly is therapeutic for me.

Mmm to start off, I actually signed up and started to go for gym since last month, August. come 2 mre days and it'll be one full month xD It has been great, I am slowly regaining back my older stamina and generally just feel stronger, lighter and faster. Of course no dramatic body changes yet due to my insane love for food, so I am more or less the same.

Though, I can feel improvement in myself cardio-wise. With good timing I will normally spend 30-45mins on the treadmill. There are some awesome runners around though! One thing I've found out from my gym sessions is that I am severely weak in my core strength. Yeah I maybe can lift but core-wise and lower body-wise I am ultra-weak!

Other than that, at work, well, since July, we had a new manager from Singapore temporarily taking over our sales department as we lost yet another leader. The very impressive SG manager who took over last year left in May, and the Managing Director left in July. Next week gonna lose another colleague again, a supervisor from a supporting department. It really is a shame when all the good and able staffs are leaving :(

Nevertheless, the winds of change had occured, and there is nothing we can do about it now except to adapt to it. And honestly, the process of adaptation for me had been very rough. Changes happened too fast, laws are enforced too soon without allowing space for compromise. Worse, almost on a week-by-week basis, the approach and strategy to best hit on our competitors are changed all the time. How are we able to adapt to a certain change when u change that to another only 3-4 days after first implementing it?

We are also under a period of restructuring. So certain methods of work had to change to fit the restructuring. However, this phase of restructuring had been very messy. It was too rushed and not done with flexibility. How can you implement and ideal structure and at the same time losing on the manpower to enforce it? We are forced to follow in the steps of other regions, but we are severely short of staff and ideally, we haven't reached the full capacity to restructure yet.

As a result of messy leadership, we are working under more pressure than ever. Just to cover on manpower shortfall alone is taxing. We are told to aim high and to achieve more as a group, yet we are understaffed and that means we have to do 2-3 persons job instead. Personally, we all do want to work to the best we can. I believe in each of my colleagues there lies a desire to achieve more, and break more records. But we were being led to do so in a not very efficient method.

Almost everything the new manager implemented had some sort of backfiring element in them. And most of them won't likely to work out, despite his very well intention to implement it. He is a smart guy and can figure out solutions to problems easily, but he is not one who can devise an ideal solution correctly. A quick fix only temporarily solves a problem. A wrong approach will produce more bad effects than good ones.

To put it all simply, we are a herd of lost sheeps. Without a proper leader, without careful management planning, we are spiraling very quickly into deeper disaster. Who can help us? Despite our best to maintain some positivity and drive in our work, one cant help but feel the 'dead' atmosphere in the office hanging upon us, putting more weight on our shoulders.

Recently at the Popular Bookfest held last month, I got myself a copy of "Who Moved My Cheese?". I've read a "teen" version of the book when I was younger and I remembered being inspired by it. Thought the ideas, the metaphors used in the book, are really good. Because of recent events, I finally bought it to read again and help myself in better understanding and accepting changes. It's a good book and I recommend it! Simple yet direct.

(picture from Google)

I think my situation now is, my cheese is about to move. The signs are all there, and I have to quickly get to work on it soon and be prepared for it. xD

So where and what will September bring me? I hope it's all for the best. There might be falls and surprises, but hopefully I will be able to get up, brush it off and make it through. Plan to get as fit as possible is still on; plan to earn as much money as I can is still on, and I'm going to make it HAPPEN. Gambatte to myself!



Cheers!